always losing.

hello! in sean's house now.. haha.. ha had his farewell party. it was fine.. ate a bit.. talked to some people.. and played badminton. there are so many nice people around! haha...

sigh.... weird.............................................................. argh.

anyway. got to go.. wanna watch movie. but couldnt...

good night.

fun life!

hello.. haha.. havent been blogging.. waste of time yeah... these few days have been a routine.. aiya.. my whole life has been a routine. maybe not... whatever.

study. band. study. band. eat. sleep. sms. waste time. hang out. dream. online.

haha...

shall cut vulgarities off my life. MUST.

and sarcasm too.

God bless.

i love you!

1 week down.

harlow! didnt blog for a couple of days.. was blogging yesterday.. but the computer hung again. so... wednesday? had lessons. had band. then went out with the wee gang to have dinner. yesterday.. after class went to sean's house to practice piano.. with jia xin and melvin. was okay... my mum's back! in my house.. hope i can still concentrate on my studies. then today had some commotion in band.. we were supposedly downed for nothing. it was like 50.. and the guys more. but i have no comments.. this is just how things must work sometimes.. as a group..

argh whatever.

so fast one week is over. we have like 19 weeks left to mother tongue o'levels? and 39 weeks to the real war... it's like so little.

i'll just have to focus. all the crap and bullshit. say also never do. argh.

good night!

my bag's shit heavy...

haha.. i'm using what melvin and me "invented". adding the word shit in front of the adjectives. but used only when saying something negative.. haha..

recalling what the girl said, on new year's early morning. "we were at the party, and it was like shit boring!!" haha.. i was like wow, so hot. hahaha... whatever.

anyway hello! happy birthday gladys!!

today back to normal lessons for me. i'm still fine. lots of stuff left undone. today had band too. oh man i LOVE band!!! haha... then nothing much already. still havent gotten my timetable! argh. then... HE is soooooooooo handsome. haha.

can i just let my heart run wild?? sigh. liking every guy that comes along.. what a flirt and bitch right. oh my god.... i have o 'levels this year, so can i please concentrate on the right stuffs. haha.. who cares anyway. just let it be!

i'm alright with life right now. although there's lots of homework. but it's good. i'm prepared for heavy work. but i'm just afraid of falling asleep in class all the time. and i must read the newspapers!!! if not i'll just be an ignorant shit...

haha.. i'm off. bathe. and study!! and reading time.

this is life for now.

good night.

God bless everyone.

tiredness...

hello... just came back from school not long ago.. had the sec 1 orientation thing.. was okay.. i was just involved in the school tour. i did okay. just a bit shy. haha. then saw some so pretty and enthusiastic girls.. haha... cute guys? a few i think... and jia xin's brother, jia jun. new best friend.. haha..... then it ended at 1.30. did some prefect stuff.. then went for band. did a bit of drills. then concert for a while.. then had to went down to concourse to do the band booth thing for the cca tour. was nicely decorated i think. then went walking with mathangi.. jia xin and laa. then home. i used a thousands of "then"s already.

i told myself not to use the computer everyday. i'm addicted. sigh. and also to study everyday. and to get home straight after school everyday. and to read the newspapers everyday. i will try my best!!!! although i failed today already. argh. i must do it!!!!!!!!!

but havent bathe.. havent eat.. havent done anything useful. sigh................ please, God, give me the strength to carry on with what i wanna do. please. give me the spirit!!!!

crap. haha.... okay i'm off.

god bless you all.

oh shit oh shit oh shit.

haha.. harlow.. oh man.. melvin sent the message.. and he didnt reply. i'm so worried...

sigh.

good night.

anyway, my dad just changed the monitor. so i can use the computer now.

=)

Computer-less.

hello!! haha... my computer is down.. and now i'm in melvin's house, using his computer to blog. oh ya... the night of new year's eve.. hahahahhahaaa!!! i'm so happy. meiqi, sean, melvin and me went to orchard road mrt station to meet tsz ho.. JUST to meet tsz ho. then went to esplanade to count down. actually nothing much. only met some people like casper they all.. jessi.. si qin.. riana. then the thing is i sent the happy new year message to kai li!!! haha... and winnie, and other people. then the ev gang is at matthew's house. winnie called me and the whole lot of them wished me through the phone. THANKS A LOT!! haha... then kai li said bye to me. so stupid.. this can make me so happy. then we walked through the crowd, all of them were spraying ribbons and foam from the cans. melvin sprayed ribbons into riana's bra. haha..

after that, things got boring. were deciding to go where... walked from esplanade to lao ba sha, and then to clarke quay. some drunkard nearly punched melvin. haha.. then lots of lameness occured. couldnt catch a cab. finally my dad came to fetch us home. and i reached home at 6am...

anyway daniel called me wish me. hahahaha... another happy thing.

went to church today...

must be enthusiastic about school!!! haha...

good bye.

the next entry will be about in a few thosand years time.

fuck sean.

today's new year's eve! has been raining the whole time. the atmosphere is kinda sad... because of the tusnami disaster. may those victims rest in peace.. then went down to east view in the morning. haha. will talk about it later. after that went to tampines mall.. walked around with peiling, lewis, zhizhang, fadly, shumin, jack, nadia and mathangi. did i miss out anyone? haha.. then left them and went to eat mac. then home. read some chemistry and slept. typical me. and now.. deciding whether to go count down... will be kinda sian... sigh...

okay.. hahahahah.. today at east view! we went there.. and they were playing a game. you know, sitting down in a circle. then 2 people will play catching outside the circle. the one running away from the catcher will try to find a sit and another one will run. actually their point of the game is to get 1 "couple" running. hahaha... childish you may say. but their band is really bonded, and they have fun together. anyway.. few of us joined in the game. and kai li and i were sabo-ed. haha. a few times. but he let me catch him.. awwww... hahaha.. then we played the whole 3 hours! a few couples in their band.. and some of them were so funny!!! hahahaha.. really had fun. then nothing much.... i really really wonder......................... hahahaha...

okay... i'll go now.

Happy New Year!

New Year.

hello! it's the last day of 2004!

okay........ this is the fourth time i'm writing this entry!! argh. first time i accidentally pressed back, second time the computer hung, and the third time i accidentally closed the freaking window. and i have typed paragraphs already!!!! i am going to type everything all over AGAIN.

i didnt blog yesterday, as in wednesday. so.. had band. we did drills. fun fun fun! haha. love it now! marching and turning around. hopes that our band can achieve some standard in drills. then the east view people came. kai li didnt come. winnie said it's because he was supposed to meet dok hui first. but she was late, so he went home to sleep. awww... okay that doesnt matter. then band-ed. after band went to eat with the ev people at west mall foodcourt. met meiqi. then went to melvin's house. wanted to do homework, but bloody me..... was too lazy to start doing. sigh... didnt even revise or study anything this whole holiday. i can just die struggling next year. sigh....... then in melvin's house played computer... nothing much... ate the noodles his dad cooked for us. nice! haha. then went home. slept the whole night. bloody pig.

the more you sleep, the more tired you are.

then today... had prefects' meeting. then went up to the band room.. shumin, peiling, simin and steph were up there, doing the band banner. so i helped out a little.. and played the euphonium. haha. quite nice! then after that went to sean's house with shumin. did the same old stuffs. then home.

haha.. 2004... yeah every year is full of ups and downs... this year.. started off quite badly... broke up with joseph.. then my friendship with xueting... sort of ended.. but now we're okay... my studies slacked the whole year through... and i was sort of friendless and lonely most of the time... and i start hating people.. especially in band. and i'm sorry for that. we're fine now, right?

but of course, i made wonderful friends like nadia, mathangi, laa, jia xin, melvin. and the wonderful friendship i have with sean... haha.. and my mummy and charlynn and meiqi coming into the house to stay with me.. added colours into my life... haha. and i met some new people.. like daniel, weida, jeremy, medeline, angeline, florence, KAI LI haha..., and the evss band people. haha. and i had a wonderful birthday this year. christmas was good too. a lot of happy memories. and also, i am not that shy anymore... hahahhaa... but i think i still am... as always. it's always me.

that was like so short. i have so many things to talk about. haha.. i should really treasure every person around me. and every second that i have. and take every chance to be a better me and always make the right choice!

okay. it's 2.20 am... i have to wake up at 7.. oh man.

Good Night!

you raise me up.... so i can stand on mountains... you raise me up... to walk on stormy seas....

hello.. haha.. who could ever make me feel that way...

hip hip hooray. i just finished my maths homework. now i have only chinese and physics left.

actually i got loads left. chemistry.. biology.. maths.. social studies.. chinese.. english.. ETC. argh. everything. it will never be done.

anyway i was thinking of my new year's resolutions. haha... read the newspapers. jog at least once a week, excludind PE's jog. welll, study hard. play hard too yeah. no going out on weekdays. work hard on my trombone and piano. love everyone. stop the mood swings man.....

call those resolutions? ahhh whatever.

god bless you all.