love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

hahahahah okay enough of all the sadness!

i'm soooo happy!

hahahah.

anyway. wanna talk about yesterday.

finally met up with sean, melvin and jia xin! BMS! i'm so so so so happy really happy to see you all again!!!! we had a great time. crapping all over again. melvin you're still as funny as ever!!! love you la! and then.. we met in PS. then ate.. and went to that church thing. haha. was nice.. like some concert and then in the end asking you to accept God into your life. yeah.. saw joanne too. haha. and this guy, "orange shirt" haha. said he saw me in sa before.. so we chatted for a bit. haha. after that went to eat in lao pat sat. is that how you spell it. haha. great food! then went to meet sean's friend.

haha. really enjoy being with you guys a lot.

and also wanna say SORRY if i've done anything wrong last time.

and glad that we're back again.


hahaha. then today... went out again. to yumin's house. yumin................ haha. val yumin and i.. met to do proposal. was quite sianZ doing it. haha. for the whole afternoon. hope this time it will work. after that went to have dinner with her family. such a cute family! can just crap. funny la. haha.

went to fetch my sis. sianZ again. met mummy. watch my sis have dinner. then took bus home. sianZ.

totally sianZified. haha.

another new week. got chi listening. odac.. actually quite free la. haha. yay. then meeting BMS on tues. hhahahha looking forward to it.

then on fri!!!!!!! woo hoo! pri sch outing! going to alan's house to sleep over. also celebrate mingjie's and jocelyn's birthdays. hahahahah. so fun. love love love.

3 hearts that God hates: the haughty heart, the hindered heart and the hardened heart.

3 hearts that God loves: the humble heart, the hungry heart and the honest heart.

hahaha.

life's just the way you look at it.

YES.

sings-i dont wanna fall to pieces, i just wanna sit and stare at you.

hahahahahah.

what's wrong with me?!?

haha.

urgh.

and i just hate people who gets insensitive all the fking time. and especially your close friends. and they do things that are not friends enough. you know, BU GOU PENG YOU. that sucks. really sucks. i mean, come on.

or maybe yes, i'm just not important enough to you.

what's this. friendship.

heartbreakening piece of fuck.

SHIT!

where is the love?

haha.






odac odac odac odac odac..

hai hai hai hai hai..

i dont why.. really dont know why.. why the problem still hangs around. why do i still feel that way..

but of course. i love the people in there. really.

something is so wrong with me.

i gotta get over it.

real soon.

before i break.









maybe i know why... i was once a big fish in a small tank. now, an ikan bilis in an ocean.

yes.

this change.

is damn sad.

struggling.


















hahahahha forget about that. emo entry.

always look on the bright side of life.

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.

i am sooo good.

one great chance.

like that.

just let it slip all away.

great.

great.

great.






you you you you you you yes you.

i shall never forget.

so wanna talk to you.

so wanna let you know.









okay never mind.. hahahah. sings- i dont give a damn i dont give a damn i dont give a damn.





ahhhh bio!! forget it la.. wasnt really good anyway. sigh sigh sigh sigh.

ahh.

JAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD. i love him!!!!!! screams!

as in singapore idol.

yesterday i went to jurong point to see the 12 contestants. hahahahhaa. and my favourite!!!! they were standing in 1 row and jay was at one end!! so i went to that end of the stage to see him like only 1mm away!!! ahahha.

yeah then they had their autograph session.. and my mum came.. so... we walked back to the place one round, and walked pass JAY! and my mum went "HI JAY!!!!" really. and she waved to him.

and
he
freaking
turned
and
waved
back
and smiled.

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it was this close!!!!

yeah then my mum shouted some shit again. like "you are so handsome."

hahahah. he turned and waved and smiled and nodded and mouthed something. i forgot!

i'm not cheating myself okay.... it really happened. haha.

oh my god............................ i so think he's GREAT. he can sing. and he's freaking emotional! hahahahahhaha.

ahhahah.

off to lunch.

and some serious studying.