fucking sick of things...

i think i got PMS man.. i get so iritated just seeing people. i dont even wanna talk.. oh man. fuck. how i wish that the bloody wave reached singapore and drown me.

oh please, richalynn. stop acting depressed.

haha...

yesterday had band... 3 east viewians came.. haha.. jia xin was asking winnie about kai li.. hahah.. he doesnt have a girlfriend and stuffs.. he wooed winnie before.. and a girl was cheating on him before... you mean he lied when nadia asked him whether he had a girlfriend? oh yeah, he also said jia xin was the most pretty in band. and he looks at the character before liking people.. haha... let me make this clear to myself!!! i only want to be his friend.. haha.. come on, i'm not interested in relationships and feelings for other people right now. i wanna like myself before liking others... because i suck now. haha.

after band.. met sean, meiqi and melvin.. had lunch and all... waited for quite some time before it was my turn to get my hair cut. sigh. it isnt any better. and it really sucks when i tie it up. sigh........

rushed home and rushed to jurong east to meet nadia. went to ngee ann band concert.. was okay.. slept through couple of the songs.. haha.. so rude yeah... saw mr goh and shuming and sherlyn. and desmond on stage... got one saxaphone player.. wow!!!! haha.. he stood up and played a solo part of the song imagine. so nice!!!!!!!!!! haha... his name is jefferson. haha. after more than 2 hours of music, home. nadia couldnt go anywhere.. nadia dont think too much about the angry and sad stuffs man... haha.. you've got friends who love you the way you are..

my stomach.. oh maybe not. the thorax? or abdomen.. argh. the centre part of my body... haha.. i'm so stupid... but this doesnt welcome you to insult me okay. anyway it hurt like hell last night. i was thinking maybe i have some kind of cancer or what.. i dont know why but these thoughts keep crossing my mind the past few days... haha... touch the fucking wood. i stood straight, it hurt. i lay down, it hurt. it was a pain i never felt before anyway.. sigh. whatever. i slept it away.

i dreamt of being thrown down the window. hahaha.. and my some kind of lover stabbed to death... haha.. by some person... oh fuck.

was doing maths just now.. after this i'll continue.. i must follow my fucking plan!!!

i'm sorry.

hello.

i'm just running away.. how weak.

woke up at 12 today. ate. started to clean my room. until now. i'm just taking a break.

pot calling the kettle black. it happens everytime. so just shut the fuck up.

and do not test my patience.

Stephen Chow.

hello.. just came back from a movie. the kung fu hustle.. nice!!! haha.. directed by stehpen chow.. he's good to have made this kinda movie.. anyway scenes from other movies like LOTR.. matrix.. titanic.. spiderman.. came into the show. so funny!!!!!!!!! was very kua zhang too... oh man, what's the word in english.... extragavant?? okay i just asked sean and melvin.. it's exaggerating. haha.... okay... 3 comedians i really love!!! jim carrey... jimmy fallon and stephen chow!!! haha...

4 more minutes and christmas is over. i did nothing much today... went to east coast park in the afternoon.. cycled.. was okay.... crowded.. then the movie at night. nothing much for a Christmas day.. actually quite disappointing.. haha... but who cares! Merry Christmas!! 11.59.......................................

okay. it's over.

back to work and stress...........

here's my plan.

tomorrow, sunday. clear up my room!!!!!

monday. band. cut hair. finish maths homework.

tuesday. finish physics.

wednesday. finish chinese compositions.

thursday. hmmmmm..... study for tests???? oh man.

okay.. have to read the storybook everyday.

it will be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.

off the bathe.

Good night!!!!!

It's Christmas!

haha.. hello.. Merry Christmas.

seems like today's not gonna be fun.. my dad just scolded me.. what the hell...

about last night.. haha.. was good! hang around in sean's house.. eat.. play piano and stuffs. then went to jurong east to meet jia xin.. saw yi biao. haha. then went to city hall to meet melvin.. waited for quite some time.. haha. then went to esplanade there.. anyway melvin and jia xin, who look like mature adults, asked some cute guy in 7-11 to buy vodka for us.. haha.. four bottles.. drank.. okay... then after realising we have nothing to do in esplanade.. went all the way back to sean's house.. we sat on the bed and chit chatted.. haha.. drank some wine and beer. haha.. the mum allowed. so good. until 2 plus... home.

haha.. feeling moody now already.. what the fuck. but never mind..... it's Christmas.

i just refuse to do any work okay.. stop telling me what to do. argh.

Good day!

Love you!

God Bless!

Merry Christmas Eve!!!!

haha.. harlow... in sean's house now... had dinner just now.. turkey and ham.. haha.. meiqi.. shumin.. jia le.. hua qian.. are all here.. sean's playing the piano now.. for his mum's friends to hear.. hahaa... doing nothing much now.... deciding where to go later.. for "countdown".. meeting jia xin and melvin too! haha.. this Christmas should be okay. haha. had champaign just now.. okay i know it's the wrong spelling!! haha.. champagne.. dont know... haha.. i love drinking alcohol.. that hot thing down your throat.. haha...

and thanks to anyone who has given me presents and stuffs... really thanks a lot.. all of you rock!! okay only love, no hate is on my mind now. =) oh man.. they just asked me to play the piano.. and i "politely" rejected man!!! sigh.

and new year's coming.. resolutions... hmm.. not to hate ANYONE. concentrate on studies. and i mean hardcore studying.. no going out and stuff.. after school is home. haha...

ok got to go.. bye!!!!!

Christmas!

hello... didnt update yesterday.. i went for band in the morning. was late.. haha.. then the good thing was i received some cards and a present.. most unexpectedly from stehpanie. haha... but thanks a lot.. i feel so bad for not giving them anything..

after band went to meet meiqi.. melvin and sean.. went to orchard.. bought stuffs.. the garfield for sean.. hahaha... i havent bought meiqi's.. melvin's.. and jia xin's.. and tomorrow is already christmas eve.. i'm dead.. sigh....

at night went to nanyang girls' concert.. was okay... haha.. the trombone section was GOOD. haha.. loud and strong.. what to expect, when their conductor is a trombonist. playing in SSO!!! sigh..... so good..... envies.... argh. then after the concert went all the way to JP.. to meet meiqi and melvin. haha. was talking to yibiao and jiaxin on the way there and on the way home. yi biao's nice.. haha..

sometimes i feel very sorry for myself that i have missed out a lot with other people.. never got a taste of their nice-ness.. haha... all hidden in my own sucky world... and start having my own stupid judgements and start hating people... and then i blame them for whatever reasons.. and in the end i'm the one who sucks the most.

but it's okay now! everything is alright! except for my homework, and my messy room... argh.

Christmas!! enjoy it! make full use of it! it's a time to love and share! give people some hugs! and a little Merry Christmas!

have fun at the BBQ!!!

...

hello.. cant sleep.. haha.. have been sleeping for the past few afternoons and therefore having some insomnia... funny.

this year's christmas will be kinda boring i think. wait. i havent bought the presents... sigh... and i usually send christmas cards to my primary school friends.. sigh.. what the hell is with me this year.. feel like i have lost myself. this sounds stupid, but i wanna find a better me. better set some new year's resolutions... which most probable wont work out... haha..

always treat people how you want them to treat you. well.. let's see........

anyway... it's already 1 hour later... i have got lots to say... next time...

i'm being so negative..

there is really nothing much pleasurable to think about. i've got only one in my mind now.. christmas is coming. but then again, the people who are going to spend it with me...........

argh.

good night.

irritating fuck.

hello... today had prefects' meeting and piano... in between was sleep and games.. sigh.. what a life...

it just sucks.

I feel so sorry for myself.

that's the worst feeling man....

2 weeks more.. and school's gonaa reopen.. and shit is gonna rush back in.. i havent finished my homework.. sigh...

again history repeats itself.. my mouse went crazy just now.. i lost everything i have typed...

anyway.. today went for band.. east view people came.. haha.. okay i admit i'm such a failure... didnt get to talk to him when he is just beside me... oh man............. argh... but never mind... never mind...

after band.. went to meet meiqi in west mall.. was in music concerto.. was playing the piano when bunch of the east view people came in.. sad to say he wasnt there.. haha.. we stood around.. listened to jasmine play on the piano.. haha.. then good bye.

had lunch in mcdonalds.. sean's house.. home.

so daniel thinks that people who have blogs are desperately wanting people to know how they feel.... actually quite true, i think... but depends okay... whatever.

okay... off now...

good night.













































































































please do not get too full of yourself.

He who hesitates is last.

hey hey hello.... my leg hurts. went jogging again today... this time only 5 rounds.. my stamina just suck.

woke up 11.. went to church with sean. lunch. his house.. with meiqi.. practised piano.. home.. jogged.. dinner.. tv..

dont feel like elaborating.. haha.. i just typed a lot just now... and i accidentally pressed the "back" button... and everything was gone.. haha... what the fuck.

can i please dont think i'm some big shot just because someone is pestering me.. haha.. did i spell that correctly. anyway. whatever.

looks forward to tomorrow. haha. please dont ruin it, richalynn.

good night.

sweet dreams.

God bless you.











Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.