i take, without giving.

it's 2.05 am.

want to say something.

maybe i should just stop, and take a look around me, take a look at my pathetic life.

i'm not nice. i'm selfish. i'm mean. i upset people. i'm not interesting enough for people. i am left out.

haha.. why am i demoralising myself.

argh!!!!!!!!! i wanna change!!

anyway, i'm not trying to tell anyone anything.

dull life... yeah...

hello.. haha. in the midst of doing homework. getting restless yeah.. so just type some crap here..

east view just finish their band practice not long ago i think. haha. and fadly went there. he asked me, but no... haha. dont wanna go. next time.

today is stay-at-home day. woke up, had breakfast-cum-lunch. played game... did homework. haha. i'm stuck at the game!! dont know how to solve freaking puzzles. haha...

tomorrow got tuition. i starting to not like it!! feel like quitting. just quit it. since it's so expensive, and slow going. have piano lessons.. tuition.. i'm so expensive! haha.

so bored... i wanna go out and play.

i wanna study.

i wanna go overseas.

you know my sister wanna go overseas to work. and my father said we can all go together. hahaha. i wish man.

but yeah.. study hard first.

i'm good, i'm good.

later.

sentosa.

harlow.... today was one relaxed day at the beach. haha.. morning went to meet gladys, ming jie and jocelyn at harbour front interchange. then went to sentosa.. palawan beach. played volleyball, swimming, sitting around, talking.. was fun.. relaxing. and now my face is red! there wasnt much sun.. dont know why... hope i can be tanned.. please! haha.. whole day at the beach. nice! then went to harbour front to eat.. then home. kinda tired now. after bathing, i'll try to do some work.. haha.

as i planned, today is my last day out. i'll be at home from now onwards, doing my work!!! unless there's some important things...

haha.
okay.
good night.
sweet dreams tonight.

God bless...

count down 25 days.... school reopens.

harlow... today stayed at home... did abit of a maths... sigh. later still wanna do physics... but i'm soooo lazy!! woke up at 12 pm... just now slept from 4-7... bloody pig. so bloody inactive. sigh. then played tales of symphonia.

tomorrow going to sentosa.. haha. have fun!

feel kinda empty now... what the fuck?

haha... everything is so shaky...

good night.

sleep well tonight.

God bless..

piano.

hello.

today was okay. went to suntec in the afternoon with my family... shopped at carrefour. didnt buy anything much. just some christmas tree ornaments, and a new game. the legend of zelda... haha. we are planning to buy a new TV... a new computer maybe.

after realising i was gonna be late, we rushed back to bukit batok... had my first piano lesson. haha. i am starting off at grade 1. needa buy quite some books. i really hope i can be good at it. trust myself. haha. then after the lesson, went all the way back to downtown east. had BBQ there... with tian bee and family. was okay. sitting around and playing cards and mahjong in the chalet. i learnt how to play mahjong! haha. quite nice actually.

then i'm home now.

tomorrow sean is leaving for australia for a week. i'm sorry not to see him off.

i'll try not to sleep tonight. do some work yeah.........

and i didnt go to east view sec today... kinda sad...

i feel so like an idiot now.

good night.

=)

what is stopping me?

hey...

happy birthday mr goh.

i feel so like shit now. i am so disappointed in myself. why is going to east view secondary a problem to me??? why cant i just say, just go for fun. why?????

argh.

i have decided not to go already.

if i like someone, it is very very very difficult for me to approach him.

then why the hell still wanna like!?!?!?!?!

cant even be friends???????

then just give up man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why am i worrying about these stuffs???????

THIS IS SO IRRITATING.

we all have our trivial stuffs to worry over. so just let us be.

forget it.

that is what i always say.

which is so being a coward.

well then, let nature take its course.

anyway today went to wild wild wet. was good. few nice rides.. one extra thrilling one. and the life guards were all hip hop, trying to flirt. some were cute. haha. and saw this guy whom i saw during the ngee ann sec concert. shuai ge. haha.

after all my wonderful analysing...........................

i'm sad.

i'm heart-brokened.

can i just shift my concentration to my studies.

sigh.

off..

good night.

sweet dreams.

god bless...

never worry my life away.

hello... just came back from orchard.. went there to see my sis perform. haha. it was good. she just lacks the entertaining factor. haha. before that went all the way to tampines. went to auntie nancy's house to get my money back... well, $100. then went to tampines mall.. eastpoint.. walked around.. was okay. haha. then went to orchard. after watching the performance, went driving around for a while. then home.

okay, i haven't been doing my homework for 2 days, which is a big deal. haha. gotta do later... and tomorrow going to tian bee's chalet... dont know but i'm not really into it. sigh, just have fun man. and tuesday... whatever.

i'm so angry now. what the hell. so people dont misunderstand me? everything is my fucking fault! i get stepped over. i get tricked. i'm made fun of. i'm a fucking joke!

argh!!! but i dont bloody care.

i can just give up.

i'm not interested anymore.

bloody fucker.

hello... haha.. a sunday today. didnt go for mass. sigh... yesterday sucked.

went for tuition. met sean and melvin later. decided not to go for church. bad choice. went to visit melvin's grandfather in some hospital. went to orchard. ate. home.

haha.... later gonna go tampines!!! prays hard... haha. taking back $100 from madelyne yeah... haha.. i have some money to buy presents already.

i wanna know him!!!!!!!

good day.

=)

The moon is mine tonight! Again. Haha.

hahahaha... harlow!!! today was quite good. haha. went for band in the morning. today the band sucked, as mr goh says.. haha.. and what the fuck is with zhi zhang?

so mr goh knows, or thinks that i like him. haha.. after band went to east view secondary... hahaha... stupid infatuation. just seen him twice. know nuts about him. DESPERATE. haha. i'll try not to think about it. nothing is going to stop me from going there again. but i'm happy. nothing special happened. but it's just the way it is. the look. the smile. the embarrassments. the exchange. the laugh.

OH MY GOD.

i'm mad, i'm mad.

stop thinking about it!!!!

kinda shallow.

so stop it.

haha.

off to dinner.

good night.

i love you!

Tales of Symphonia!

hello. haha. it has been quite a relaxing day.. did nothing much. well, played game.. online.. slept.. and homework only took 45 minutes of my day... anyway just now went to china town to have dinner with my dad and meiqi. was okay. nothing much, also.

have to do homework later. at least finish up trigonometry, please.

haha... tomorrow have band again. i love band. i want band to be my life. and one week break from band... gotta bring my trombone back home to practice.. haha. hope to buy the book of scores in plaza singapura. i love my trombone!!!

and tales of symphonia. i'm addicted to the game!!! there's lloyd, zelos, regal, raine, genis. COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... but since lots of people care.......

it's getting irritating.

sarcasm is getting irritating.

i often worry about people not agreeing with what i say or comment or whatever! and therefore not voicing out much.

what the fuck is with me?



























stop judging.

you are getting there.







































i'll stop.

































haha... anyway....................

sigh. whatever.





















good night.

sweet dreams.

god bless.