aim for the highest stars, if i miss it, at least i touch the beautiful sky...

corny title.. haha.. today.. went to the prefects' meeting. haha.. the sec 1 orientation next year, i'm helping out in the activities.. needa explain games and stuff.. to the 9 classes! have to be loud enough... haha.. i must do it! overcome this bloody obstacle.. haha.. anyway there's a 1e6 next year.. haha.. i will love the people who is coming into our band. especially trombone juniors!!! haha...

then went back home.. played game.. slept.. same old stuffs.... then went jogging with my dad.. good! 8 rounds in the stadium.. must jog often.. it feels good. haha.

and now i'm here. monday, hehe.. i better be right.

havent been practising on the piano. really need one.. sigh. next year would be difficult..

love ya!

east view.

hahaha... today was good.. was like full of music day.. morning had band.. afternoon went to east view.. night went to our school's choir concert.

the concert was okay. 1 hour of christmas songs and their normal repertoire and you raise me up! haha. sze xin!!!! hahha.. then at east view.. didnt have instrument.. so just sat down and listen to them play. haha.. nothing much..

haha.. love him. but too bad....

tomorrow got some prefects' meeting. wooo hooo!! at mcdonalds.. rare man.. haha. sec 1 orientation for next year!! actually i hope to be a leader of the class than to be some game organiser.. haha. it'll be a good chance for me! haha... what the hell anyway.

good night!

demoralised.

hello... i cant find a bloody blogskin that i like now... sigh. irritating crap..

today went for band in the morning.. east view saxaphonists came down.. haha.. and mr goh apologize to me for not bringing down kai li.. he tried his best bla bla.. but kai li's very tired.. haha.. thanks man. sigh... i wonder whether it's because of me that he is not coming over. haha..

then went home.. played game.. slept through the freaking afternoon! oh my.. i havent been doing work this week. it seems little left, that's why i stopped doing.. let me see... 1 topic of a maths.. 1 topic of e maths.. 3 english projects... 2 chinese compos.. physics 2003 Nov paper.. revision of biology and chemistry.. that is it. 2 and a half weeks left.. oh god!

and sean is leaving next year! have to admit, a major part of my life will be affected.. haha.. dont have much to say.. should i be worrying what will happen next year... better treasure the 3 weeks that he will be here... sean, i love you too!!!

awww man... my christmas tree is just so beautiful...

i am so looking forward to christmas!! love that time of the year.. peaceful and all so fun and lovey.. haha..

why do people have wrong impressions of me...... or is it i'm just really like the way they think i am.

let me tell you, i'm not!

haha... meiqi just said i'm too sensitive... well... then dont care!

then what next?

oh god... i must not complain. everything is just fine the way they are. i'm starting to be okay with some people in band. it's good, it's good.

haha.. okay. look on the bright side of life, and just let it be.

haha............ so pathetic.

okay good night.

God bless.

FUCK

the truth hurts.

hello.. haha. today is the start of another new week. today had band... then after band played bridge in school.. with nadia, jia xin and mathangi.. haha. then ate lunch.. gossiped.. so evil.. haha... but whatever..

sigh...

i'll take it.

good night.

joseph.

haha.. dont know what to put as the title.. so just put his name... anyway went to his church just now. was okay... played games.. sang songs.. listened to the whoever talk... sigh. joseph and me. still the same old shit. communication problem. so disappointing.. thought we could be good friends... haha.. whatever. everyone has a communication problem with me, cause i'm the problem. and finally i get to see mingli... once good friends. hope to remain that way... sigh... then came home. joseph made me feel like an idiot again. i waited for him to finish his stuff.. in the end it was better for me to go off first. haha... anything. it's my problem, my fault.

just let me be me.

good day.

study time!!!!

=)

The Phantom Of The Opera

hello.. just came back from a movie. The Phantom of the Opera. with my sis and meiqi. love it!!! was good. all singing and less talk. and the ending was sad, and i cried... haha... pities phantom.. wanna watch it again... and i wanna read the storybook.

haha... today was okay. went for tuition in the afternoon. maybe i change my mind.. i'll go on with it.. haha. de yong said he could lend me his piano to practice on.. haha.. luckily.. and joseph is suddenly talking to me. we'll see... going to his church tomorrow. some christmas programme... please let it be good. haha.. i'm not going for mass alone.. then how can i survive church next year if sean is going away?? sigh... luckily it's just half a year... but really, i'm not gonna have a good time.

it's 2 30am!! still have to bathe later. and wake up early tomorrow. unhealthy lifestyle. better get some exercise... 3 weeks left to new year... 10 months left to o'levels. which is only 40 weeks. 280 days. 6720 hours. minus 2240 hours of sleep. 4480 hours of time left. how lame. haha... but still, have to really use my time good.

okay.. meiqi's out of her bath.

good night.

sweet dreams.

God bless......

i take, without giving.

it's 2.05 am.

want to say something.

maybe i should just stop, and take a look around me, take a look at my pathetic life.

i'm not nice. i'm selfish. i'm mean. i upset people. i'm not interesting enough for people. i am left out.

haha.. why am i demoralising myself.

argh!!!!!!!!! i wanna change!!

anyway, i'm not trying to tell anyone anything.

dull life... yeah...

hello.. haha. in the midst of doing homework. getting restless yeah.. so just type some crap here..

east view just finish their band practice not long ago i think. haha. and fadly went there. he asked me, but no... haha. dont wanna go. next time.

today is stay-at-home day. woke up, had breakfast-cum-lunch. played game... did homework. haha. i'm stuck at the game!! dont know how to solve freaking puzzles. haha...

tomorrow got tuition. i starting to not like it!! feel like quitting. just quit it. since it's so expensive, and slow going. have piano lessons.. tuition.. i'm so expensive! haha.

so bored... i wanna go out and play.

i wanna study.

i wanna go overseas.

you know my sister wanna go overseas to work. and my father said we can all go together. hahaha. i wish man.

but yeah.. study hard first.

i'm good, i'm good.

later.

sentosa.

harlow.... today was one relaxed day at the beach. haha.. morning went to meet gladys, ming jie and jocelyn at harbour front interchange. then went to sentosa.. palawan beach. played volleyball, swimming, sitting around, talking.. was fun.. relaxing. and now my face is red! there wasnt much sun.. dont know why... hope i can be tanned.. please! haha.. whole day at the beach. nice! then went to harbour front to eat.. then home. kinda tired now. after bathing, i'll try to do some work.. haha.

as i planned, today is my last day out. i'll be at home from now onwards, doing my work!!! unless there's some important things...

haha.
okay.
good night.
sweet dreams tonight.

God bless...