syf syf syf syf syf syf...

haha.. syf pressure... it's really a big thing.. for me.. for us sec 4s.. for mr goh.. for the school.. i really really really pray pray pray real hard!!! that we can get at least a silver!!! i mean.. it's achievable.. and... some teachers actually think we can do very well... and mr goh said the school has very high expectations of us... and for the band personally... a thing to be real proud of... a reputation.. haha.. go in.. give our best shot.. come out with no regrets.. and a legacy left. how nice a vision........... haha... well.. i believe.

anyway it's thursday... had lessons... 2 tests that i did badly as usual... then had chemistry practical after school... didnt go to sean's house in the end... so went up to the band room and practised... nothing much.. was kinda crappy.. then went to eat with laa.. jx.. and mathangi.. we rock! haha.. found out some truths... i'm apathetic and only care about myself and is rude... okay.. i get it. i'll try to be better okay? it sucks when people think of you that way... it sucks when your better friends always try to change the way you are. oh whatever. crap...

anyway after that went up to MC.. rocked also.. saw jeremy there.. played piano and stuff.. chatted with him.. the four of us.. asked him stuffs and stuffs.. have always been missing the times i had with the MC peeps.. sean, hua qian, jeremy, daniel, medeline, angeline, weida.. and some others.. fun times.... although i wasnt the.. you know.... thought of. haha. my self esteem.................. the friends forever thing.. i hope it still stands..

and zul.. hahaha.. rocks with him sitting in front of me in class..

gonna be the last weekend to enjoy... saturday last formal band practice. monday last performance with bbss concert band.. sad sad sad... i will miss the band.. my trombone mates.. deyong.. hahaha.. best junior.. must do me proud okay... haha...... errrr i'm talking to myself. and the other 2 bryant and venessa.. next generation.. wish them all the best. haha...

next tuesday onwards...... study!!! sigh........ but one stupid thing.... my house..... it sucks... my mum is not gonna leave by june. my room is gonna be occupied until forever. i can never have peace.. alone. my room is so............ infested... oh my i'm so evil.....

oh yeah... first time in my life.. my composition was well written and mr latiff printed it for the whole class to see.. what a compliment. somebody wants to insist that he thought of the points for me.. and his english is wayyyyyyyyyyy better.. haha. so be it. want me to thank you or something? haha..

hmmmmmm... not much homework lately...... tomorrow's friday... so no need for early sleep.. gonna try my best and study? oh please.

people from broken families are selfish and only care about themselves... ha.

give me a break.

hey there..... hahaha...

aiya.. just come straight to the point. i feel real sucky now... i dont know whether it's with me or... yeah.. my friends.. my family.. some stuff... sigh... just really sucked today. petty? me? yeah... i'm too sensitive. but i think it's too much already okay.... sigh....... but it doesnt matter now... i dont care.

actually i dont really have any big problems... so i can just shut up and never complain. let it be.. let it be.. let it be.. haha..

my own wishful thinking.. is that the correct word? haha.. ya my english sucks. dont have to rub it in.

syf's in 5 days time... 3 practices left.. pray that nobody falls ill or something..

i'm nervous about it. yeah. would be worst on the day itself. or worse? haha.. i believe the band can do it.

hmmmmmmm... vulgarities.. sarcasm.. gossips.. complaints.. girly screams..

IRRITATING.

sigh...........


















































love.

ha.

Happy Easter.

hello... nothing's up today... went to church last night.. easter vigil.. haha.. 3 hours. quite interesting.. the baptism and stuffs.. haha.. went with mummy and mathangi.. my god mum and bro were there too... and charlynn.. first time experienced this... sigh... i still have much more to learn and know... pathetic...

today.. woke up at 12.. ate.. piano.. homework.. slept again.. ate.. it rained.. cooling.. haha..

wasted this 3 days... didnt study at all... sigh... still got english to do.. and social studies.. later finish up chinese and music theory. i guess it'll be fine. next week no more online-ing...

finally i'm alone in the house...... i feel.................... peace.

haha. i'm such a shit.

no more vulgarities please. and sarcasm. greatly invented by some people. haha...

8 more practises to syf? but the band dont seem to feel any tension...

anyway.......... life's fine for now. with a bunch of close friends to brighten up my days... and teachers who are so interesting.... and band which i think is real fun. and a family...... oh well.. not so nice.. but....... make peace. make peace.

yeah...

good bye.

the moon is round tonight! and i'm over it!

i know..... my jokes....... ooopppss... sarcasm banned in my life!!! not to use it ever!

today.. sports day 2005.. i particapated.. and achieved 2 trophies and 3 medals. yeah something to be proud of.... thinking i had very little chance to win anything... 200m.. got 1st.. broke the record by 1 second.. 30 seconds? haha.. then the relay.. 4x100.. got first too! emily, lizhen, theresa and me ran... haha.. feels good to work in a team and win.. and we broke the record too... hahahha.. then UG 4x100.. band got third!!!!! good good. same 4 ran.. joseph.. daniel.. mathangi.. and me. haha. we did great, i suppose. and... high jump and 4x400.. both 2nds..

day to remember.. last sports day of secondary school life.. was a good one. thank you!!!! to everyone.. to god.. to my beloved friends.. hahaha.. and the sweet congratulations from people...

i'm not gonna get proud here.... yeah thanks jia xin, laa and zhi zhang. haha.

sooooo.. the next big thing is SYF... erm 2 more weeks? scary.... really wanna do well.. i love band. i want it to continue in my life.

then studies.... must get it going.. i'm so lazy... so so lazy...

good night. god bless.

Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it.

hey.. the past few days.. went out.. did ispl and group study and stuff.. having motivation in me now. haha. went to church today.. today's palm sunday. and i do not know a heck about it. oh richalynn.... and some stupid friendship problems.. i dont really give a damn. shows how weak the friendships are.. oh well... what else... term 2 coming up.. just a few weeks more before mid year exam. i must study hard!!! argh... and sean's coming back in april! haha.. and syf.. 11th april.. we really must do do do do do do our BEST!!!! and that performance will be the sec 4s' last one with the band.. how sad can that be??? and if we get bronze and below................................... we are going to regret big time. sigh. pressure... piano for me now is doing fine. good thing. sports day on thursday. running the 200m one again. i'll do my best. what else.......... off to the disney on ice thing now.. haha.. with jia xin and charlynn.. fun time!

stay happy, my friends. may peace be with you all...


hahaha. cheers.

Bukit Batok Secondary School Concert Band...

hello! back from camp... haha... was great actually. then was eating at pizza hut just now in jurong point... with jia xin.. laa.. mathangi.. kerby.. berry.. yi biao.. tasted good.. haha.. but no lallang there... anyway.... highlights of the camp.. UG campfire.. cdp programme-hip hop dance... visit to east view. band practices.

first day... got that flag day.. didnt really do... sigh... wanted to but went to the wrong place.. not much people.. then we gave up and went back to return the thing... disappointment.. haha.. then went back home.. off to school for the camp. started with practice.. then interaction with the juniors.. the fun part was the UG campfire at night... we cheered and sang.. the fire.. was nice.. haha.. all of us.. NCC.. St John.. NPCC.. Band.. aiya.. and the other UGs.. gathered around the campfire.. heartwarming.. haha.. then each of us put up a performance.. band did the bird dance. we rocked! haha.. the emcees were good too... haha.. then ended.. bed time.. naughty nadia and me went to the ncc sea's bunk there.. and chatted with them... miss ngiam caught us... scolded. but it's okay... haha.. went to bed. slept on table.. with no sleeping bag or anything..

day 2.. haha.. band practice in the morning.. and at night.. afternoon had that hip hop dance! and some games... the dance.. was great!!! hahah.. held in the hall.. jia xin and me.. enthusiastically stood right in front.. and the dancers that came to teach us.. admires them! haha.. cooooooooooool... one of them... so cute!!!!! he came to ask us how to turn on the fans... fainted.. hahaha.. jx and i wanted to ask for his name.. but....... too bad... haha.. was fun learning the steps and all.. the dancers rocked!

third day..... was longing for it.. haha... went to east view in the morning.. reached there.. went up to the hall.. put down our instruments.. then went down to play games with them... poor kai li fell down the stupid erm.. bench. sprained his arm or something.. then after playing.. went up to the hall to have concert together. had warm ups and played singapore rhapsody together.. then they played for us.. we played for them.. they sounded quite alright.. but we played a sucky concerto dynamico for them.. haha.. then.. talked to kai li a teeny weeny bit.. sad shit. also talked to kai jing.. haha.. he's nice.. also played trombone for years.. then took photos.. went down to the canteen to have lunch... talked to matthew.. see them did their drills.. haha.. good good.. then back to BBSS... was good.. going there to see them... i hope it's not the last time i'm gonna see............ haha....... think it will be.. unless we're gonna meet on SYF day... both ours falls on 11th april.. less than a month to go. i really really pray hard that we will do our best and come out with no regrets. as mr goh says.. we stand a good chance... after returning from evss... had that hip hop dance again.. completed the dance routine.. haha.. nice! then.. dinner.. concert.. disappointed mr goh again.. and miss ngiam.. and our leaders.. our inconsistency.. being laid back.. not concentrating.. being apathetic about playing well and stuffs.. not listening to instructions.. not being united as a band.. forming cliques within the band.. not helping each other out.. having some princes and princesses and rebellious shits.. disrespectful towards the leaders... and that night ended okay... the only night i slept with laa.... haha..

final day of the camp... breakfast.. had band practice.. was quite okay... i just wish the best for the band.. we can do it! we want to do it! then cleaned up the band room.. i wiped.. mopped.. arranged.. with jia xin and kerby.. haha.. good friends now.. some lame stuffs created.. kerb-power, chard-power and jx-power! haha... ate lunch.. home.

anyway.... compliment of my life! "you're doing quite a good job actually, i should say." mr goh said this to me when i was conducting sectionals... hahaha.. thanks... haha.. also had quite some fun playing soccer after dinner.. with jx and people.. seniors also came back.. like shuming.. zuriana.. ridzuan.. desmond.. miss the times i had with them!!

so the camp... recorded in my book of sweet memories.. haha..

next up........ sigh...... ispl.....

good day my friends.

X-country.

hello.....

today was good.. but wasted half of it sleeping..

cross-country.. haha.. 37th place... quite alright... got a keychain for it.. haha. syafiq 9th.. en chun 16th. shao yu 13th. jie xin 1st! Coe house won!!!!!! hahahaha.. all the good runners.. envies them.. haha... and the uniform group relay.. we came in fifth.. out of eight groups.. joseph.. daniel.. mathangi and me ran.. fun!!! haha.. today was great actually.. after the whole thing.. went to jurong point to have lunch.. walked.. and bought some stuffs... came home.. and slept all the way until 7 plus... so now i'm awake and ready to go!!! haha.. tomorrow flag day.. then camp! fun fun fun and more fun! haha.. it'll be great i hope. and monday... hahahha... can get to see some people again. the sad thing it's only a few hours... but better than nothing. haha..

oh my............. haha..

and ispl.... argh....... can die after the camp. never mind. enjoy first!

i'm gonna have a piano on sunday! yay!!! thanks sean!! haha.. finally i can practice on a real piano.. cant fail my teacher anymore!

rocking life i have now... but of course.... when it's up.... it'll always go down.......

i love you!!!

just when i thought things were going fine................

harlow! band camp is a day away! looks forward to having some fun... with the practices.. hip hop dance.. visit to east view... the nights... must treasure the 4 days! last camp of the year...

anyway... 1 week holidays... got loads of ISPL... hope i can finish them... and a few outings during that short one week.. how much can i do???

and today... argh.. if you're reckless with my heart.. then i will not give a damn about yours!! argh! sometimes people just get too much...

tomorrow cross country.. hope i can do it.. haha..

falling into the trap of being a typical teenager.

harlow!

sunday.. sigh.. didnt go to church.. sinner..

argh!!!

anyway.. yesterday went to the career fair with jia xin and laa... was okay.. interested in bioengineering.. haha.. my dreams! whatever... work hard!! then why am still here typing all these shit? sigh....... was out the whole day yesterday.. with melvin and laa and jia xin.. zhizhang.. went to plaza singapura.. walked around.. ate at pizza hut.. some childish people wanna pair people up... haha... so stupid. i hate myself. do you have to give me that cold reply??? sigh. who cares. yeah... who cares. at night went to watch that adolf play... nice..... then went to orchard with melvin... walked.. and walked.. sean called! haha.. talked for an hour plus... then home...

better have some motivation in me. go work!!!!!!!!!!

chill out.

say goodbye to trophies this year.

hello.......

sports heats today. 200 metres.. i lost.. last position... to make it sound better.. got fourth.. couldnt beat the badminton girls.. first time in my life i lost! depressing.. but oh well...

the 4x400 relay.. got 2nd.. good! haha.. well done 4 of us... emily.. jie xin.. hweeting and me.

kinda sad....... happening during the last year of my secondary school life... but it's okay.. it's fine... real heart warming to hear the good lucks and the good jobs and screams and the cheers and shaking of hands and smiles... how sweet.

this year... didnt start out well.. and hasnt been well..

but never mind!

just forget about the trivial and minor things in life! and get things going!