FEAR

Face Everything And Recover.

Fuck Everything And Run.

haha. 2nd one would be so much easier. anyway...... just got back from piano lesson. alright i guess.. 2 months to exams. oh my god.. not feeling worried yet actually.. haha. but then.. i hope i can upgrade to grade 4.. as my teacher said. but of course must show that i can do it. haha.. then can shorten my path towards.. erm.. grade 8. haha.

yesterday whole day at home.. slept the whole time. woke up at 2. had lunch. then slept at 4 again until 7pm.. went out for dinner with daddy. met richavel with jeffrey. so i wasted the whole of yesterday. just watched tv.. read book.. do theory homework..

now nothing to do.. haha.. listening to spice girls. woo!

later going my mum there.. cut hair.. haha. i once dreamt of having a mum as a hairdresser. then now. it comes true. haha.

4 more days to school reopen. goddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. exciting. meet new people. kinda know what to expect. haha. later got difficult tasks to do. then thanks. hahahaa.

come on and do it! dont care how you look it's just how it feels. come on and do it!

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

secondary school life. indeed great. accomplishments got a few. failures also. but there was no big big failure. so no big big lesson learnt. i know, i didnt make the best out of everything. like being a prefect. i just floated around. no difference from being a normal student. hahahaha. sports day. happy thing. studies. alright. declined over the 4 years. i just hope o's result will be good. pray hard. friends i've made. i've said already. i'll treasure them.. band! hahahaha. love bbss band so so much. sec 1 went in, got so much fun and great seniors. i did my part. tried my best. but only as a IQM. i sucked. totally. well, i'll not repeat next time. only realised the greatness of teachers this year. how much they are doing for us. wanting us to excel in life. and so on.. things that happened.. just so thankful for all the friends i've made.

i so know what's stopping me from.. erm.. moving upwards in life. sigh. i wish i could just change. i'll try. jc. new chance for me.

hahahahaa. listening to toy box now. super cute. i'll spend the next few hours digging out old cds. good day!

maybe some pretty girls are in your world.
excuse me, i could also be your girl.
lately, everyone is making fun.
na na na na na na... (an an an an an an)

hahahaha. i died.

RAMBS, MIE LURBEX EUU ALL WORX!!!!!!!!!

oh please twits, just shut the fuck up.

new year resolution number 1 : cut down on vulgarities.
new year resolution number 2 : make the best out of everyday, eveything!!! and i mean EVERY!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh my god!! next year catechism class... joining the sec 3s.. back to last time. no friends again. please make sure i'll be friendlier this time. hahaha. welcome me people!! although we dont know each other.

what else to look forward to... so it's jc life, music exams, new catechism class. CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!! haha. and then... valentines day.................? o's result. and then settled to prepare for U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. i like to look forward into my future. but i still dont know what i want to do in life.

new year resolution number 3 : stop looking out for good looking people.

haha.

BGR should be the last thing on my mind now. because.............. i still fail to love myself sometimes. CORNY! haha okay. but the thing is, first thought on my mind is always "i'm not good enough for him". so DUH! haha. to people who use "duh", please. please! use it wisely.

yeah... argh!!!! i'm so dumb actually!!!! so many things i dont know about. sighhhh. it's not like i feel good about it. but certain things i'm just not interested in. and the others i just didnt read about it.

i'm trying!!!! sighhh.

bye.

life's like that.

hahaha. copying from readers digest.

anyway it sucked.

doesnt work on me.

yeah i know, it's a what goes around comes around thing. haha.

haha. time to boast!!!! just now on my way up home. this uni guy wanted to do a survey with me.. some stuff on healthy lifestyle.. then he said stuffs like...................... "you got a nice figure", "you got a figure for a model", "you mean nobody told you?" then chats. forgot to ask for his name!!!! sigh. anyway i thought he was filipino.. but is mix chinese and malay. hahaha. okay. aiya! give me a chance to feel happy about these once in a blue moon compliments.

no biggie.

anyway! things were happening nonstop since christmas eve. matthew's house. mass. meet mum. party. stayed over at mum's place. party. went to tian bee's chalet. movie. dinner. whew! still feeling thrilled. hahahahhaa.

then next two days. stay home! relax and prepare myself for the new year, mentally. and then... 4e3 chalet. new year. better be good!!!!!!!

piano.. havent been practising. or doing the theory stuff. shhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiittt. sigh.

and thanks those who made christmas so wonderful for me.

and again. so dont want this year to end. too soon. too soon.

it's seriously, Christmas Time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! oh my god i can tell you, i'm seriously feeling a bit tipsy now. i'm now in my mum's place. i met her and charlynn just now in lucky plaza.. they were having some kind of party in some mini "restaurant". then i drank champagne. haha dont know correct spelling or not. anyway! it was fun! okay i danced and all that. first time okay! hahahahhahaa. i enjoyed myself seriously. with my younger sis. charlynn!!! hahahahaha. okay. then.... met my mum friends. i drank like. 3 cups. but not drunk. just.... giddy. hahahaha. high!

before that went for mass with matthew. yeah and ben. we stood together. had a nice time. they were funny and talkative. it's mass hello??? ahahhaha. but it's okay. love them. and it was probably the last time i'm seeing them this year. sigh! i'm really sad okay. will miss you two! and then matthew's dad sent me to orchard. one thing i hate about myself today. why must i be so SHY in front of matthew's mum. haha. argh! but anyway. yeah.

thank god i made up with mathangi. christmas really does wonders! hahaha. okay.

yeah. love you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha. so happy now.

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!

Christmas Eve!!!!!!!!!!!

yooooooooo hooooooo! haha. in matthew's house now... came here this afternoon for lunch. rambs plus melvin and dharshini. anyway we had a nice time i guess.. although half the time we were in silence and thinking of what to do. but turned out okay. we just dunno... did nonsensical stuffs and all. exchanged presents also. haha. of course it's nice. giving and receiving. yeah and we got to know dharshini a little better. cool. outspoken and all. haha. and drambs now. if melvin was in then drammbs. haha. okay. lame. then matthew's mum was great. thanks a lot. seriously. yeah... soon everyone had to leave. jx church. sean and ben and dharshini home. melvin out with friends. yeah. so i'm going for mass later with matt's family.

haha.

where are the virtues?

the past 3 days were awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahhaha. anyway i jus came back from piano lesson. and received a present from my teacher. hahaha. thanks so much.

went for chalet on monday. until yesterday. it was good. haha. many turned up. some left on the first day. anyway.. we had barbecue on the first night. i finally know how it works... i'm quite dumb actually! haha. then we went to walk walk. haha. nice! was mainly with hweeting poovanes and syafiq. then came back... played cards and talked in the room with some of them. slept eventually. next morning.. wanted to see sunrise. but didnt happen. woke up at around 10... went to mac with xueting and people to eat. rented bicycles. came back. dont know doing what.. all the other girls left. was bored so i went cycling on my own.... hahaha. fell down! quite embarrassing. haha. but only 2 people saw. they helped the bicycle up, but not me! but nah.. so kind of the girl to offer to to help me back to the room. but i declined... rode all the way to the end. and back. quite enjoyable.. came back.. slept. woke up to find all the girls still not around. then i just hung around. played pool with some guys. then went to sit on the cliff. chats and all. aiya. most of the night was walking. until 5 am or something. slept for 2 hours. next morning went back with shumin.

so main things that happened during the chalet. barbeque. cycling. walking at the beach. pool. sounds boring. but........................ it's the people that you spent it with which makes it fun and memorable right??? hahahahaa. okay. yeah. so. 2e2 people. i'll treasure you all. 2 years of time together. means a lot to me. plus kai jie. haha. thanks!

then yesterday went to kbox. rambs first outing. haha. i loved it! sang. had a good time laughing and all that. took neoprints also. came home and slept all the way until this morning. so i'm back to normality now. jokes.

to jia xin and sean: i really love you both lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i mean we can have so much fun and laughter together. even on msn. haha. next year 3 of us take 3 different paths. i really hope we will still keep in contact.

and also. matthew and ben. melvin. laavanyah. nadia. mathangi. tsz ho. 4e3 and 2e2 friends. band mates. louisse and christine. MC friends. primary school mates. seniors. teachers. schoolmates. other school friends. acquaintances.

merry christmas. my deepest thank you for your friendships.

okay i'm gonna go to have my last backbone checkup later. haha. then today and tomorrow just stay home and relax first.

i need to catch a movie!!!!!!!!!!

dont step back.

hello............................................................

today i went for mass with sean. met jia xin and went to orchard. bought presents and cards. went home. family outing to east coast park. had dinner at the restaurant. which totally sucked. food as well as service. and price. 10 bucks for a few pieces of pathetic kai lan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh. had a nice time with sis and dad. we went to parkway parade(first time for me). and then drove around a little. home.

things should be fine now.

i just dont want the same thing to repeat again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i never wish to let you know.

haha. so. another new week. chalet and stuff!!!!!! haha. christmas!!!!!!

aiya.. live one day at a time. cant look forward too much. it wont turn out well! always like that!

it takes two hands to clap.

so i got into st andrew's jc. guess i'm fine with it. quite excited actually.. this afternoon my dad drove there to see the school. nice! right in front got Chapel of the Holy Spirit. haha. and distance doesnt matter actually. i'll get use to it. straight bus. not that bad. and then.. until now i know of no one going to that school. from my class. or anyone in BBSS. there's riana. haha. but it'll still be great. great!

and then after that my dad went to see cars. decided to get a new one! woo hoo! christmas-cum-chinese new year present for himself. and us! haha. cooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool. nice salesman too. haha.

also went to orchard. to continue my christmas shopping. not yet done still. i met matthew and ben.. and ben's friend. darshini or something. haha. for a while. then they left for home. sean and me walked around a little. met melvin. walked. talked. watched performances. sat down at starbucks.

some little commotions here and there. i wouldnt want to give a shit. since the year is ending, why not let it cool and get on with life? set some new year resolutions. and look forward to your new year ahead. instead of engaging in some mindless and aimless arguments.

anyway...................... hahahahhaahhaha. i'm feeling alright i guess. soon it will be christmas day. i just wish to spend it nicely. with people i love. feeling peace.

still dont have any plans though! haha. with rambs probably. my dad. my mum. outing. mass. party.

then next week. so packed. first 3 days already got chalet. 2 days. then christmas. last week also.. 2 chalets. ahh!

things that i wanna do. christmas shopping. k box. outing with BMS. go out with charlynn. outing with rambs. movie movie movie.

2 weeks left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Merry Christmas!

you're so beautiful.

christmas is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait. my favourite time of the year. it'll be fun!

yesterday was goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood. my dad sent me to ben's house. passed my stuffs to matt and ben. then 2nd big big big big house i visited. nice. then we played x-box and watched a bit of movie in the entertainment room. went off to play pool. i lost like hell. but it was quite fun. then said goodbye and i went to meet my mum. had a mother and daughters dinner at pizza hut. chatted. my sister's in looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove. so sweet.

today. shopping! with melvin and sean. was nice. and jia xin's back! haha. i bought some presents. and one for myself. not done yet. i still got some money left luckily...

"give me an R!"...

hahahaha. thanks guys. i thought it was so sweet.

pride and prejudice

i'm sorry jx i watched it without you!! anyway it was alright.. not very good anyway. but keira knightley. love her.

and then. so we went to bugis. rmbs. movie. dinner. was fine.

seriously, it doesnt matter.

cut the mean stuff, and all will be fine.

today was quite fun! went out with sean and melvin. met sean for church. then went to westmall... met medeline. had some piano performance thing going on in west mall.. waited for melvin. went to jurong east. library. missed the performance! missed sophistifunk! sigh. then deciding where to go........... and the coin said we should go to tampines. well people, trust the coin!! it brings good luck! haha. so....... we went to tampines mall.. did a little of window shopping. tried to call benedict out. and then went to bugis. to eat. then matthew invited us to his mother's birthday party! haha. so we went. NICE HOUSE. oh my god.......... hahahaha. envy you a lot matthew. so big and pretty. plus the christmas decorations. and then matthew and benedict waited for us at the bus stop somewhere near his house. walked in. met his mum. and friends and relatives. okay i suck at this. not being able to speak up and all. well, i'll just have to learn. ate a little. birthday song and cake. ben left. we talked. went up to his room. some oh my god stuff happened. ahhahahahahhaha. yeah and we left around 11.30.

another new week. my dad's taking leave. i wanna go out. i need to buy christmas presents and stuff. shoes. clothes. bra. haha. and this friday gonna get the posting results. oh my god! and then next week got chalet. after christmas got another one. new year got another one.

havent finish cleaning my room. didnt get to read much.

and some irritating stuff. it hurts. really. but i should just try not to take it seriously.

a friend is someone who brings out the best in you. well, it's the other way round now.

haha..... it sucks. to lose some friends just before the holidays.

and i need to do some sports! wanna go to the zoo. and some other new places.

need to plan for the next 3 weeks.

monday. k box.

tuesday. stay home. clean room. go out with father.

wednesday. stay home. family time.

thursday. piano at 8 am. christmas shopping!!!!!!!!!!!

friday. christmas shopping.

saturday. dunno.

sunday. church. i wanna go out with RAMBS please. haha.

monday. 2e2 chalet.

tuesday. 2e2 chalet.

wednesday. 2e2 chalet.

thursday. piano in the morning. no plans.

friday. no plans.

saturday. christmas eve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with rambs. mummy. midnight mass. i guess....

sunday. christmas. dunno yet!

monday.

tuesday. tian bee's chalet.

wednesday. tian bee's chalet.

thursday. piano.

friday. 4e3 chalet

saturday. 4e3 chalet. NEW YEARS EVE.

sunday. 2006.

haha............... i need to go out to some nice places............................ i dont want 2006 to come so soon.

a time to reflect, to love, to forgive.

twits. pricks.

heya........... it's like 2 am now.. i cant sleep. slept too much in the day already. these couple of days were totally dumb. didnt go out or anything. stayed home. main events were sleeping and playing tales of symphonia. today i had piano lesson. and i also packed my room a little.

just 2 words can bloody hell make my day!!!!!!!!!!! hahahhaha. such a sweet thing to say.

and then................. oh my god!!!!!!!! seriously love this blog. museum-of-twits.blogspot.com

haha.. totally express my feelings also.

i just hate the way they talk. and the way most of them take pictures. it's really UGH........

anyway doesnt really matter.

3 weeks.

change

hello... today nothing much happened. went for piano lesson.. and then came back home and played tales of symphonia. just looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove that game.

anyway. the holidays. havent been real fun. sigh. just so many things i wanna do, but not done. like packing my room, reading and reading, buy christmas presents, go out with certain groups of people, go to places like the zoo. haha.

sigh. all i have done is. play game. go out. orchard orchard orchard. nothing meaningful.

quite sucky. shit.

too far. real far.

shall stay home for the next few days i guess. clean my room. take a break. do some reflection.

suck.

it's christmas time in the city

haha.

hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!

had great fun today. went to k box with jia xin and sean. we sang like crazy! let's do it again man.

dont start.

haha!

anyway sean's back!!!! yipee! looking forward to some fun times.

today.. went to jia xin's church. see her get baptised. went with mathangi. then the service. was quite impressive. haha. the enthusiasm in the people.

never try too hard.

getting good.

in jia xin's house now. hahah. came to take my stuffs back. and then used the computer and watched how to lose a guy in 10 days again. later going all the way to the east to play bowling and pool i guess. fun-ness.

anyway just now had piano lesson. i guess i'm not really prepared for the exams yet. sigh. practise more.. but then holidays everyday go out.. where was that determination??? haha.

so hungry now.

i hope history is not gonna repeat itself again and again and again. let me see it has happened around 4 times already. oh my. i dont wanna ruin it.

from now on, speak good english! haha. feeling the pressure.

natural!

happy birthday jia xin!

haha.. today was quite nice.. jia xin's birthday. we celebrated.. her bro.. matthew.. benedict.. ate in swensens.. watched 2 movies.. walked... took neoprints.. just like heavens was so nice. sweet and touching. and then saw 2..................................... was really.................... stupid.

haha. then we saw melvin. and fi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my god. was so shocked. it's a small world.

and then i got into a new clique. the RAMBS. haha. cutie.

dont really feel like typing. anyway.

all i want for christmas is you

hahahahahha! feeling good right now. went to sentosa today.. with jiaxin, matthew and benedict. ya i know 4 people only.. but it was quite fun.. we played cards.. played volleyball.. played soccer. played frisbee. went into the sea. weather was okay. drizzling and all that.. i love playing ball games! and soccer is quite fun actually. hahaha.. i hope we can go out together more often.. and then we went to burger king in somewhere in city hall. saw shao yu working there. haha. then went to that esplanade area and played cards and stuff... today is just nice!

although some stuff... dont be sad please.. just let it go.

before sentosa also went for band.. played a bit.

november is going to be over soon. and then very soon december. i dont feel like starting school or anything.

actually quite angry.. some stuffs.. but it's alright. just treasure what i have now.

okay so tired now.

i cant type no more.

haha.

things better be good

finally the busy days are over! nothing big coming up to worry about.. haha. i was thinking.. o's was like last week. and it seems like a long time has already passed.

anyway. yesterday i had a nice time with jia xin. and her brother. i stayed over at her house after the graduation night thing. hahah. we did nothing much. but i love her. haha. played one round of dead or alive. what the hell.. haha... then i watched mean girls while jx "he's so cute" a million times. then she fell asleep. then me. i woke up at 11. sorry lah jx using your aircon for extra 3 hours. then we went to watch prime. with her brother. jun. woo! he's nice. home-y guy.. hahaha.. then that movie.. alright.. lots of sex scenes. until we had enough of it. and then in the end.... they did not get together. kinda what the hell.

then the grad night thing. was good. actually alright. everybody looked great. a few stood out. and then the food.. games.. taking pictures.. listening to speeches. love the teachers. and my friends. i'll always remember all of you.

and then after that went with melvin.. mathangi.. and jia xin.. walked around orchard. too bad cant walk past swensens!!!! sigh!

before that.. was the acjc thing. quite pissed. wanna thank jia xin again for spraying her hair just to get into the school! oh my god so sorry. sigh then we arrived there. i met the trombone section leader and my maybe future trombone mates. i can just dream on. we went out for lunch. nice people. talked. introduced. there was this guy. "i'm a lazy bitch". when asked why he wants to joint the band. "cause the people are hot". hahahaha. then we rolled. then silence. haha.. we went back to the school. went into some room. started playing. i sucked!!!!!!! seriously. i think i'm the lousiest there. out of the 4 of us. sigh!!!! then that sl told me my posture was wrong. and then the whole band came back. and we started playing. first song. okay my sightreading not that good. with a few running notes and all that. i wanna cry..... he thinks i'm lousy for sure. after a while.. he asked me to change seats with another guy. martin. so i played 2nd trombone. it didnt feel good i guess... so i left that place feeling totally shitty and demoralised.

argh. but the people in there are nice. and the conductor. dr lee. oh my god. it's gonna be a hard time if i join that band. so so so so so so so different. of course, in order to succeed, one must learn to adapt to changes. haha. i shall not give up. i'm gonna join the band. i'm gonna work so freaking hard. if i can get into acjc that is. haha...

chose the jcs already.. hoping to get into my first choice. i'll just go wherever i'm posted to i guess.. no point appealing and all that.

so next few days and weeks.. i can just sit back relax and enjoy life.

gotta do some reading and sports.

sean coming back soon. yay!

never was and never will be.

hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahha. i wonder who reads my blog man... please tag thanks.. hahaha..

really so relax now.. past few days been going to orchard. buy stuffs for grad night. i bought my dress already. i just wish it's alright! and no one wears the same shit as me. haha. what's worst? overdressed, underdressed, or wearing the same thing as somebody else.

and....... my sis took some goth-like pics of me. hahaha. i'm not photogenic.. so not very nice. and freaking melvin didnt say he died man.... hahaha. never mind i'll take that as a compliment. too pretty already. haha.. why am i kidding myself.

aiya.. tomorrow most importantly is to feel comfortable.

haha. and my mum cut my hair. is alright. not a nightmare luckily. i feel so freaking bad.. forgot to thank her. argh! then yesterday went to see cy in guess!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg. hahahah. i'm so full of shit. depression after coming out of my mum's salon. i'm sorry man... sigh.

hahahahhaha!!! i'm dying once again.

anyway laa's birthday was quite nice. we watched harry potter. i dunno the story and all that. but i'm so good! recognising ralph fiennes by his mi ren de eyes. haha. jokes. anyway he acted as voldermot(or how you spell it ahha).

then we ate in swensens. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! really screams. the waiter. i know.. being shallow and all. but... haha. that's not all. some other stuffs and i shall not say. hahaha.

haha.. later no piano lesson again. sigh.. teacher always sick. wonder what's going on. so next i'm gonna play game!!!!!!!!!! haha. everday. still got storybooks to read, and comics also.. dies..

prays hard for tomorrow. please accept me acjc!! hahaha.

bloody hypocrite

so it's finally over for us... can do whatever we want now... yesterday after the last paper was good. alright i guess.. we went to search for dresses in orchard and suntec there.. there was not much time.. so couldnt find anything i like. haha. then we went to esplanade there.. sat around and played cards. everywhere looked so pretty. lights and everything. christmas-y feeling. then after that nadia's dad sent us back to bb. nicey. thanks nadia. haha. i met melvin after that. went to zz's house. overnight. they played mahjong, while i played game and watched 'be with you'. quite a nice show. about this ultra loving family and their story. so touching...

argh! feeling angry. everything's not fine.

and then today. jx came to my house suddenly. and we went for band.. played with them.. great!! hahaha. deyong is so nice. and trombone.. woo hoo! dominating section. so proud of them.. hahaha.. then went home. sigh! slept.

okay.. so plans until wednesday..

tomorrow. laa's birthday!!! hahaha. i hope she'll be happy. my dearest. i love you!!!

then monday... go my mum there.. then shop for dress.

tuesday.. nothing yet. but i think i'll stay home and play games. haha.

wednesday!!! okay. i hope time's on my side. morning go that PAE thing.. then after that go acjc band.. i really really really hope i'm good enough for them.. please please please...!!!! so if 12 points is not enough to go in, they'll help me appeal.. hahahaha.. please!

will leave around 1.30.. then go prepare for the big night. hahaha.. hope it'll be fun. but everyone's complaining about not looking good or whatever.. aiya.. it's not that that matters the most most most.

whatever.

sigh.. really whatever!!!!!

fuck.

live, and let live.

just enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAA!

5 more days, 5 more days!!!!

okay.. i wasted another day. didnt study. sigh. just dont feel like..

anyway i had my first holy communion yesterday. it's like, hello?? first holy communion in sec 4?? haha. but it was alright i guess.. at least i had christine and louisse with me. and then i told no one about my suppose-to-be-special day. it's really stupid. then i saw people's families so happy for those pri 3s.. taking photos and all that. both my friends also.. of course i couldnt help but feel abit errrrr.. jealous.. ahahhahaha. no.. dont know man.. so we wore white and that veil on my head. hahaha. holy. and our teacher martin.. next week is the last lesson together. sigh.... sadness again.. and AGAIN. only at the very end, we had nice conversations. they only got to know about my family background. and other stuff. then we took photos.. things always happen only at the end. haha.. mostly.. do you get what i'm saying.. haha.. then we went in.. i was the tallest among them.. oddness. haha. then the normal mass stuff. then poof! my mum appeared.. hahaha. she came to see me when she heard about it. then yeah and all that.. ended i went out with my mum have dinner with her friends. german peeps. marche. then i drank red wine again. hahaha. took taxi home.

so... next year.. gonna join those sec3s for cathechism class.. and get confirmed finally in 2007? haha... nothing is too late. yeah.

so... tuesday paper starts again. sigh. oh god..

i have so many so many things to do during the hols. haha. that i wanna do.

bye..

bullshit.

oh my i'm finally finally blogging. haha. half of the exams are gone.. left a maths geog physics and chem! and time is passing by freaking fast. anyway....... today had e maths paper 2. was alright. all the papers were alright. except for bloody english. i so know that i didnt write well. know nuts about marriage, but i still chose that question. and in the freaking speech didnt freaking compare the choices. sigh............................... it's always like that.. doing alright all along, and right at the very end, i'll blow it. gone. and ss was okay this time.. please please please give me a B3. haha.

today i tried playing my trombone! went to band.. jia xin laa and me.. haha.. was only for a while. yeah we wanted to go to the zoo. hahaha. but no money. $15. so we went to bp plaza.. borrowed a couple of movies. and went to laa's house and watch. hahaha. was nice. maid in manhattan and how to lose a guy in 10 days. romance stuff. sweet and all. and charming guys. haha. as usual. ralph fiennes.. his eyes are sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo mi ren. haha. and then we went for dinner at the coffee shop near laa's house. haha. chat... then home with jia xin.

came home. bathe. watched survivor. and some other shows.

didnt study.

whew. cant wait for o's to end. yeah yeah yeah. 2 chalets coming up. games to play. outings. lots of stuff....

only problem is....................

argh whatever. also dont know how to say. just hope all will be fine.

23 nov will be a busy day.... 3 things in a day. haha. woo!

acjc!

hahaha. kinda nice man. all the titles names of jcs. anyway. yeah i went there today. today quite a few people went. addition of cheryl jason and jerrold. and subtraction of hwee ting.

i love it there. only thing is transportation quite troublesome. bus then mrt then bus again. prelims 10 points! i have that teeny weeny little chance i guess.. getting 10 points after taking away cca points.

and then.... the band ROCKS. i'm joining it. if the school will accept me.

after the open house. i went to church for that first holy communion rehearsal. oh my oh my oh my. it was quite embarrassing. all the rest were primary school kids. mostly primary 3. only me and those two in my class. and i'm like the oldest. oh my god. save me. haha. have to wear some white dress and a veil(or whatever) on the head. i have to buy??????? oh my god. some more it is during the o's period. argh. and then one week before have to do first confession. seriously. i feel so odd........ ahhh!

why the hell did i join this church so late. i'm baptised at birth. and by right should be going to catechism class since primary one. but some parents of mine wouldnt care less. and now look at the shit i'm in.

actually not that bad.............. just go with the flow. and get confirmed finally.

but i'm doing nothing to be a better catholic.

and the worst thing is i'm like ALONE in that church!?!??!! but i like my class. "special" class for "special" people like me who joined late. christine. louisse. billy. and the teacher. yes people my class is that small. 4 people. and 1 teacher. but they're nice. and finally today we had some nice conversations. haha.

and also wanna thank tsz ho for going to mass with me sometimes. haha.

sigh! yes this is one problem in my life. but actually never mind. not that bad...

oh shit! havent study today. yeah yeah whatever. not gonna complain.

hahahahhaha! acjc's trombone sectional leader just smsed me! oh my! hahaha. feeling welcomed and all. i wish i can enter!!!!!!!! anyway i went to each jc's band booth and wrote my name in all the forms. haha. they ask one lah. acjc one very nice. ask you how many years experienced. and your post. hahahaha. can show off a bit. okay. yeah. haha.

may the light of day light your way.

last day of school!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally i'm online and blogging. but nobody's here! no sean. no laa. sigh. anyway today was kinda........ sad. yeah.. last day of school. our class is quite bonded i guess.. mr siah played a song for us. and then we took photos. haha. seriously look forward to graduation night. hope everyone will turn up. haha. it will be great. hahaha. the invitation card. "let's boogie the night away!". hahahahha. hope that it will really be a crazy night.

and then after that... went down to first floor there. then saw my beloved juniors!!!!!!!!!! it's also sorta last time i'm gonna see them. but i'll come back. after o's. i miss them. i miss band. i miss playing trombone.. so so so so so much. haha. deyong is the best! after that, mathangi, laa, jx and me went to bukit panjang plaza. we've been going there everyday this week. study at mac there. is nice and able to study. so that's good. we also played cards after studying. reward. hahaha.

today also had geog mock exam. then teachers giving some talk. mdm yaw talked about chem prac. mr quek talked about physics prac. mr latiff talked about english and some other stuffs. the teachers are really nice and wonderful. how are we suppose to show our gratitude?

really love them.

and my friends.

feel so sad... leaving each other.

so we had our mock exams during the past 2 weeks. i did alright. although quite slack.

and next 2 weeks study break... then o's. next tuesday got chem prac. then thursday physics prac. all the best people.

so it's 1 more month to hols........ and it's really party time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ajc, sajc.

hey.

my blog is kinda dead. haha.

today we went to two open houses. mathangi, hweeting, syafiq and me. haha. was fun going with them. suppose to be whole class go. or something like that. but all last minute back out. yen yen enchun and kaiyun also went. we went to anderson jc first. it's at yio chu kang. drop off walk abit. quite direct i guess. haha. and it's alright. looks old again. and their band is attractive. unlike cjc's. haha. and... they concentrate so so so so so much on studies. cca only small part. cut off point after o's 8. haha. i can forget it.

i love odac!

and then after that.. we went to harbour front.. to eat. jia xin and made a vow. not to eat fast food for 2 weeks. if not will do badly for o's... haha.. just 2 more days. then i can eat already. quite hard to ta han actually. ate at foodcourt. then went to st andrew's junior college. we travelled quite a lot. mrt. change here change there. then chatted. nice. sajc need to go harbour front. then take bus. or 188. haha. but then after they move. so far. and their new school look so nice! saw the model. so big. haha. i want!! but i dont think so also.. cut off the most also 11. sigh... band didnt get to listen to them. but obviously must be so rockable. syf gold with honours. or how you spell it. we spent little time in sajc. wasted. haha. then our tour guide. gunalan. nice guy. haha.

home. slept. ate dinner. no one's at home. watched tv. never study. oh my god. where the hell my dad go?

soooooooooooooooo after next saturday's acjc open house. i'll decide. but o's.. kinda scared. scared cannot maintain. and i'm not really doing any work now. not enough. slow. my plan was to study ss and bio this week. but what did i achieve? bio alright did 3 papers. ss one chapter. sigh! left tomorrow. haha. next week still got mock exams. never study. i'm dead. dead. dead.

just now was writing in yenyen's autograph book. then thinking of what will happen after o's. graduation night surely gonna be fun and emotional. then after that? everyone go their separate ways? i just hope all those friendships wont end. and there are things that i wanna say to some people before parting. hahahhaaha. sadly these things will never be said.

and also the teachers i love them! mr latiff. mrs lim. mdm yaw. mr quek. mdm jayanthi. miss diana. miss lim! miss ngiam! mr goh!

and also miss chiew, mr danny. haha. so many wonderful teachers. of course the only way to thank them is to get good results and all that. i hope i can.

my class. laa jx melvin. all rocks. rocks. rocks.

k.. i better go study bio.

i love you. whoever's reading this. haha.

catholic jc

heya.

hahaa. today went to cjc's open house. with nadia and jiaxin and jia xin's friend, benjamin.

i dont know man...

but it's alright i guess.. like the people there. like the principal. like the school spirit. like the fact that i can choose the subjects i want. good that i have a straight bus there. like it because my good friends wanna go there. like the toilets.

oh my god. that's it?? now what i dont like. the band. the school's appearance. old. haha. the running track.

jjc. seems a little better. except for the band. and it doesnt offer KI.

i dont know!!! sigh.

we'll see.. still got acjc and sajc open house.

aiya. anyway.. no need to worry about these stupid stuffs. concentrate on o's first.

it's all the same.

soooooooooooooooooooo... after the open house. went to west mall with jiaxin. ate at cofffee bean. then went to play arcade. fun. hahaha. then went home. jogged with dad. 8 rounds!! hahaha. 3.2km. only anyway..

shit havent study!!!! later.. i love star movies and hbo and animal planet. hahaha.. distracting me.

okay. off now.

small little ships set sailing.

time to reflect. haha. today was the last day of lessons with our teachers. greeted everyone of them goodbye. and mrquek was quite sweet to play a song for us. forgot the title. but that song by diana ross.

dont lose your way
with each passing day
we've come so far
dont throw it away
..........
.........
if we hold on together
i know i'll dreams will never die
dreams see us through till forever
as clouds roll by
for you and i.

hahaha.. part of the song.

then.... after school saw mr quek in the canteen. asked him about JCs.. his ex students were also there.. then talked about those stuff. factors to consider... what to do now till o's.. haha..

acjc

or

cjc.

i dont know.

but tomorrow got cjc open house. so we'll check it out.

haha.. then.. next 2 weeks mock exams. and then another 2 weeks study break.

o's. another 2 weeks.

so it's like just 6 weeks to freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my god.. so near yet so far. hahahah..

and was thinking about the past 4 years. 4 years. of sec sch life. and soon we're moving on to the next stage.

haha.. also dont want to say much about it.

just some feelings.

bye!

Praise the Lord.

this week has been great. didnt really study or what.. mostly going out with my BELOVED friends.. let me think.. tuesday... oh ya!!! jiaxin laa and me went to orchard to get melvin's present. we walked a lot.. got a shirt for him. haha. and also went to little india to get those tickets.. but sold out.. so laa cried out loud. but it was alright. visited my mum too who rocked as usual. hahahah. okay okay i remember. before going to orchard we went up to the library to see someone and also teach kerby some stuffs. and that is also the day laa fell in love with somebody. hahahaha. in school we were like looking out for him every now and then. hahah. i seriously admire him.... but oh well. get over it. hahahha. at least i know what kind of guy i'm looking for. hahaha. seriously!

then wednesday.. after school laa and jiaxin went for their excursion thing. lucky them! the TAs followed them! so i went home and slacked and slept. thursday.. melvin's birthday! we didnt get to spend it with him. but we're still okay and talking. so that's fine. after school went home. lessons ended at 4.30. we got back most of the results!!! and i am glad. because i managed to get 6 As. but mostly A2s.. hahaha.. yay!!!!!!!!! L1R5 12 points. i do get to go to a good JC. what i want is acjc. but i dunno. i just love it's band!!!! haha. yeah.

then yesterday was good too! after school went for excursion. botanic gardens. orchid garden. hahaha.. nice. with my rockable class!! a lot of teasing. arun and me. lame and all that. pairing everyone up. took pictures.. nice! and that after that went to meet laa jia xin and melvin.. with nadia.. at orchard.

and i didnt expect it! they actually bought that blouse for me!!!!!! the one that i liked. hahahaha. oh my god!!!! i was really touched. and happy. plus that ultra super duper sweet note. oh my....................... if you all are reading this.. i just wanna tell you i really love you all very much!!! and i thank god for blessing me with such wonderful people. haha!

and sean too!

so we stayed in orchard.. nadia left. we decided to go to esplanade. that dancing area. we bought cup noodles to eat. sat down at one corner. ate. talked. played cards. watched people dance and skate. to that girl who danced and smoked at the same time, you're not freaking cool okay. it's disgusting. played until 9 plus.. then home. i bathed.. slept. until 1230 today.. hahaha. freaking pig. so lazy.

hahahha.. happiness in me now.

back to work!

urgency!

hey hey.. lessons start again. results not yet out. came home early today. but i havent started on any work. gonna do a maths homework now.

sigh!

why am i missing out on all the great things???

hahaha.. once again. hopes crushed. so weird. things really arent what they seem to be. i'm always fooled! haha.

so he's attached! sigh. and he seems such a nice guy.

yeah yeah.. o levels! no point thinking of such things.

never mind....

did dentention today with zul.

miss koe is amusing herself everyday.

"i'm sorry for being late miss koe"

"i promise not to be late again miss koe"

"thank you miss koe"

"i love you miss koe"

my god. we're suppose to say those before getting back our stuff.

really............................ what the hell......................

haha. but it's alright. miss koe is nice anyway.

so... linkin park rocks. cillian murphy rocks.

stop calling people to get a life please. your world your life. everyone doesnt have to be like you.

and.

the thing is.

i should really start working hard.

oh stop that crap and bullshit.

sentosa!

hahahhahahahahhahahahahahhahaha.

oh my god.

we're so lucky.

jia xin and me.

and my dad. went to sentosa today. had quite a fun time.

we made new friends.

they're nice.

and funny.

we played monkey in the sea.

and volleyball.

and i'm so dark now.

yay!

we talked. introduced.

strangers really rock.

haha.

then jiaxin headed for church. while dad and me went to have my spectacles fixed.

cause jia xin threw the ball at my face.

thanks.

the guy tried to bent back the bent part. then the lens cracked.

my dad said i can try contact lens.

woooooooooo hoooooooooooooooo!!!

i'm now glasses-free.

yay!!!






today is so nice.

=D

i love movies.

prelims are over! hahaha.. actually nothing much to be happy about also.. just pray hard i did well.. well enough to go acjc.. hahah.. i really hope wish pray real real real real hard!!! haha.. today was nice.. we went to lot 1 to rent some movies.. went to laa's house and watch. hahah.. before that we ate in long john silver.. melvin mathangi jx laa and me. haha. felt nice. back together. haha.. yeah then we played cards. bridge, shithead, bluff. was fun. we've been playing for the past few days! got chased away once.. at west mall burger king there.. haha.. ruining our school's image.. so sorry man. but most of the times we were at the 30th storey.. fun times.. with dearest friends.. then today... watched 50 first dates, and the shutter. haha. 50 first dates was touching.. with adam sandler so sweet and funny. screams! hahahha.. love so many actors!!! they really rock!

adam sandler.

cillian murphy.

johnny depp.

brad pitt.

josh hartnett.

haha.. and many more..

faints and screams.

yeah.. then shutter.. watched before.. only jia xin first time. then screamed out loud twice.

then we headed back to west mall. mathangi. jiaxin and me.

jia xin and i had cup noodles for dinner. for the thousandth time. then home.

tomorrow gonna party out with jiaxin at sentosa. it's gonna be fun!!! hahaha.. relaxing time at the beach. woo hooo!!!

i watched the longest yard twice too. hahahha.. adam sandler and nelly. really cool. and nice story.

after o's got so many plans..... firstly i wanna rent every freaking movie i wanna watch. please please please dont let me miss out any.

and then.... i'm gonna read storybooks. haha.

comics too. blood!!!!!!!!!!!! i didnt finish. sacrificed for o's. yeah yeah...

and.................... graduation night, laa's bday, jia xin's bday, CHRISTMAS, sean's coming back are the few things i really look forward to.

and the various chalets...

and i hope to go overseas. just malaysia is fine. or cruise.

i also got many games to play!!! haha.. game cube. warcraft. !!!!!!!

and then must practise piano extra hard.

overnights.

back to band. alumni!!!!!! i miss trombone-ing so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much.

clean my room again.

okay okay...

i'm gonna enjoy all that only if i do well for o's.

so back to work. 1 more month.

TA

helloooooooo just watched wicker park on star movies just now. quite nice... then got josh hartnett who was extremely handsome. hahaha.

and today.... in the morning went to play badminton and basketball with my primary school friends... hongyi weixing tianbee chang boon and karen. ahhaha.. was quite fun. especially basketball. they think i'm fierce and ahlianish. i'm sorry! hahaha.. i'm not like that anyway. but also not gentle and whatever.... haha... and we went to have lunch. then home. and oh my oh my oh my i slept the whole freaking day. shit shit shit shit. monday got bio paper.. and i only studied 10 chapters.. and i still need to do some papers! tonight i think... wont be able to sleep anyway.

yeah then yesterday was very nice. hahaha.. what were the papers?? erm.... a maths and geography. yeah. alright.. i just hope i wont get C5 for humanities again. then after that went out with laa. jx and melvin. hahaha. we are fine. still talking and laughing. ate in burger king.. chatted. walked around in west mall. then melvin went to watch movie with his friends. the 3 of us went up to 30th floor to play bridge.. mathangi came too. so we had quite a fun time. nice view. windy. bridge. jokes. music. mathangi gave me some nice info.. hahahahah!! i think his name is andrew. hahaha.. but i shall stop dreaming. looking at him is good enough. haha. ahhhhhhhh!! ya i know. whatever. hahaha. so we played until 6. i looked down and saw this 2 guys playing tennis. and oh my god. hahaha. shall not say. because so evil. hahaha.. i think jia xin will blog about it. so you can go see hers.

yeah that's it.

trainee!!

hahaha.. i dont know him. so just trainee. i'm stupid.

physics papers today.. i'm gonna fail. i was not interested... didnt really study. and so tired. sigh. but never mind.. the only subject that i'm not gonna bother..

after school today went to eat with laa and jia xin.. at kfc.. with other people like nadia venessa chyetee. then started talking outside kfc.. stupid lame stuffs and gossips.. then decided to sit down at bk.. hahaha.. so talk talk talk.. gossip gossip.. haha.. i just listened. i know nothing! hahaha.. i admit okay. who cares. then talk until around 2.. i came home and practised piano.. sigh i'm so lousy. after o's i'm gonna spend hours and hours everyday practising.. haha.

then yesterday was great. had emaths and ss papers. was alright. nice results please. haha. then after school went to watch movie with jia xin. the longest yard. VERY NICE. yeah.. adam sandler is really cool. and funny as usual. love comedians! aiya.. i didnt catch the perfect catch. jimmy fallon is acting and i wanna see!!! but people say it sucks. boring and all.. maybe next time buy the vcd. haha. still very in love with cillian murphy.. my god!!!! haha. anyway the longest yard. jia xin and i being emotional freaks.. ya ya.... cried at the extremely sad part. haha. yeah.. touching then cry lor... really rocks.

what else... nothing actually.. slacking during exam period.

and i'm over it! woo hoo.

sad

sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad.

sad.

CILLIAN MURPHY

hahahhahaa.. love his eyes. love his voice. love his evilness in the movies. love cillian murphy.

haha..

tian bee's in my house now.. i have not touch a shit today. sigh......... no mood. no energy. i'm so weak????????? cant even stay up for one night. haha. HBO got some nice movies just now and coming up. distractions. temptations.

and my dad................ argh... i cant say i hate him. sigh! i seriously dont know what's with him. so negative and offensive in his every word. GOD! his daughters cant stand it. "i dont want to talk to you already" yeah i said that to him.

whatever.

hahahahah feeling glad for 2 people. so sweet!

oh yeah....... found out something. i got someone into deep shit last time?????????? i dont even know what is it. and i cant know. what the hell..

cillian murphy

A soft-spoken, fair-skinned actor with startling blue eyes, a penchant for playing volatile characters, and a reluctance to forsake his critically lauded stage career into a life in film, American audiences may best know Irish actor Cillian Murphy as the bike courier making his way through infected London in director Danny Boyle's apocalyptic thriller 28 Days Later. Though the film may have been...

haahhaha.. new favourite actor. he is so cool can. anyway i watched red eye yesterday with tsz ho. was alright. the movie was so short but with cillian murphy inside.. hahaha. he acted in batman begins also.. coooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooolllll guy.

anyway something idiotic happened yesterday.. joseph and i were in the same theatre without knowing it. then i saw him outside and said hi and all that.. haha. yeah tsz ho went home then i met joseph. had dinner.. studied at coffee bean.. then went to mac.. nicholas came. haha. studied the whole night through! woo hoo. hahha.. joseph went home in the middle of the night and came back at 4. ya... then nicholas and i went out for a walk also.. the roads were ours. haha. then smsed nadia the whole night also. and i went home at 6. slept till 12 today. haha. feeling giddy man... and nauseous. haha. but it's nice.. staying out. study with friends.

i'm not prepared at all. shit shit shit!!!!

i have to do well. first 3 months i wanna go.

slow and easy.

hello...

3 more days.. and chemistry paper... i did prepare... but not enough i guess.. subjects that i have touched.. chemistry.. physics.. both maths.. yep... that's all.. the rest next week or something. it's just a try-your-best thing. and going into the exam hall.. first is to have a right mind set. second is to stay calm. and third is to read instuctions. and the rest can fall in place naturally. haha.

today... stayed at home.. wei xing and tian bee came.. and studied together.. haha.. was quite alright.. chatted a little. none of us is well prepared for prelims.. haha.. but of course my standard is the crappiest. and... actually not only bbss 2005 sec 4 batch is the lousiest. other schools also.. at least tian bee's school and weixing's school. haha. i think it's some curse on this snake year.. yeah yeah.. nonsense.. after that.. wei xing went home. had dinner then went to bpp mac there study with alan and jireh.. hahaha.. did a bit only.. talked more. haha.

i'm loving the night! would love to stay out with some friends and study together or something. and since now mac is 24 hrs. hahaha. so fun.

i need to take a step back and look and think.

no hatred.. no hatred..

all should be fine.

cos you're bittersweet.

yeah.. bittersweet. maybe more on the bitter side.

whatever.. i get it i get it i get it. i shall assume and jump to conclusions. so that i'll get myself out of this crap.

hahahhaa.. it's been long. shall talk about nice stuffs that happened. okay... hmmm.. today first. was good. went to orchard with dearest jia xin. she wanted to buy her freaking slippers. okay sandals. haha. then i went with her.. nearly "put her aircraft". haha. sorry jx! anyway.. it was good we went. firstly we saw jeremy. AHEM SEAN. just somehow thought of you after saying goodbye to him. hahaha. he was family shopping.. yeah.. then we met 2 nice salesman. advised jx about the sandals and all that. better not say anything about them being cute and nice and everything. some people will ask me to grow up and get a life. WHATEVER. then...... was deciding whether to go jurong library or not... then walked past lucky plaza. thought of mummy. then went up to see her. hahaha. nice shop she has. then talked and crapped.. she rocks! being funny and open about stuffs. then she went on to cut my hair abit. haha. so.. after that said bye and went off to jurong library. and guess what! we saw han qi!!!!!!!!!!! in the mrt. haha.. jia xin was damn happy. hahahaha. first time see her blush! my god..... really red and acting like she's shy. hahah... "you're hanqi right?". errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr jx. hahahah. yeah so lucky for you.

in jurong library. alan and people were there. was fine.. did abit of work.. not really productive today. haha. then talk talk talk.. listened to perfect 10. then off to my piano lesson. haha. went to west mall for a while.. walked. bought stuff. home.

haha! okay... yesterday... nothing much. studied chem! and at night went to suntec with richavel. walked a lot. but she couldnt collect her pay. and i couldnt find a shoe i liked. so.. nothing much. haha. sistership. rockable.

i wanna watch movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe tomorrow. red eye. the perfect catch. the cave. the longest yard. i just need someone. SOMEONE. sigh. how i wish sean was here.. hahahhaha..

then sunday. was good too! went out with primary school friends. woke up way early at around 5 40 am. our dear wuyi was leaving for US. to study. envy her... haha. so her flight was at 10 10. but kiasu us reached there at around 7 45. harris, mingjie, tian bee and me. haha. we ate. then met wu yi at the departure hall there. with her whole lot of friends. a thousand. then gladys.. hongyi.. alan.. came along. we got together. but wuyi was with her sec sch friends more.. so we just talked and stood around. cannot blame her. hahaha. took pictures. and the time came. she had to leave. hugged. waved bye... hahaha.. harris did hug her. so glad. so...... she went in... waved and waved and waved... until she disappeared from our sights. she gave me a kiss! i mean just the action.. not the real thing. with the glass wall in between us. haha. made me wanna cry. will never forget her.

after that.. we went to mac.. eat and talk. so fun being with them. haha. then... we went to tampines mall... wanted to study.. but spent a lot of time looking for a place. in the end... foodcourt. was alright. at least the tables were clean. so.. alan, gladys, mingjie, hong yi and me studied together. oh yeah i saw vivian. haha. east view! memories. haha. ya.. after that.. took 67 back to lot 1 with hongyi, mingjie and alan. 1 and a half hours ride. nice! haha. had dinner with alan and hong yi. then home. had a nice time. so much to share when you are with primary school friends. omg!!! hong yi say wanna plan overseas outing. i wanna go!!!!!!!!!!!! if i can. no money and father dont allow. sigh. it will be so fun can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

argh.

saturday.. oh yeah.. went to school for ss. then now quite close with nadia already. unpredictable friendships. never know when you'll quarrel, when you'll get together again. when you'll start to feel irritated by your friends.

but can we like just let everyone be themselves. everyone has a different life. different stories, different reasons, different thoughts about things.

anyway... yeah we went to jurong library again.. to study.. with jia xin too.. then at night went to play pool. hahaha. nice. loving it but i suck at it and i wanna learn!!!!!!!! sigh.

holidays are going on fine... study study study.

"sound so despo..."

oh my god.

Za Leafy!

hahahaha.. so cute! haha. thanks zul for finding out his name for me.

but i dont know what's with me.. so interested in a person who.. has no relations with me. oh well... told ya i love strangers.

and.. i'm doing homework now.. but talking to sean more. haha.

thing week.. is gone. i mean.. no more lessons.. then friday english paper! oh no! i hope i can do well... please please please. at least a B3. haha.

and.. 1 week holidays.. then prelim.. havent study... what the hell. shall not sleep tonight! please richalynn!! work!!!!!

haha.. anyway.. teachers' day. wanna wish all teachers well. and happy. as if they're gonna read this. but..... these few days like... will feel very sad and cant bear to leave them after o's. i mean they are also people who have made differences in our lives. some teachers i really love. hahaha. i will try my best to give them the best present. haha.. today mdm yaw.. she if so cute... hahaha.. funny.

"you all should know what i want right?! huh?! you mean you all dunno? at the end of february next year ah...... i wanna see all As swimming right before me."

wah.. the way she say..... so funny lah.... hahahhahha.

oh well.. loving them. but not doing my part as a student.

CRAP.

okay off now.

good day people!

it's gonna be over soon.

hahaha.. i'm flying high!

but it's seriously, "but i dont know what to do, 'cause i'll never be with you". kinda suit my situation. this song. haha.

james blunt! you're beautiful really rocks.

what is gonna be over... sec 4 life. i mean next week only got 2 days of lessons. then prelims start. 1 month or so of revision. then o level's. goddddddddddddddd... not prepared at all.. and i'm still wasting time here.. doing some a maths paper now.. haha.. slack abit. shit.

anyway.. things are good. my class rocks. all studying hard i guess.. and still so cheery.

so it's over again. on off on off. hanging mid air. i want i want!! i do i do!!

haha.. guess what i'm talking about.

oh well....

haha.

my godddd jimmy fallon's movie coming up.

appreciated value.

hahaha.. quite in good mood these days.. anyway today kinda rocked. fun in class everyday now.. crapping with zul and hwee ting.. haha. anyway yeah still thinking about sunday... the thing jx and me accomplished.. with the help of shumin. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! screams out loud. really. my goddddd. cant explain that "highness". haha. he totally rocked! zaifi. haha. dancer and charm. anyway we seriously embarrassed ourselves.. jx and me.. haha.. okay we met him on a tuesday? in jurong library.. then... there's this dance group SOPHISTIFUNK. and yeah they were rehearsaling for the sunday's performace. haha. so jx and me watched and did work. and he caught our attention. haha. really rockified dance moves and all that. soooooooooo we found out about their performance and looked forward to it. which was on sunday! hahahhaa... we didnt plan anything also. just wanted to see him and the performances by various dance groups which was really nice. but then.... crazy and all.... somehow, just somehow, he noticed us, or his friends noticed us. after the whole thing ended, hahahhaa.. dont know why.... he came towards us, with his friends.. jia xin acting shy didnt dare to face him.. just turned around and stoned. haha. so i also couldnt find any courage. just managed to hand gesture a what. then he what back. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. but then... sadly we acted like nothing. then he went back. haha. shumin came into the picture. some stuffs.. then she asked him to come over. holds our breath.

"they wanna take picture with you"

"oh." pause. "why?"(cutely, haha)

pause a forever.

"they think you very cute"

oh mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..

so pictures taken.

"thanks"

a whatever look. sort of.

after a while.... he and his friends made a move.

i waved bye. hahahahahahhahaha!

he waved back. not so friendly kind, oh well.

bye.

yeah.... and now jx and me still cant get over it.

crazy man! get into these kinda shits..

ya but.. first time in my life i ever did this.

maybe not.. last time with BMSS. loads of fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! william, lallang, some shopkeeper, etc.

hahahaha.

loving strangers.

okay, now.. today was good. yeah. after school had test.. went to burger king. studied on my own. then tsz ho.. jx.. laa and people came along. talk.. study.. went for piano..

dont why. everything seems so pleasant today.

God Bless Everyone!

oh my oh my oh my!!!

haha. today. i'll make it short. jia xin and i accomplished something.

faints.

wet dragon!

haha. just kidding.

i dont like him okay. just a moment of..... hmmmm... infatuation. yeah yeah... but he's so smart and all that. nice guy.

oh please richalynn!

today was one good day. firstly fridays are the best. and we went to jurong junior college open house. glad i went.. hahahhaa.. changed my mind about jjc.. would want to go there yeah.. but one thing they dont offer knowledge and inquiry.. haha.. sad... and the school's big and nice.. nice students i guess.. and cut off point ranges from 8 to 14. my god...... hopefully i can achieve it. choices of jcs.. acjc!!! jjc!! cjc!! haha.. cjc have bad reputation... first thing on their minds "are you a virgin?" haha.. oh my god.. saying this in a blog later die. haha.. dont know.. just get the results!

anyway.. yeah.. the open house.. was good.. our dear senior yu kun was our tour guide.. anyway the five of us unite and went out together. haha. quite nice. then.. he brought us around.. stadium.. courts.. lecture rooms.. classrooms.. all airconditioned. haha. cafe... so many study benches around.. and the school's open until 10 pm everyday.. kinda fun if you have good friends around with you. and jc life sounds great! haha. then we went for the talk. H1 H2 H3 bla bla bla... wah... combination i want. chem maths bio geography! haha. then after the talk ended.. we went to talk to the speaker.. ask him lots of questions.. haha.. gp teacher. then we "wah...." haha.

after that.. went to the science section there.. saw the chemistry "magic".. water rocket. haha. nice. then also talked to the people there.. there's this scientist guy. and l1r5 9 points bukit view sec smartie. and another guy called andy. people of RnD club. hahaa... inspiration!!!!! wanna get A1 for bio!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.. then kinda........ dont know. nice people and all that. haha. talk talk talk.. ask questions.. getting late.. then home!

went to jurong east with laa and jiaxin. ate.. jurong library.. haha..

oh yeah that they.. fainted over some dance group. went to jurong library and they were rehearsaling.. haha.. sophistifunk! haha. they're gonna perform at jurong library this sunday.. so.... i'm going! haha. fi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm being stupid man.... head over heels for nothing.

haha. so.... 2 more weeks to prelims?? haha. oh well... shall try my best. can do it!!!!

other stuffs... dont care!

haha.

A1

yeah... hahahaha.. got an A1 for chinese.. oh my.. cant imagine how shock i was. haha. was so happy...

=D

haha.. so.. another weekend.. oh my god.. english oral.. kinda feeling scared now. i really suck at it i think. just try my best. talk!!!! anyway, i cant believe i got distinction for oral man. to think what the examiner said when i was about the leave. "wo bu yao zai wei nan ni le". kinda demoralising.. then.. errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... distinction.

haha.. so english oral... better do it well!!!! practice this weekend. haha.

and then.... my dad.... wah kao... "daddy, i got A1 for chinese."

"really? how did you manage?"

immediately i was like what the fuck.

supportive and understanding what i am going through man.

but of course i cant blame him... you know we dont really talk about stuffs that happen in school and all that.

sigh!

joyful stuffs.. no one to share with at home.

again.. homework loads..

sigh.

oh yeah.. my dad's girlfriend. she's nice. been showing concern for me.. hahaha.. told me the importance of breakfast and all that.. so from today onwards... breakfast every morning.. and... asking me how was my day and all that.. haha..

and today after school was nice. mac with melvin and mathangi.. A1 society. haha.. not trying to be boastful here.. haha... then went back to school.. wanted to do homework.. sat outside the staffroom there... mr latiff was practicing oral with min min they all.. haha.. so i just sat there.. did work.. and listened.. mr latiff rocks!!!! haha..

also today mdm yaw blew........ really erupted.. my god.... nearly cried too.. sigh. met mr quek in mac.. then he said he have never seen mdm yaw soooooooooo angry before... sigh.. what made her blew? she was already quite angry with our class.. then one sentence from somebody...... it was really hurting for a teacher. really really really really. sigh. but it's a misunderstanding. so..... dont know..

sigh!!! homework!! tomorrow morning still got music lesson.. bunch of melodies havent compose... how??????? time!!!!!!!!!! please be my friend.

keep on wasting it.

what the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

haha.. vulgarities coming back.

happy birthday singapore!

haha.. love singapore! 40 years old.. congratulations!!!!!

okay.. so what's the thing now.... my step mum's here!!!! wooo hooo!! she's nice. sweet sweet type.. then bought some stuffs for richavel and me.. haha.. flowers..... my goddd... so nice!!!!!! different colours of roses.. bundles and bundles..

hahaha.. so guess it's alright... sigh... i really suck. no sense of urgency at all... havent finish any homework. sigh!!!! well.. tonight dont sleep then.

charlie and the chocolate factory

johnny depp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha.. today was quite a fun day.. national day's eve.. celebration in the morning.. sadly it rained.. so no parade.. cant see or hear our band.. sigh. then upper sec in the hall.. lower sec concourse.. haha.. was kinda exciting.. bbss idol.. then the different performances.. we screamed like mad... especially for zul they all.. jun yu and benjamin.. szexin they all... hahahhahaha.. the performances were nice! at least enjoyable.. and the right group won i guess.. just love to see sexaaaaayyyy girls dance. screamed and screamed. zhi zhang was quite faintable when he was on the drums. hahhaa... oh my!!! then zul.. benjamin.. sze xin.. admires them!!!! haha.

great!

then after that 4 of us went to watch movie. played arcade too.. fun.. haha.. that hockey thing.. and... charlie!!!! nice! of course! funny and all that. johnny depp was really NUTS. haha. cute!

then saw melvin for a while.. aiya.. after the movie went home. slept. my mum's here now. came to collect her stuffs... later my step mum coming. hahahahhaa.. fathersss and mothersss i have. from all over the world. haha..

havent done any work! shiiiieeeetttt... later....

gonna enjoy comic first.. blood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the ice-cold demon's tale.

hahaha.. very very very in love with that comic right now. addiction.

oh my.. so many homework.. only completed 2... really no urgency.. what should i do..... argh.. then tomorrow got relative velocity test which i know nuts about.. oh god... later shall study.. so many other better things i wanna do... tales of symphonia, warcraft, comic!!!!! haha.. wanna go out also.. but these days.. i've been staying home.. dont know why... just dont feel like going out.

somebody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well.. tomorrow national day's celebration.. haha.. some fun stuffs.. then got lessons.. sigh.

gonna watch movie i think. johnny depp is waiting for me.

depression. nothing is nice.

except for blood. so handsome and cool and gentle.

and i meant the comic character.

sometimes when things are just so wrong...............

whatever will be, will be.

argh!!!! anyway.. let me just say what is wrong now.

friendships.

father.

studies.

him.








aiya... whatever.. it's nothing.

i think it's just PMS.

seriously. bad mood for no reason.

shounen-ai

hahahaha.. so in love with it.

anyway.. today something well... sad happened in class... better not say.. since have to keep it to myself.. some people may hear of it.. but not the whole thing.. aiya.. rumours will spread.. but please dont make it complicated.

so.... a lot of homework. god. tomorrow annual awards day. fri to wednesday no school. but still got a couple of lessons with mdm yaw.. mr quek.. mrs lim.. sigh.

it's just what we have to go through.

things are fine... one big problem. studies. then a little here.. a little there.

just like that it ended. losing. missing. sigh. take it or drop it. none wanna care.

also dont know what i'm typing..

so many birthdays this month. wishing all of you a very very happy happy birthday.. haha.

and then english oral.. another worry. try my best. at least easier than chinese.. and mother tongue results coming out soon.. after national day... i'm prepared for the worst. but mr siah said this result kinda predict how well you'll do for o level... could be. sigh.....

just 3 more months!

let me tell you why he loves me.

hahahahhahahahahahhaaa.. finally! got a new computer.. and of course it's good.

also dont know what to type.. haha. first thing up. my dad's girlfriend is coming here to stay for a month. my god...... haha.. she's arriving on national day. sigh. i really dont know. i think i can like her. but she better be nice. i'll have more freedom i guess for that month. my dad will be all occupied. hahaha.. that time told him i want a brother. but he said she's too old.. cannot. sigh.

and yeah.. and thing that really pissed me off.. my dad.. argh. just because his dear girlfriend is coming.. vigorously cleaning up the house.. that night cleaning the garden.. then go and throw away the periwinkle weixing gave me!!!! argh! really cried that morning. i know it's just a plant. but to me it's precious.. haha... 4 years i have been maintaining it. wah....... just like that. gone.

and..... what else... studies.. forget it.. better not talk about it. just 1 more month to prelim.

national day coming.. around 1 week of break. whew. i better treasure my time.

cant wait for o's to be over... haha. a lot of fun. graduation night. christmas. travelling overseas.

suffer first.

the island.

this movie was really good. haha.

friday.. as usual.. relaxing. no work done. after school went out with melvin, laa and jia xin.. west mall.. lunch.. movie. did a bit of homework.. then home... was fun. but some things are wrong. haha. oh well.

sigh.

clown.

heyaaaaaa.... hahaha.. it's 11pm now.. done my work! but of course didnt study.. sigh.. a maths last week was a failure. i'll do my best i promise!!!! sigh.. anyway. today was good. hahaha.. after school.. in mcdonalds near our school there.. some freaking woman made a big fuss and scene. i dont know what exactly happened.. but she just suddenly.. was scolding the manager at the order food there.. ahahhaha counter? saying all kind of crap.. "you're a clown. clown. clown. are you a clown? you're a manager and you cant do anything to solve this problem, so you're a clown. a clown." wah... then pointing and making that rude hand gesture.. then the manager gave her a receipt.. and she saw his hands shivering.. and said out loud.." why are your hands shivering? cause you're a clown right? clown. clown. clown." and laughed crazily... screw loose man....

fuck off lah bitch. really irritating and ugly. poor manager cant do anything. customers are always right right? mathangi, hwee ting hui li and me all cant stand it.. kinda funny also the scene... hahaha.. a lot of bbss students there.. then she not enough called the police too. oh my god. but obviously she was making trouble. so she's wrong. some talking and counselling. and she finally left. wah...... really felt like slapping her and ask her to look into a mirror. sigh.

anyway. yeahh... so we were laughing over it after that.

and..... yesterday! hahaha.. went out with melvin and joseph to jurong point. watched movie. red candy.. stupid show.. so confusing and not that scary also.. and the outing was okay.... quiet moments everytime. sigh..... then later in the night then got abit better. met my mum and sister.. had to go back home and take the money for her.. then came back to west mall.. met joseph and melvin again. dinner. haha.

was good of course!

i'm lovin' you! hahahahaha.

really really pray hope wish.

but i guess it's best not to take things too seriously.

and...... it's the 4th week already. monday is over. so fast. tomorrow got piano lessons. shit i didnt practice that song!! but i guess it's natural to dont want to practice a song that you dont like right. no wrong. sigh.. sean was telling me about having the passion for it.. hahahah.. making me worry..

aiya.. believe in myself! it's what i want!

cool, rainy day...

why the hell must the ban homosexual comics? hahaha.. lately i've been reading them... my sis introduced.. kinda nice.. haha.. nothing also.. just the guy like guy. and interesting story... sigh. then now cant finish the whole series.

anyway today's jocelyn's, kai li's and jia jun's birthday.. happy birthday to them all..

and.... hahaha.. nothing much also.. same shit.. havent finish homework.. still got a maths to revise.. physics to study.. chemistry to worry.. sigh.

hate it man.. better not hope too much.. let it be nice as it is now.

give me a sign.

hello.... just came back from piano lessons not long ago.. haha. was good. i got the grade 2 exam pieces and sightreading and stuff.. i'm gonna take the exam next year! whew. okay i know grade 2 is like what the hell grade 2 only?? haha.. but well.. i started late... i always start things late.. one is this. the other is being a catholic, joining the church. another.... realising that there is not much time left.. another... that there is nothing to fear! haha.. i'm really really pathetic. yeah but it's me. my life. oh yeah... then grade 5 theory exam this november. hahaha. mooooost probably wont clash with any o level examinations...

today..... was good. relaxing in class.. but what the hell, a maths test got 10/30.. lowest in class i think? sigh......... i forgot i'm really weak in a maths.. haha.. everyone else is sprinting towards the finishing line already.. i'm still.... erm..... jogging. sigh. but i started revision already.. last night. so better be good. a maths this week. i know it's kinda wasting time here.. sigh.

argh!!! so i made some stupid mistake. he got me wrong. cant take it back though... sad shit. really, this kinda things shouldnt be affecting me now. so hard to forget it.

want.. but dont want.

crap!

hello!

haha. now here's the same old shit. 2nd week gone. homework left quite a few.. havent study.. 8 more weeks to prelims. bla bla bla... sigh. shit!!!!!!! and today i watched fantastic 4 with fadly, jerrold, jia wei and bing shu. was good. chris evans was cute and funny and a naughty boy.. and love that stretchable guy. haha. the story... was alright.. happy ending. part 2???

and yesterday we went to science centre for some microbes stuff. and we walked around the whole science centre.. mathangi and me.. with hweeting and gang. was fun. interesting. i wonder how many people actually stop to read those.... erm.. descriptions... some people go "what is this what is this????" "how to play how to play???" "tsk, boring". please.

haha. anyway. some stupid stuff going on. bmss is breaking up?? sigh. dont know why... pissed off with each other.. apathetic. hah. who's the one now. hahaha. hai.... oh well.. what to do. got better stuff to do right. better things to care.

and.................. i better just let it go. it's always so unclear. so fake. so difficult.

hmmmmm everything's fine. just fine.

i cut my hair again. hahahah. everyone says rebond.

my sister said,"do i look like every other girl. like all the cut-and-paste." haha. so funny.

so i had my freaking oral today. it was alright i guess... not that good... partly because the teacher... aiyo... also talk and keep on asking questions. i havent even finish my paragraph, she just came in and mess my thoughts up.

okay i know i shouldnt be blaming others. i suck, and that's it.

hahaha.. anyway..... 2nd week.. so many homework.. so many tests.. mdm yaw giving up on us.. distractions.

just let it go man.

concentrate on the right things!! and dont think too much. and be a better person.

what the fuck????

haha.

worry is a sin.

last night was great! haha. POP 2005. farewell for the seniors. us.

we arrived at the library at 4 50.. girls wore black, guys white. then we prepared ourselves.. walked down to the lecture room and sat down. listened to our very own band, our juniors play. they sounded good. so proud and touched. hymn for a child, our first song in the main band. then we turned around to watch the video.. syf rehearsal.. haha.. next was giving out of certificates of appreciation. miss ngiam gave out the certificates and talked a little about everyone of us. haha. so touching.. jerrold sang for us. envy him.. haha.. then we looked at the photos. memories. then passing down of posts. deyong is the pp now.. very proud and happy for him. haha. and the 4 leaders. charleston, barry, jasmine and yibiao. congratulations and wish them the very very best. after that was eating and taking pictures and giving presents.. thanks a lot a lot for those who gave me something.. even a simple card was great. feel so bad i didnt get them anything. just bought for my juniors. sigh. but it was really heartwarming.

after the thing ended, met sean at west mall.. the four of us. plus him. went to foodcourt.. then arcade.. then movie at lot 1 with laa and sean. haha. war of the worlds. was good. exciting and kinda scary at some parts.. haha. so reached home at 2 plus. whew.

anyway tuesday's oral... shit.

i'm not gonna die. i can do it. i'll talk and talk and talk. sense. be brave!!!!!

haha.. i'm being a shit.

one week gone. 9 more weeks to prelims.. so fast. and this week was...... fine.. did homework. listened in class. but never really study... i thought one week one subject?? sigh what for plan in the first place.. keep on failing myself. this week should be chemistry. argh.

someone. hahahahhahahhahahaha. things will be well right? not like before. never.

=)

laa can sing very well!

haha.. yesterday.. sean came back.. we fetched him.. and went out and had some fun staying over at laa's house. okay firstly.. i met up with jia xin and jurong.. then matthew at some place in the middle. then.. arrived at the airport. waited anxiously for someone's plane to land. haha.. came out from the toilet.. looked at the tv screen.. sq 238 arrived! haha.. then 3 of us crazily hid behind some stupid wall.. and waited for sean to come out. aiya.. then he finally came out. but our hiding was crap.. he just walked away.. and the insects walked past him without knowing.. haha. so we met.. hi and all that. ate at burger king. then made our way back to bukit batok. matthew, jx and mathangi left us. so melvin laa and me went to sean's house. used him computer.. deciding where to go..

we went to orchard.. wanted to catch a movie.. but laaa couldnt. so sad. then we walked around.. had dinner in some italian restaurant. was good. after that, wanted to buy some vodka but....... sigh. went to laa's house. haha. her house very nice. used her computer.. we talked and all that.. hear her sing.. then went down to watch movies. the indian show, some ghost show.. sigh forgot the title. then troy. but nobody's interested. also told stories about ghosts and stuff. lucky me have never seen anything or felt real real wrong and scared about stuff..

so the whole day didnt sleep. we went off at 7 plus.. went home. i bathed slept. and slept the whole day. my dad came back too... seem so weird.. we didnt talk at all about china.. or anything. sigh. really what the hell.. and my sister said he was sick of him. haha okay. that's bad.

sigh.. still have not finished my homework. shit shit shit shit shit. argh.

so sad.

something's missing.

something's gone.

you gave me peace in a lifetime of war.

was at my mom's yesterday and today.. i did a little of work.. watched some shows.. she has loads of vcds and dvds.. i can just enjoy watching... i watched troy.. hahaha.. brad pitt. brad pitt. archilles. breseis. and some cartoons. not childish okay. haha. those movie kinds.. pocahontas. nice to enjoy past movies..

anyway. homework left. social studies. physics. and a maths. 3 days left. i'll try my best. i'll do tonight. i dont care. not gonna sleep.

tomorrow sean's coming back. i hope it'll be good. fun.

was just wondering... aiya.. close friends but we didnt meet at all during the holidays. and tomorrow. sigh. just put everything aside and enjoy myself.

this world is so full of pretend.

friendship. hmm.

brad pitt,"what did you think when we first met?"

angelina jolie,"what did you think?"

brad pitt,"i thought... you felt like christmas morning.."

so touching when he said it!!! hahaha.. watched mr and mrs smith last night.. corny show.. haha.. but quite alright.. funny.. handsome man and beautiful lady.. brad pitt!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah i know.. typical of me to scream over good looking people. whatever...... and i watched batman that day also... another great movie. haha.. starting already can cry... anyway movies coming up... war of the worlds!!!! not because of tom cruise please. fantastic four.. that island show.. a lot a lot.. hahahah.. movies rock!

anyway it's wednesday! haha. school's gonna reopen! hallelujah! spelt correctly? haha. and dear sean's coming back after tomorrow. and homework not yet finish...... argh........ and... number 1 thing to fear. olevel oral!!! oh man....

hello... this week is passing by fast.. so fast thursday already... sigh.. one more week.. school reopens.. and it's gonna be tough i guess... so sad... have to face it.. and it will not be the worst.. not so bad i think.. if i just relax and do my part. my best. haha. and.. my dad left for china today.. he flew to hong kong then took a bus to shen zhen. where the hell is that? haha. ask him he also dont know.. errrrrrrrrr. haha. blinded by love.. and he'll be gone for 9 days.. it's gonna be weird in the house.. now already i'm all alone.. and nobody's gonna come back.. maybe my sister.. late at night.. sigh.. i thought i was brave.. later night time i'm gonna have some stupid thoughts. shit.

i made some plans.. for tomorrow and the weekend.. i'll finish all my homework by sunday.. and then next week will be revising.. comparing myself to my close friends.. i guess i'm the slowest.. and the slackiest. and i'm from e3.. what a joke.. haha.. just kidding. i dont really care. just follow my own pace.. what kind of english?! sigh. haven't been reading.. no sports. sigh. i have to go for some jogs... and.. i did read.. storybooks.. not the papers though.. i also watched a lot of tv.. and yesterday eye for a guy 2.. (supposedly a shallow show)... wolfgang won. chey... i thought it would be howard.. he's really cute. hahaha.

hmmmmmm what else.. one big sin i've commited.. never go church for 2 sundays. sigh. just so hard to be truly faithful.

tonight got lost. yay!

harlow.. haha.. one week gone.. was alright i guess.. did mostly a maths.. hope i'll finish tonight.. been slacking too much... last night was one rockable night. haha. went to ngee ann poly band concert. was fun! haha.. the band was not too bad.. then the percussion ensemble.. nice.. and there were cindy.. andrew.. desmond.. and sherlyn in the band. haha.. desmond changed to percussion. then sherlyn changed to trumpet. so cooll.. also say jeremy.. his ex.. mr goh.. ling zhi.. etc. jeremy is in the band also.. playing flute.. wow.. haha.. wish him all the best.. yep the most interesting part was the combo band.. sorta rock band.. with drums.. and keyboard.. the guitars.. and saxophone.. and the lead singer.. my senior desmond!! haha.. he totally rocked. sang a few songs.. so..... great! he can sing!! and the handsome keyboardist.. haha.. shumin and me agreeing vigorously that we was so handsome.. hahaha.. name's wen bin. yeah. the whole concert was just great.

after it ended.. i stayed on for a while more.. while the rest made their way to mac.. at king albert park.. i wanted to hear desmond sing.. and hear that guy play the keyboard. so faintable.. haha.. was quite erm...... enlightened?by their talents.. oh ya... one of the trombone guy.. playing's sooooo good!!!! sigh wish i could be like him.. hahaha... i must continue playing in a band man... no matter what!!!!! yeah.. then saw shiying as well.. talked to her abit with sherlyn and another girl.. then desmond came and give that same old look.. luckily there was no middle finger.. hahaha.. it's alright.. after all.. he's nice.. will always look up to him.. hahaha.. did your hair stand? oh well. then i ran like a cheetah to mac.. haha.... met them.. okay them is.. peiling.. shumin.. shimin.. kailing.. lewis.. zhizhang.. kid man(not sure of the spelling).. fadly.. and jack.. yep. ate.. rich zhizhang treated us.. he has a wallet of a working man. then talked to shumin.. caught up with each other... then dont know why.. zhizhang asked joseph to come.. then he came.. also saw jeremy and people came in. and also wenny and family.. haha.. went off.. took the bus.. then went home with fadly..

that's the night. this week.. sort of wasted i guess.. spent a lot of time playing games too.. haha.. tales of symphonia.. so fun. haha..

missing so many things!!! especially the past.

sigh.

hello! just came back from the gathering.. was good.. we watched movie.. was kinda bad.. hitchhikers something something to the galaxy.. we missed a bit of the front part.. then.. a bit boring.. haha.. after that.. oh wait.. before that took neoprints.. anyway we went causeway point.. there's tian bee.. gladys.. jocelyn.. alan.. hong yi.. mingjie.. yeah.. then after the movie.. talked and walked.. took photos with alan's camera.. then home.. took the bus together.. without gladys.. haha.. suddenly good with alan again.. weird.. but yeah.. he's nice.. then took photos.. dropped with hong yi at some busstop.. then talked.. and waited.. most of the time silence.. abit awkward.. haha.. but.. the ice will melt. it will.. to think we were such close friends last time... sigh... i'm such a loser man. then he said hope this friendship will carry on.. yes it will. yes!!! haha.. okay okay.. just really really really miss them.. dont wanna lose anyone of them.

well... this week.. abit of work done.. mostly playing game.. 2 days spent cleaning up my room.. i love my room now!!! so spacious and clean... and nice.. my decorating skills.. hahaha.. yeah.. then... will start work tomorrow i guess.. with tian bee.. and maybe hong yi... in my house.. haha.. study richalynn!!!! dont leave this school with any regrets..

listening to bo bice inside your heaven now.. so nice... haha... was thinking about the DSA thing... sigh.. depressing.. firstly.. acjc is impossible.. they need the grade of your instrument. argh... then cjc.. i'll try maybe... but my results.. sigh.. dont know.. i really wanna go acjc.. haha... work hard and yeah work hard hard hard.. nothing is impossible and nothing is too late!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. motivating myself here.. which is mostly... well... useless..

next week... nothing on.. study... tomorrow and sunday finish all the homework.. then next two weeks revision.. okay?!?!?!?!?!??!!

then my father's leaving for china on thursday.. haha.. for 9 days.. please richalynn stay home. dont think of going anywhere. the most is just primary school gathering.. out with sean.. midnight movie!!! haha..

okay.. bye...

hey... changed the skin already.. i kinda like it.. haha.. and that little poem on the front page.. obviously.. i didnt make it. took it from somewhere else.. it's within temptation's song actually.. haha... oh my god i feel like a loser. haha..

2 days gone... what have i accomplished? hmmm.. a little of chemistry.. that's all.. and yeah victories in the games. sigh... deep shit i'm putting myself into.

meiqi left the house already... all those things that happened.. ruined our cousin-ship.. hai... we were quite close last time.. until some fine days... just like that.. we dont talk anymore.. why? asked my dad. "it's like that one what. what can you do?"

forget it.

haha.

wanna go play game... byebye!

a phone call saved my mother's life?

hello... reached home about 45 minutes ago.. today was band day.. haha.. had the rehearsal for tomorrow's performance. at indoor stadium.. we're the pre-concert item.. it's a dance thing. synesthesia.. then in the morning naughty a few of us skipped lesson. actually we're excused.. but you know.. still better to attend class. missed out quite a number of things... sigh... how am i gonna catch up.. actually it's only physics and chemistry.. but new chapters and stuff... hai.. gotta read up on my own later on... then 1215 reached school.. practiced in the studio.. soooooo rusty.. sounded quite bad.. i mean me. yeah but it was nice. once again back in the band. but.... we couldnt play well... the songs... sigh... just hope we will not disappoint anyone tomorrow. then made our way to indoor stadium.. settled down.. warm up.. ate dinner.. waited a lot.. saw the dancers practicing.. hahahaha one guy was so handsome. hahaha. so our turn to play.. only played two songs... then went up to the seats and watched the dance. the real thing. was nice... flexible bodies. haha. and some of the flips made me go wow. yep watched halfway then went off.. back to school. left our instruments and stuff in the err stadium. reached school.. went with laa and jia xin to cheers. bought cup noodles to eat. pathetically sat on some steps to eat. hahaha... and.. cats just amuse me. after that.. walked with laa to the interchange. home.

sigh... reached home then argh.... my dad asked me to call my mum... you know what.. my mum is crazy once again. this always happens. wanting to die and all that shit. keep on crying...... so i called.. told me about her life and stuff... said she just wanna end her life.. hai........ what the hell man..... and she said before i called her she was going to kill herself.. scaring me... sigh. how am i suppose to help her? somehow it seems so hard to care for her. because she can really make people angry and sick and tired. ahhhhhh...

what kinda problem... argh! and today people around were so mean. even jiaxin and laa.. insulting here and there. haha. crazy... i'm too sensitive again ah? so what's reeaaalllllyyyy mean? and they are all jokes right? so if i say..... you're so ugly. ohhhh i'm just joking only right! small thing also angry... errr how would you feel? aiya i know i'm talking c**k.. but........ hmmmm.. dont be reckless with peoples' hearts? you know, what goes around comes around. haha.

i'm nonsense-ing. who cares man?! say all you want!

it's 1 26 am and i haven bathe. hai... things i wanna do. bathe. read chemistry and physics. play game. read storybook. tonight. haha.

silence in the air....

hello. hahaha.. mother tongue o level today... was alright.... dont think i'll do well for paper 1.. and paper 2... hopefully i wont get 35/80 again... hahha.. this time i answered fully the comprehension questions.. and only got one wrong for tian xie han zi.. and one wrong for zao ju... guess i did okay.. A1???? nah....... depends on my oral.. and listening i dont care must get full marks!!!! since i am an audio person... haha...

it was kinda scary in the exam hall.... so... the feeling when taking the rest of the papers end of this year... can imagine how is it gonna be like. killer nerves...

after the exam... went to eat with them... at mac... wanted to go home.. and rest.. and relax.. so i slept for a while... woke up and got ready for the prefects' farewell party... was okay... most of the time doing nothing. first was listening to the radio with chieng yang... they repeated the american idol final.. argueing who's better.. of course i like bo and he likes carrie. ahhhh lame stuffs.. then the food came.. ate.. talked to de yong.. then with ida they all.. relaxing.. then the performance thing... we were the "spoilers".. nobody wanted to go up and walk. sigh... togetherness of the board... and then prize giving.. prom king was sze xin and prom queen was faridah. haha.. then home...

walked back with deyong and joseph... from school to the interchange. chance of my life. ya jokes... so..... of course.. kept quiet.. nothing to talk about.. then just walk walk walk... sigh... talked to deyong then joseph walked behind us.. listening to his music.. wonder whether he heard what we were talking about.. hahahahhahaa.. ahhh love my junior. such a nice guy.

so.. tomorrow and the next gonna be with the band.. fun! haha.. not going for lessons tomorrow.

then thursday back to work. study!!!!!!!

off to play some game. resident evil!!!!

one more day.

holidays holidays holidays... looking forward to it. although for us sec 4s it's like a time for revision and bucking up.. but at least it's a break.. from school.. from... aiya.. stress..

left a day... and gonna have chinese o level... i hope hope hope hope i can do well... i studied alright. i did. the rest is up to erm.. luck? whether i want to do it or not. sigh.... oh well...

today.. went to study with tian bee and wei xing again. it was good. study talk study talk. at some bench under the block. blk 307.. haha.. where shi jie stay.. yeah was hot.. stuffy.. but quiet.. which is good. and many cute cats walked by.. and some thoughtful guy was bouncing the basketball and walked past us.. and how nice of him to stop bouncing for a while. how considerate. so we did from 3pm to 7 plus pm... before that went for lunch. plates of wan tan mee which made us nauseous(how do you spell it)... er... yeah.. then dinner downstairs with dad and tian bee...

after monday. i'm gonna slack that day. go home. or go out. wanna read some interesting storybooks i have. then tuesday.. go school in the morning.. after that the performance rehearsal? havent read the band board yet.. maybe some changes.... so... wednesday... whole day booked by band.. thursday back to lessons.. plus friday... hopefully there is no need to go back again the following week... then i can study happily with tian bee.. and weixing(hopefully, hahaha).. plans for the holidays? hmmmm.. firstly i wanna clean up my room... havent been "my room" for a long time... then.... my dad is going to be away in china.. hmm i wonder why..... haha... some girlfriend he's having... what the hell!!! tell the whole world except me. i mean.. he only told my sister and mother. hiding it from me? what's the meaning?! my o's ah? dont wanna distract me ah? sigh. anyway he'll be leaving on the 16... until 25. so i'm kinda.......... freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. haha. it's gonna be so great. then... the main thing is to study still... then sean's coming back on the 26.. i'm gonna have some fun before school reopens. yeah that's it. and the real scary part comes.... actually it should be here now.. just not feeling it yet.. then when? 1 week before?

yeap... life's good. for now.