brad pitt,"what did you think when we first met?"

angelina jolie,"what did you think?"

brad pitt,"i thought... you felt like christmas morning.."

so touching when he said it!!! hahaha.. watched mr and mrs smith last night.. corny show.. haha.. but quite alright.. funny.. handsome man and beautiful lady.. brad pitt!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah i know.. typical of me to scream over good looking people. whatever...... and i watched batman that day also... another great movie. haha.. starting already can cry... anyway movies coming up... war of the worlds!!!! not because of tom cruise please. fantastic four.. that island show.. a lot a lot.. hahahah.. movies rock!

anyway it's wednesday! haha. school's gonna reopen! hallelujah! spelt correctly? haha. and dear sean's coming back after tomorrow. and homework not yet finish...... argh........ and... number 1 thing to fear. olevel oral!!! oh man....

hello... this week is passing by fast.. so fast thursday already... sigh.. one more week.. school reopens.. and it's gonna be tough i guess... so sad... have to face it.. and it will not be the worst.. not so bad i think.. if i just relax and do my part. my best. haha. and.. my dad left for china today.. he flew to hong kong then took a bus to shen zhen. where the hell is that? haha. ask him he also dont know.. errrrrrrrrr. haha. blinded by love.. and he'll be gone for 9 days.. it's gonna be weird in the house.. now already i'm all alone.. and nobody's gonna come back.. maybe my sister.. late at night.. sigh.. i thought i was brave.. later night time i'm gonna have some stupid thoughts. shit.

i made some plans.. for tomorrow and the weekend.. i'll finish all my homework by sunday.. and then next week will be revising.. comparing myself to my close friends.. i guess i'm the slowest.. and the slackiest. and i'm from e3.. what a joke.. haha.. just kidding. i dont really care. just follow my own pace.. what kind of english?! sigh. haven't been reading.. no sports. sigh. i have to go for some jogs... and.. i did read.. storybooks.. not the papers though.. i also watched a lot of tv.. and yesterday eye for a guy 2.. (supposedly a shallow show)... wolfgang won. chey... i thought it would be howard.. he's really cute. hahaha.

hmmmmmm what else.. one big sin i've commited.. never go church for 2 sundays. sigh. just so hard to be truly faithful.

tonight got lost. yay!

harlow.. haha.. one week gone.. was alright i guess.. did mostly a maths.. hope i'll finish tonight.. been slacking too much... last night was one rockable night. haha. went to ngee ann poly band concert. was fun! haha.. the band was not too bad.. then the percussion ensemble.. nice.. and there were cindy.. andrew.. desmond.. and sherlyn in the band. haha.. desmond changed to percussion. then sherlyn changed to trumpet. so cooll.. also say jeremy.. his ex.. mr goh.. ling zhi.. etc. jeremy is in the band also.. playing flute.. wow.. haha.. wish him all the best.. yep the most interesting part was the combo band.. sorta rock band.. with drums.. and keyboard.. the guitars.. and saxophone.. and the lead singer.. my senior desmond!! haha.. he totally rocked. sang a few songs.. so..... great! he can sing!! and the handsome keyboardist.. haha.. shumin and me agreeing vigorously that we was so handsome.. hahaha.. name's wen bin. yeah. the whole concert was just great.

after it ended.. i stayed on for a while more.. while the rest made their way to mac.. at king albert park.. i wanted to hear desmond sing.. and hear that guy play the keyboard. so faintable.. haha.. was quite erm...... enlightened?by their talents.. oh ya... one of the trombone guy.. playing's sooooo good!!!! sigh wish i could be like him.. hahaha... i must continue playing in a band man... no matter what!!!!! yeah.. then saw shiying as well.. talked to her abit with sherlyn and another girl.. then desmond came and give that same old look.. luckily there was no middle finger.. hahaha.. it's alright.. after all.. he's nice.. will always look up to him.. hahaha.. did your hair stand? oh well. then i ran like a cheetah to mac.. haha.... met them.. okay them is.. peiling.. shumin.. shimin.. kailing.. lewis.. zhizhang.. kid man(not sure of the spelling).. fadly.. and jack.. yep. ate.. rich zhizhang treated us.. he has a wallet of a working man. then talked to shumin.. caught up with each other... then dont know why.. zhizhang asked joseph to come.. then he came.. also saw jeremy and people came in. and also wenny and family.. haha.. went off.. took the bus.. then went home with fadly..

that's the night. this week.. sort of wasted i guess.. spent a lot of time playing games too.. haha.. tales of symphonia.. so fun. haha..

missing so many things!!! especially the past.

sigh.

hello! just came back from the gathering.. was good.. we watched movie.. was kinda bad.. hitchhikers something something to the galaxy.. we missed a bit of the front part.. then.. a bit boring.. haha.. after that.. oh wait.. before that took neoprints.. anyway we went causeway point.. there's tian bee.. gladys.. jocelyn.. alan.. hong yi.. mingjie.. yeah.. then after the movie.. talked and walked.. took photos with alan's camera.. then home.. took the bus together.. without gladys.. haha.. suddenly good with alan again.. weird.. but yeah.. he's nice.. then took photos.. dropped with hong yi at some busstop.. then talked.. and waited.. most of the time silence.. abit awkward.. haha.. but.. the ice will melt. it will.. to think we were such close friends last time... sigh... i'm such a loser man. then he said hope this friendship will carry on.. yes it will. yes!!! haha.. okay okay.. just really really really miss them.. dont wanna lose anyone of them.

well... this week.. abit of work done.. mostly playing game.. 2 days spent cleaning up my room.. i love my room now!!! so spacious and clean... and nice.. my decorating skills.. hahaha.. yeah.. then... will start work tomorrow i guess.. with tian bee.. and maybe hong yi... in my house.. haha.. study richalynn!!!! dont leave this school with any regrets..

listening to bo bice inside your heaven now.. so nice... haha... was thinking about the DSA thing... sigh.. depressing.. firstly.. acjc is impossible.. they need the grade of your instrument. argh... then cjc.. i'll try maybe... but my results.. sigh.. dont know.. i really wanna go acjc.. haha... work hard and yeah work hard hard hard.. nothing is impossible and nothing is too late!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. motivating myself here.. which is mostly... well... useless..

next week... nothing on.. study... tomorrow and sunday finish all the homework.. then next two weeks revision.. okay?!?!?!?!?!??!!

then my father's leaving for china on thursday.. haha.. for 9 days.. please richalynn stay home. dont think of going anywhere. the most is just primary school gathering.. out with sean.. midnight movie!!! haha..

okay.. bye...

hey... changed the skin already.. i kinda like it.. haha.. and that little poem on the front page.. obviously.. i didnt make it. took it from somewhere else.. it's within temptation's song actually.. haha... oh my god i feel like a loser. haha..

2 days gone... what have i accomplished? hmmm.. a little of chemistry.. that's all.. and yeah victories in the games. sigh... deep shit i'm putting myself into.

meiqi left the house already... all those things that happened.. ruined our cousin-ship.. hai... we were quite close last time.. until some fine days... just like that.. we dont talk anymore.. why? asked my dad. "it's like that one what. what can you do?"

forget it.

haha.

wanna go play game... byebye!

a phone call saved my mother's life?

hello... reached home about 45 minutes ago.. today was band day.. haha.. had the rehearsal for tomorrow's performance. at indoor stadium.. we're the pre-concert item.. it's a dance thing. synesthesia.. then in the morning naughty a few of us skipped lesson. actually we're excused.. but you know.. still better to attend class. missed out quite a number of things... sigh... how am i gonna catch up.. actually it's only physics and chemistry.. but new chapters and stuff... hai.. gotta read up on my own later on... then 1215 reached school.. practiced in the studio.. soooooo rusty.. sounded quite bad.. i mean me. yeah but it was nice. once again back in the band. but.... we couldnt play well... the songs... sigh... just hope we will not disappoint anyone tomorrow. then made our way to indoor stadium.. settled down.. warm up.. ate dinner.. waited a lot.. saw the dancers practicing.. hahahaha one guy was so handsome. hahaha. so our turn to play.. only played two songs... then went up to the seats and watched the dance. the real thing. was nice... flexible bodies. haha. and some of the flips made me go wow. yep watched halfway then went off.. back to school. left our instruments and stuff in the err stadium. reached school.. went with laa and jia xin to cheers. bought cup noodles to eat. pathetically sat on some steps to eat. hahaha... and.. cats just amuse me. after that.. walked with laa to the interchange. home.

sigh... reached home then argh.... my dad asked me to call my mum... you know what.. my mum is crazy once again. this always happens. wanting to die and all that shit. keep on crying...... so i called.. told me about her life and stuff... said she just wanna end her life.. hai........ what the hell man..... and she said before i called her she was going to kill herself.. scaring me... sigh. how am i suppose to help her? somehow it seems so hard to care for her. because she can really make people angry and sick and tired. ahhhhhh...

what kinda problem... argh! and today people around were so mean. even jiaxin and laa.. insulting here and there. haha. crazy... i'm too sensitive again ah? so what's reeaaalllllyyyy mean? and they are all jokes right? so if i say..... you're so ugly. ohhhh i'm just joking only right! small thing also angry... errr how would you feel? aiya i know i'm talking c**k.. but........ hmmmm.. dont be reckless with peoples' hearts? you know, what goes around comes around. haha.

i'm nonsense-ing. who cares man?! say all you want!

it's 1 26 am and i haven bathe. hai... things i wanna do. bathe. read chemistry and physics. play game. read storybook. tonight. haha.

silence in the air....

hello. hahaha.. mother tongue o level today... was alright.... dont think i'll do well for paper 1.. and paper 2... hopefully i wont get 35/80 again... hahha.. this time i answered fully the comprehension questions.. and only got one wrong for tian xie han zi.. and one wrong for zao ju... guess i did okay.. A1???? nah....... depends on my oral.. and listening i dont care must get full marks!!!! since i am an audio person... haha...

it was kinda scary in the exam hall.... so... the feeling when taking the rest of the papers end of this year... can imagine how is it gonna be like. killer nerves...

after the exam... went to eat with them... at mac... wanted to go home.. and rest.. and relax.. so i slept for a while... woke up and got ready for the prefects' farewell party... was okay... most of the time doing nothing. first was listening to the radio with chieng yang... they repeated the american idol final.. argueing who's better.. of course i like bo and he likes carrie. ahhhh lame stuffs.. then the food came.. ate.. talked to de yong.. then with ida they all.. relaxing.. then the performance thing... we were the "spoilers".. nobody wanted to go up and walk. sigh... togetherness of the board... and then prize giving.. prom king was sze xin and prom queen was faridah. haha.. then home...

walked back with deyong and joseph... from school to the interchange. chance of my life. ya jokes... so..... of course.. kept quiet.. nothing to talk about.. then just walk walk walk... sigh... talked to deyong then joseph walked behind us.. listening to his music.. wonder whether he heard what we were talking about.. hahahahhahaa.. ahhh love my junior. such a nice guy.

so.. tomorrow and the next gonna be with the band.. fun! haha.. not going for lessons tomorrow.

then thursday back to work. study!!!!!!!

off to play some game. resident evil!!!!

one more day.

holidays holidays holidays... looking forward to it. although for us sec 4s it's like a time for revision and bucking up.. but at least it's a break.. from school.. from... aiya.. stress..

left a day... and gonna have chinese o level... i hope hope hope hope i can do well... i studied alright. i did. the rest is up to erm.. luck? whether i want to do it or not. sigh.... oh well...

today.. went to study with tian bee and wei xing again. it was good. study talk study talk. at some bench under the block. blk 307.. haha.. where shi jie stay.. yeah was hot.. stuffy.. but quiet.. which is good. and many cute cats walked by.. and some thoughtful guy was bouncing the basketball and walked past us.. and how nice of him to stop bouncing for a while. how considerate. so we did from 3pm to 7 plus pm... before that went for lunch. plates of wan tan mee which made us nauseous(how do you spell it)... er... yeah.. then dinner downstairs with dad and tian bee...

after monday. i'm gonna slack that day. go home. or go out. wanna read some interesting storybooks i have. then tuesday.. go school in the morning.. after that the performance rehearsal? havent read the band board yet.. maybe some changes.... so... wednesday... whole day booked by band.. thursday back to lessons.. plus friday... hopefully there is no need to go back again the following week... then i can study happily with tian bee.. and weixing(hopefully, hahaha).. plans for the holidays? hmmmm.. firstly i wanna clean up my room... havent been "my room" for a long time... then.... my dad is going to be away in china.. hmm i wonder why..... haha... some girlfriend he's having... what the hell!!! tell the whole world except me. i mean.. he only told my sister and mother. hiding it from me? what's the meaning?! my o's ah? dont wanna distract me ah? sigh. anyway he'll be leaving on the 16... until 25. so i'm kinda.......... freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. haha. it's gonna be so great. then... the main thing is to study still... then sean's coming back on the 26.. i'm gonna have some fun before school reopens. yeah that's it. and the real scary part comes.... actually it should be here now.. just not feeling it yet.. then when? 1 week before?

yeap... life's good. for now.

miss the old times.

hey hey hey...

haha.. watching american idol now... bo will win!!! anyway he's better and has more fans...

the show just finished.. really really hope bo will win... then they showed a clip on the whole american idol journey.. so touching. hahaha.. anthony!!!!!! and vonzell.. and constantine. hope they'll continue their dream.

hahahah.

yesterday didnt go to school. because of the haircut. you know, my mum is undergoing a course to become a hairdresser.. then it was her practical exam yesterday.. so she used me as her model... errr yeah... and.... the outcome? not very nice.. so... her teacher trimmed my hair.. and made it look better. so?? yeah... my hair is short now. argh... like last time. oh well and i changed my glasses. so i had a makeunder. jokes... and today i braved through the comments and insults. haha...

it could be fun.. changing image every now and then.

this week is the intensive chinese week.. was alright.. did those papers.. kinda sian. but i wanna get an A1!!!! nothing is impossible. and some charming told me not to go back and see him if i dont get A1... hahahahha.. kinda sweet when he said that.

oh my i'm in love with you!! yeah yeah..

but how i wish we could go back to the old times. when we were so close and comfortable with each other. friends forever?

june holidays game? wanna study study study study.. 3 months solid. it can be done.

tian bee's coming over in a while.. hahaha.. suddenly so close. aiya just wish the 3 of us can be good friends again.

chinese rocks actually. wonder why i drifted from it. i was good at it in the past. sigh....

band performance coming up in june.. 1st of june.. not prepared at all... miss playing.. this reminds me of the direct admission thing. argh.. can get it i'll... i'll.. jump.

so many things i want.. i wish for.. but doing nothing about it.. what logic??

i'm really losing out a lot, a lot.

heya...

nice weekend spent with tian bee and weixing.. haha.. i'm lovin' it! just caught a movie with them.. amityville horror. is that the correct spelling? yeah.. it's good. not very scary or what. still prefer house of wax.

love watching movies.

and yay. they're coming over to study tomorrow.

and about the losing out thing... i just feel so lousy.. as a person. in terms of..... EVERYTHING. sigh..

inferiority complex. haha..

lack of confidence.

just simply.. SHY.

urgh... this sucks.

that's why i fail in a lot of things.

why me? can i just get the hell out of this shit.

































ahhhh forget it.

hmmmm.... dont fret my dear...

anyway... holy shit my dad is getting married. my thoughts? dont bother me.

hahahaha.. selfish thing to say... but... i really dont know.

he hasnt been very nice to me either.

kinda getting it.. why my mum said it sucks big time living with him.

and he dont even say a thing about having a girlfriend.

what? just one fine day bring a woman home and say, girl this is my wife/girlfriend.

hahahaha.. never mind.. after all he is the great father i have. who brought us up into such lovely creatures.

really really really really wanna go to JC... HAHA L1R5 25... go where??? and that direct admission thing. my dreams man....... no harm trying... but it's like. bu zi liang li. argh.

so............. gotta go bathe!

lots of stuff to think about.

i need a change in me. pathetic....

have faith.

have courage.

whatever..... haha. byeee!