new skin.

hello.. think only sean and nadia knows that my blog address changed?

sigh.. it's already 2 in the morning.. tomorrow's saturday.. nothing much.. just wanna stay home do my work. like i will! sigh.................... i must!! i must!!! so lazy!! was doing locus just now... just cant get it.. argh.

i'm kinda upset. dont feel good yeah... but it's nothing. it's always like this. always.

can i just get those unhappy thoughts the hell out of my mind. forget it! fuck! argh!!!!!!!!! fuck fuck fuck! damn this shit!

sarcasm. vulgarities. rudeness. selfishness. apathy. quietness.

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whatever!

i try okay. i try.

is it just me? what about you?

sigh...... i miss you. what a corny thing to say.

Bittersweet

If I tell you
Will you listen?
Will you stay?
Will you be here forever?
Never go away?

Never thought things will change
Hold me tight
Please don't say again
That you have to go

A bitter thought
I had it all
But I just let it go
Hold your silence
It's so violent
Since your gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
Until the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you

If I had told you
You would have listened?
You had stayed?
You would be here forever?
Never went away?

It would never have been the same
All our time
Would have been in vain
Cause you had to go

The sweetest thought
I had it all
Cause I did let you go
All our moments
Keep me warm
When you're gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
Until the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you

love this song!!! haha... but it's for no one. no one yet...

yep the only thing i should do now.. maybe a few things.. STUDY. read. run. practice.

off.

good night!

Life's a bitch.

sigh.. stupid title.. anyway deleted some of the previous entries.. was reading my past ones.. so childish!! and evil at times... sigh.. richalynn richalynn...

but it's okay now. better stop thinking of useless stuffs and move on. few things that happened. fell out with melvin, without knowing the true reason. and friendships.. childish... friendship problems are always childish. try looking back at the past.. and see how stupid you were... haha... and band SYF! haha... work hard for it! improve! and sports meet 2005. wish me luck. haha. studies... push!!! force!!! i must do it!!! i must get into a JC!!! 10 points!!! haha... what else... matthew... argh... forget it... please people, dont jump to conclusions.

slacking now... as i always say, have to buck up.

i'm apathetic. really? is that what you think? i dont give a damn about anything except myself?

sigh.....

look on the bright side of life. enjoy it!! enjoy studying!! be proud that i am what i am!!!!

oh man.... my bill... 100 over bucks. thanks. but i'm sure this time, it will not be.

haha.. off to jog!

good night!

i'm not that lost anymore.

hey hey harlow... high time to change my blog skin yeah... have to find time.. this weekend was wasted. argh.... didnt study.. and i have not finish my homework. sigh... what a life... at least i finished a storybook.. hmmm nice eh... the 5 people you meet in heaven. after you die you will know why the things have happened and stuff..

at church.. i solved my problem.. finally. i'm not gonna get confirmed this year! haha.. need to go through the basics yeah.. since i'm thrown into the position of not knowing anything about catholicism.. i'm honest. haha. will be confirmed maybe in 2007. same as matthew? haha.. i'll still join the youth group.. i hope! another problem is not having any friends in church. sigh...

i'm such a failure. i am such a failure.

good night. off to eat.

i miss you guys.

god bless.

study hard!!!!!

always losing.

hello! in sean's house now.. haha.. ha had his farewell party. it was fine.. ate a bit.. talked to some people.. and played badminton. there are so many nice people around! haha...

sigh.... weird.............................................................. argh.

anyway. got to go.. wanna watch movie. but couldnt...

good night.

fun life!

hello.. haha.. havent been blogging.. waste of time yeah... these few days have been a routine.. aiya.. my whole life has been a routine. maybe not... whatever.

study. band. study. band. eat. sleep. sms. waste time. hang out. dream. online.

haha...

shall cut vulgarities off my life. MUST.

and sarcasm too.

God bless.

i love you!

1 week down.

harlow! didnt blog for a couple of days.. was blogging yesterday.. but the computer hung again. so... wednesday? had lessons. had band. then went out with the wee gang to have dinner. yesterday.. after class went to sean's house to practice piano.. with jia xin and melvin. was okay... my mum's back! in my house.. hope i can still concentrate on my studies. then today had some commotion in band.. we were supposedly downed for nothing. it was like 50.. and the guys more. but i have no comments.. this is just how things must work sometimes.. as a group..

argh whatever.

so fast one week is over. we have like 19 weeks left to mother tongue o'levels? and 39 weeks to the real war... it's like so little.

i'll just have to focus. all the crap and bullshit. say also never do. argh.

good night!

my bag's shit heavy...

haha.. i'm using what melvin and me "invented". adding the word shit in front of the adjectives. but used only when saying something negative.. haha..

recalling what the girl said, on new year's early morning. "we were at the party, and it was like shit boring!!" haha.. i was like wow, so hot. hahaha... whatever.

anyway hello! happy birthday gladys!!

today back to normal lessons for me. i'm still fine. lots of stuff left undone. today had band too. oh man i LOVE band!!! haha... then nothing much already. still havent gotten my timetable! argh. then... HE is soooooooooo handsome. haha.

can i just let my heart run wild?? sigh. liking every guy that comes along.. what a flirt and bitch right. oh my god.... i have o 'levels this year, so can i please concentrate on the right stuffs. haha.. who cares anyway. just let it be!

i'm alright with life right now. although there's lots of homework. but it's good. i'm prepared for heavy work. but i'm just afraid of falling asleep in class all the time. and i must read the newspapers!!! if not i'll just be an ignorant shit...

haha.. i'm off. bathe. and study!! and reading time.

this is life for now.

good night.

God bless everyone.

tiredness...

hello... just came back from school not long ago.. had the sec 1 orientation thing.. was okay.. i was just involved in the school tour. i did okay. just a bit shy. haha. then saw some so pretty and enthusiastic girls.. haha... cute guys? a few i think... and jia xin's brother, jia jun. new best friend.. haha..... then it ended at 1.30. did some prefect stuff.. then went for band. did a bit of drills. then concert for a while.. then had to went down to concourse to do the band booth thing for the cca tour. was nicely decorated i think. then went walking with mathangi.. jia xin and laa. then home. i used a thousands of "then"s already.

i told myself not to use the computer everyday. i'm addicted. sigh. and also to study everyday. and to get home straight after school everyday. and to read the newspapers everyday. i will try my best!!!! although i failed today already. argh. i must do it!!!!!!!!!

but havent bathe.. havent eat.. havent done anything useful. sigh................ please, God, give me the strength to carry on with what i wanna do. please. give me the spirit!!!!

crap. haha.... okay i'm off.

god bless you all.

oh shit oh shit oh shit.

haha.. harlow.. oh man.. melvin sent the message.. and he didnt reply. i'm so worried...

sigh.

good night.

anyway, my dad just changed the monitor. so i can use the computer now.

=)

Computer-less.

hello!! haha... my computer is down.. and now i'm in melvin's house, using his computer to blog. oh ya... the night of new year's eve.. hahahahhahaaa!!! i'm so happy. meiqi, sean, melvin and me went to orchard road mrt station to meet tsz ho.. JUST to meet tsz ho. then went to esplanade to count down. actually nothing much. only met some people like casper they all.. jessi.. si qin.. riana. then the thing is i sent the happy new year message to kai li!!! haha... and winnie, and other people. then the ev gang is at matthew's house. winnie called me and the whole lot of them wished me through the phone. THANKS A LOT!! haha... then kai li said bye to me. so stupid.. this can make me so happy. then we walked through the crowd, all of them were spraying ribbons and foam from the cans. melvin sprayed ribbons into riana's bra. haha..

after that, things got boring. were deciding to go where... walked from esplanade to lao ba sha, and then to clarke quay. some drunkard nearly punched melvin. haha.. then lots of lameness occured. couldnt catch a cab. finally my dad came to fetch us home. and i reached home at 6am...

anyway daniel called me wish me. hahahaha... another happy thing.

went to church today...

must be enthusiastic about school!!! haha...

good bye.

the next entry will be about in a few thosand years time.

fuck sean.