today's new year's eve! has been raining the whole time. the atmosphere is kinda sad... because of the tusnami disaster. may those victims rest in peace.. then went down to east view in the morning. haha. will talk about it later. after that went to tampines mall.. walked around with peiling, lewis, zhizhang, fadly, shumin, jack, nadia and mathangi. did i miss out anyone? haha.. then left them and went to eat mac. then home. read some chemistry and slept. typical me. and now.. deciding whether to go count down... will be kinda sian... sigh...

okay.. hahahahah.. today at east view! we went there.. and they were playing a game. you know, sitting down in a circle. then 2 people will play catching outside the circle. the one running away from the catcher will try to find a sit and another one will run. actually their point of the game is to get 1 "couple" running. hahaha... childish you may say. but their band is really bonded, and they have fun together. anyway.. few of us joined in the game. and kai li and i were sabo-ed. haha. a few times. but he let me catch him.. awwww... hahaha.. then we played the whole 3 hours! a few couples in their band.. and some of them were so funny!!! hahahaha.. really had fun. then nothing much.... i really really wonder......................... hahahaha...

okay... i'll go now.

Happy New Year!

New Year.

hello! it's the last day of 2004!

okay........ this is the fourth time i'm writing this entry!! argh. first time i accidentally pressed back, second time the computer hung, and the third time i accidentally closed the freaking window. and i have typed paragraphs already!!!! i am going to type everything all over AGAIN.

i didnt blog yesterday, as in wednesday. so.. had band. we did drills. fun fun fun! haha. love it now! marching and turning around. hopes that our band can achieve some standard in drills. then the east view people came. kai li didnt come. winnie said it's because he was supposed to meet dok hui first. but she was late, so he went home to sleep. awww... okay that doesnt matter. then band-ed. after band went to eat with the ev people at west mall foodcourt. met meiqi. then went to melvin's house. wanted to do homework, but bloody me..... was too lazy to start doing. sigh... didnt even revise or study anything this whole holiday. i can just die struggling next year. sigh....... then in melvin's house played computer... nothing much... ate the noodles his dad cooked for us. nice! haha. then went home. slept the whole night. bloody pig.

the more you sleep, the more tired you are.

then today... had prefects' meeting. then went up to the band room.. shumin, peiling, simin and steph were up there, doing the band banner. so i helped out a little.. and played the euphonium. haha. quite nice! then after that went to sean's house with shumin. did the same old stuffs. then home.

haha.. 2004... yeah every year is full of ups and downs... this year.. started off quite badly... broke up with joseph.. then my friendship with xueting... sort of ended.. but now we're okay... my studies slacked the whole year through... and i was sort of friendless and lonely most of the time... and i start hating people.. especially in band. and i'm sorry for that. we're fine now, right?

but of course, i made wonderful friends like nadia, mathangi, laa, jia xin, melvin. and the wonderful friendship i have with sean... haha.. and my mummy and charlynn and meiqi coming into the house to stay with me.. added colours into my life... haha. and i met some new people.. like daniel, weida, jeremy, medeline, angeline, florence, KAI LI haha..., and the evss band people. haha. and i had a wonderful birthday this year. christmas was good too. a lot of happy memories. and also, i am not that shy anymore... hahahhaa... but i think i still am... as always. it's always me.

that was like so short. i have so many things to talk about. haha.. i should really treasure every person around me. and every second that i have. and take every chance to be a better me and always make the right choice!

okay. it's 2.20 am... i have to wake up at 7.. oh man.

Good Night!

you raise me up.... so i can stand on mountains... you raise me up... to walk on stormy seas....

hello.. haha.. who could ever make me feel that way...

hip hip hooray. i just finished my maths homework. now i have only chinese and physics left.

actually i got loads left. chemistry.. biology.. maths.. social studies.. chinese.. english.. ETC. argh. everything. it will never be done.

anyway i was thinking of my new year's resolutions. haha... read the newspapers. jog at least once a week, excludind PE's jog. welll, study hard. play hard too yeah. no going out on weekdays. work hard on my trombone and piano. love everyone. stop the mood swings man.....

call those resolutions? ahhh whatever.

god bless you all.

fucking sick of things...

i think i got PMS man.. i get so iritated just seeing people. i dont even wanna talk.. oh man. fuck. how i wish that the bloody wave reached singapore and drown me.

oh please, richalynn. stop acting depressed.

haha...

yesterday had band... 3 east viewians came.. haha.. jia xin was asking winnie about kai li.. hahah.. he doesnt have a girlfriend and stuffs.. he wooed winnie before.. and a girl was cheating on him before... you mean he lied when nadia asked him whether he had a girlfriend? oh yeah, he also said jia xin was the most pretty in band. and he looks at the character before liking people.. haha... let me make this clear to myself!!! i only want to be his friend.. haha.. come on, i'm not interested in relationships and feelings for other people right now. i wanna like myself before liking others... because i suck now. haha.

after band.. met sean, meiqi and melvin.. had lunch and all... waited for quite some time before it was my turn to get my hair cut. sigh. it isnt any better. and it really sucks when i tie it up. sigh........

rushed home and rushed to jurong east to meet nadia. went to ngee ann band concert.. was okay.. slept through couple of the songs.. haha.. so rude yeah... saw mr goh and shuming and sherlyn. and desmond on stage... got one saxaphone player.. wow!!!! haha.. he stood up and played a solo part of the song imagine. so nice!!!!!!!!!! haha... his name is jefferson. haha. after more than 2 hours of music, home. nadia couldnt go anywhere.. nadia dont think too much about the angry and sad stuffs man... haha.. you've got friends who love you the way you are..

my stomach.. oh maybe not. the thorax? or abdomen.. argh. the centre part of my body... haha.. i'm so stupid... but this doesnt welcome you to insult me okay. anyway it hurt like hell last night. i was thinking maybe i have some kind of cancer or what.. i dont know why but these thoughts keep crossing my mind the past few days... haha... touch the fucking wood. i stood straight, it hurt. i lay down, it hurt. it was a pain i never felt before anyway.. sigh. whatever. i slept it away.

i dreamt of being thrown down the window. hahaha.. and my some kind of lover stabbed to death... haha.. by some person... oh fuck.

was doing maths just now.. after this i'll continue.. i must follow my fucking plan!!!

i'm sorry.

hello.

i'm just running away.. how weak.

woke up at 12 today. ate. started to clean my room. until now. i'm just taking a break.

pot calling the kettle black. it happens everytime. so just shut the fuck up.

and do not test my patience.

Stephen Chow.

hello.. just came back from a movie. the kung fu hustle.. nice!!! haha.. directed by stehpen chow.. he's good to have made this kinda movie.. anyway scenes from other movies like LOTR.. matrix.. titanic.. spiderman.. came into the show. so funny!!!!!!!!! was very kua zhang too... oh man, what's the word in english.... extragavant?? okay i just asked sean and melvin.. it's exaggerating. haha.... okay... 3 comedians i really love!!! jim carrey... jimmy fallon and stephen chow!!! haha...

4 more minutes and christmas is over. i did nothing much today... went to east coast park in the afternoon.. cycled.. was okay.... crowded.. then the movie at night. nothing much for a Christmas day.. actually quite disappointing.. haha... but who cares! Merry Christmas!! 11.59.......................................

okay. it's over.

back to work and stress...........

here's my plan.

tomorrow, sunday. clear up my room!!!!!

monday. band. cut hair. finish maths homework.

tuesday. finish physics.

wednesday. finish chinese compositions.

thursday. hmmmmm..... study for tests???? oh man.

okay.. have to read the storybook everyday.

it will be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.

off the bathe.

Good night!!!!!

It's Christmas!

haha.. hello.. Merry Christmas.

seems like today's not gonna be fun.. my dad just scolded me.. what the hell...

about last night.. haha.. was good! hang around in sean's house.. eat.. play piano and stuffs. then went to jurong east to meet jia xin.. saw yi biao. haha. then went to city hall to meet melvin.. waited for quite some time.. haha. then went to esplanade there.. anyway melvin and jia xin, who look like mature adults, asked some cute guy in 7-11 to buy vodka for us.. haha.. four bottles.. drank.. okay... then after realising we have nothing to do in esplanade.. went all the way back to sean's house.. we sat on the bed and chit chatted.. haha.. drank some wine and beer. haha.. the mum allowed. so good. until 2 plus... home.

haha.. feeling moody now already.. what the fuck. but never mind..... it's Christmas.

i just refuse to do any work okay.. stop telling me what to do. argh.

Good day!

Love you!

God Bless!

Merry Christmas Eve!!!!

haha.. harlow... in sean's house now... had dinner just now.. turkey and ham.. haha.. meiqi.. shumin.. jia le.. hua qian.. are all here.. sean's playing the piano now.. for his mum's friends to hear.. hahaa... doing nothing much now.... deciding where to go later.. for "countdown".. meeting jia xin and melvin too! haha.. this Christmas should be okay. haha. had champaign just now.. okay i know it's the wrong spelling!! haha.. champagne.. dont know... haha.. i love drinking alcohol.. that hot thing down your throat.. haha...

and thanks to anyone who has given me presents and stuffs... really thanks a lot.. all of you rock!! okay only love, no hate is on my mind now. =) oh man.. they just asked me to play the piano.. and i "politely" rejected man!!! sigh.

and new year's coming.. resolutions... hmm.. not to hate ANYONE. concentrate on studies. and i mean hardcore studying.. no going out and stuff.. after school is home. haha...

ok got to go.. bye!!!!!

Christmas!

hello... didnt update yesterday.. i went for band in the morning. was late.. haha.. then the good thing was i received some cards and a present.. most unexpectedly from stehpanie. haha... but thanks a lot.. i feel so bad for not giving them anything..

after band went to meet meiqi.. melvin and sean.. went to orchard.. bought stuffs.. the garfield for sean.. hahaha... i havent bought meiqi's.. melvin's.. and jia xin's.. and tomorrow is already christmas eve.. i'm dead.. sigh....

at night went to nanyang girls' concert.. was okay... haha.. the trombone section was GOOD. haha.. loud and strong.. what to expect, when their conductor is a trombonist. playing in SSO!!! sigh..... so good..... envies.... argh. then after the concert went all the way to JP.. to meet meiqi and melvin. haha. was talking to yibiao and jiaxin on the way there and on the way home. yi biao's nice.. haha..

sometimes i feel very sorry for myself that i have missed out a lot with other people.. never got a taste of their nice-ness.. haha... all hidden in my own sucky world... and start having my own stupid judgements and start hating people... and then i blame them for whatever reasons.. and in the end i'm the one who sucks the most.

but it's okay now! everything is alright! except for my homework, and my messy room... argh.

Christmas!! enjoy it! make full use of it! it's a time to love and share! give people some hugs! and a little Merry Christmas!

have fun at the BBQ!!!

...

hello.. cant sleep.. haha.. have been sleeping for the past few afternoons and therefore having some insomnia... funny.

this year's christmas will be kinda boring i think. wait. i havent bought the presents... sigh... and i usually send christmas cards to my primary school friends.. sigh.. what the hell is with me this year.. feel like i have lost myself. this sounds stupid, but i wanna find a better me. better set some new year's resolutions... which most probable wont work out... haha..

always treat people how you want them to treat you. well.. let's see........

anyway... it's already 1 hour later... i have got lots to say... next time...

i'm being so negative..

there is really nothing much pleasurable to think about. i've got only one in my mind now.. christmas is coming. but then again, the people who are going to spend it with me...........

argh.

good night.