last night was great! haha. POP 2005. farewell for the seniors. us.

we arrived at the library at 4 50.. girls wore black, guys white. then we prepared ourselves.. walked down to the lecture room and sat down. listened to our very own band, our juniors play. they sounded good. so proud and touched. hymn for a child, our first song in the main band. then we turned around to watch the video.. syf rehearsal.. haha.. next was giving out of certificates of appreciation. miss ngiam gave out the certificates and talked a little about everyone of us. haha. so touching.. jerrold sang for us. envy him.. haha.. then we looked at the photos. memories. then passing down of posts. deyong is the pp now.. very proud and happy for him. haha. and the 4 leaders. charleston, barry, jasmine and yibiao. congratulations and wish them the very very best. after that was eating and taking pictures and giving presents.. thanks a lot a lot for those who gave me something.. even a simple card was great. feel so bad i didnt get them anything. just bought for my juniors. sigh. but it was really heartwarming.

after the thing ended, met sean at west mall.. the four of us. plus him. went to foodcourt.. then arcade.. then movie at lot 1 with laa and sean. haha. war of the worlds. was good. exciting and kinda scary at some parts.. haha. so reached home at 2 plus. whew.

anyway tuesday's oral... shit.

i'm not gonna die. i can do it. i'll talk and talk and talk. sense. be brave!!!!!

haha.. i'm being a shit.

one week gone. 9 more weeks to prelims.. so fast. and this week was...... fine.. did homework. listened in class. but never really study... i thought one week one subject?? sigh what for plan in the first place.. keep on failing myself. this week should be chemistry. argh.

someone. hahahahhahahhahahaha. things will be well right? not like before. never.

=)

laa can sing very well!

haha.. yesterday.. sean came back.. we fetched him.. and went out and had some fun staying over at laa's house. okay firstly.. i met up with jia xin and jurong.. then matthew at some place in the middle. then.. arrived at the airport. waited anxiously for someone's plane to land. haha.. came out from the toilet.. looked at the tv screen.. sq 238 arrived! haha.. then 3 of us crazily hid behind some stupid wall.. and waited for sean to come out. aiya.. then he finally came out. but our hiding was crap.. he just walked away.. and the insects walked past him without knowing.. haha. so we met.. hi and all that. ate at burger king. then made our way back to bukit batok. matthew, jx and mathangi left us. so melvin laa and me went to sean's house. used him computer.. deciding where to go..

we went to orchard.. wanted to catch a movie.. but laaa couldnt. so sad. then we walked around.. had dinner in some italian restaurant. was good. after that, wanted to buy some vodka but....... sigh. went to laa's house. haha. her house very nice. used her computer.. we talked and all that.. hear her sing.. then went down to watch movies. the indian show, some ghost show.. sigh forgot the title. then troy. but nobody's interested. also told stories about ghosts and stuff. lucky me have never seen anything or felt real real wrong and scared about stuff..

so the whole day didnt sleep. we went off at 7 plus.. went home. i bathed slept. and slept the whole day. my dad came back too... seem so weird.. we didnt talk at all about china.. or anything. sigh. really what the hell.. and my sister said he was sick of him. haha okay. that's bad.

sigh.. still have not finished my homework. shit shit shit shit shit. argh.

so sad.

something's missing.

something's gone.

you gave me peace in a lifetime of war.

was at my mom's yesterday and today.. i did a little of work.. watched some shows.. she has loads of vcds and dvds.. i can just enjoy watching... i watched troy.. hahaha.. brad pitt. brad pitt. archilles. breseis. and some cartoons. not childish okay. haha. those movie kinds.. pocahontas. nice to enjoy past movies..

anyway. homework left. social studies. physics. and a maths. 3 days left. i'll try my best. i'll do tonight. i dont care. not gonna sleep.

tomorrow sean's coming back. i hope it'll be good. fun.

was just wondering... aiya.. close friends but we didnt meet at all during the holidays. and tomorrow. sigh. just put everything aside and enjoy myself.

this world is so full of pretend.

friendship. hmm.

brad pitt,"what did you think when we first met?"

angelina jolie,"what did you think?"

brad pitt,"i thought... you felt like christmas morning.."

so touching when he said it!!! hahaha.. watched mr and mrs smith last night.. corny show.. haha.. but quite alright.. funny.. handsome man and beautiful lady.. brad pitt!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah i know.. typical of me to scream over good looking people. whatever...... and i watched batman that day also... another great movie. haha.. starting already can cry... anyway movies coming up... war of the worlds!!!! not because of tom cruise please. fantastic four.. that island show.. a lot a lot.. hahahah.. movies rock!

anyway it's wednesday! haha. school's gonna reopen! hallelujah! spelt correctly? haha. and dear sean's coming back after tomorrow. and homework not yet finish...... argh........ and... number 1 thing to fear. olevel oral!!! oh man....

hello... this week is passing by fast.. so fast thursday already... sigh.. one more week.. school reopens.. and it's gonna be tough i guess... so sad... have to face it.. and it will not be the worst.. not so bad i think.. if i just relax and do my part. my best. haha. and.. my dad left for china today.. he flew to hong kong then took a bus to shen zhen. where the hell is that? haha. ask him he also dont know.. errrrrrrrrr. haha. blinded by love.. and he'll be gone for 9 days.. it's gonna be weird in the house.. now already i'm all alone.. and nobody's gonna come back.. maybe my sister.. late at night.. sigh.. i thought i was brave.. later night time i'm gonna have some stupid thoughts. shit.

i made some plans.. for tomorrow and the weekend.. i'll finish all my homework by sunday.. and then next week will be revising.. comparing myself to my close friends.. i guess i'm the slowest.. and the slackiest. and i'm from e3.. what a joke.. haha.. just kidding. i dont really care. just follow my own pace.. what kind of english?! sigh. haven't been reading.. no sports. sigh. i have to go for some jogs... and.. i did read.. storybooks.. not the papers though.. i also watched a lot of tv.. and yesterday eye for a guy 2.. (supposedly a shallow show)... wolfgang won. chey... i thought it would be howard.. he's really cute. hahaha.

hmmmmmm what else.. one big sin i've commited.. never go church for 2 sundays. sigh. just so hard to be truly faithful.

tonight got lost. yay!

harlow.. haha.. one week gone.. was alright i guess.. did mostly a maths.. hope i'll finish tonight.. been slacking too much... last night was one rockable night. haha. went to ngee ann poly band concert. was fun! haha.. the band was not too bad.. then the percussion ensemble.. nice.. and there were cindy.. andrew.. desmond.. and sherlyn in the band. haha.. desmond changed to percussion. then sherlyn changed to trumpet. so cooll.. also say jeremy.. his ex.. mr goh.. ling zhi.. etc. jeremy is in the band also.. playing flute.. wow.. haha.. wish him all the best.. yep the most interesting part was the combo band.. sorta rock band.. with drums.. and keyboard.. the guitars.. and saxophone.. and the lead singer.. my senior desmond!! haha.. he totally rocked. sang a few songs.. so..... great! he can sing!! and the handsome keyboardist.. haha.. shumin and me agreeing vigorously that we was so handsome.. hahaha.. name's wen bin. yeah. the whole concert was just great.

after it ended.. i stayed on for a while more.. while the rest made their way to mac.. at king albert park.. i wanted to hear desmond sing.. and hear that guy play the keyboard. so faintable.. haha.. was quite erm...... enlightened?by their talents.. oh ya... one of the trombone guy.. playing's sooooo good!!!! sigh wish i could be like him.. hahaha... i must continue playing in a band man... no matter what!!!!! yeah.. then saw shiying as well.. talked to her abit with sherlyn and another girl.. then desmond came and give that same old look.. luckily there was no middle finger.. hahaha.. it's alright.. after all.. he's nice.. will always look up to him.. hahaha.. did your hair stand? oh well. then i ran like a cheetah to mac.. haha.... met them.. okay them is.. peiling.. shumin.. shimin.. kailing.. lewis.. zhizhang.. kid man(not sure of the spelling).. fadly.. and jack.. yep. ate.. rich zhizhang treated us.. he has a wallet of a working man. then talked to shumin.. caught up with each other... then dont know why.. zhizhang asked joseph to come.. then he came.. also saw jeremy and people came in. and also wenny and family.. haha.. went off.. took the bus.. then went home with fadly..

that's the night. this week.. sort of wasted i guess.. spent a lot of time playing games too.. haha.. tales of symphonia.. so fun. haha..

missing so many things!!! especially the past.

sigh.

hello! just came back from the gathering.. was good.. we watched movie.. was kinda bad.. hitchhikers something something to the galaxy.. we missed a bit of the front part.. then.. a bit boring.. haha.. after that.. oh wait.. before that took neoprints.. anyway we went causeway point.. there's tian bee.. gladys.. jocelyn.. alan.. hong yi.. mingjie.. yeah.. then after the movie.. talked and walked.. took photos with alan's camera.. then home.. took the bus together.. without gladys.. haha.. suddenly good with alan again.. weird.. but yeah.. he's nice.. then took photos.. dropped with hong yi at some busstop.. then talked.. and waited.. most of the time silence.. abit awkward.. haha.. but.. the ice will melt. it will.. to think we were such close friends last time... sigh... i'm such a loser man. then he said hope this friendship will carry on.. yes it will. yes!!! haha.. okay okay.. just really really really miss them.. dont wanna lose anyone of them.

well... this week.. abit of work done.. mostly playing game.. 2 days spent cleaning up my room.. i love my room now!!! so spacious and clean... and nice.. my decorating skills.. hahaha.. yeah.. then... will start work tomorrow i guess.. with tian bee.. and maybe hong yi... in my house.. haha.. study richalynn!!!! dont leave this school with any regrets..

listening to bo bice inside your heaven now.. so nice... haha... was thinking about the DSA thing... sigh.. depressing.. firstly.. acjc is impossible.. they need the grade of your instrument. argh... then cjc.. i'll try maybe... but my results.. sigh.. dont know.. i really wanna go acjc.. haha... work hard and yeah work hard hard hard.. nothing is impossible and nothing is too late!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. motivating myself here.. which is mostly... well... useless..

next week... nothing on.. study... tomorrow and sunday finish all the homework.. then next two weeks revision.. okay?!?!?!?!?!??!!

then my father's leaving for china on thursday.. haha.. for 9 days.. please richalynn stay home. dont think of going anywhere. the most is just primary school gathering.. out with sean.. midnight movie!!! haha..

okay.. bye...

hey... changed the skin already.. i kinda like it.. haha.. and that little poem on the front page.. obviously.. i didnt make it. took it from somewhere else.. it's within temptation's song actually.. haha... oh my god i feel like a loser. haha..

2 days gone... what have i accomplished? hmmm.. a little of chemistry.. that's all.. and yeah victories in the games. sigh... deep shit i'm putting myself into.

meiqi left the house already... all those things that happened.. ruined our cousin-ship.. hai... we were quite close last time.. until some fine days... just like that.. we dont talk anymore.. why? asked my dad. "it's like that one what. what can you do?"

forget it.

haha.

wanna go play game... byebye!

a phone call saved my mother's life?

hello... reached home about 45 minutes ago.. today was band day.. haha.. had the rehearsal for tomorrow's performance. at indoor stadium.. we're the pre-concert item.. it's a dance thing. synesthesia.. then in the morning naughty a few of us skipped lesson. actually we're excused.. but you know.. still better to attend class. missed out quite a number of things... sigh... how am i gonna catch up.. actually it's only physics and chemistry.. but new chapters and stuff... hai.. gotta read up on my own later on... then 1215 reached school.. practiced in the studio.. soooooo rusty.. sounded quite bad.. i mean me. yeah but it was nice. once again back in the band. but.... we couldnt play well... the songs... sigh... just hope we will not disappoint anyone tomorrow. then made our way to indoor stadium.. settled down.. warm up.. ate dinner.. waited a lot.. saw the dancers practicing.. hahahaha one guy was so handsome. hahaha. so our turn to play.. only played two songs... then went up to the seats and watched the dance. the real thing. was nice... flexible bodies. haha. and some of the flips made me go wow. yep watched halfway then went off.. back to school. left our instruments and stuff in the err stadium. reached school.. went with laa and jia xin to cheers. bought cup noodles to eat. pathetically sat on some steps to eat. hahaha... and.. cats just amuse me. after that.. walked with laa to the interchange. home.

sigh... reached home then argh.... my dad asked me to call my mum... you know what.. my mum is crazy once again. this always happens. wanting to die and all that shit. keep on crying...... so i called.. told me about her life and stuff... said she just wanna end her life.. hai........ what the hell man..... and she said before i called her she was going to kill herself.. scaring me... sigh. how am i suppose to help her? somehow it seems so hard to care for her. because she can really make people angry and sick and tired. ahhhhhh...

what kinda problem... argh! and today people around were so mean. even jiaxin and laa.. insulting here and there. haha. crazy... i'm too sensitive again ah? so what's reeaaalllllyyyy mean? and they are all jokes right? so if i say..... you're so ugly. ohhhh i'm just joking only right! small thing also angry... errr how would you feel? aiya i know i'm talking c**k.. but........ hmmmm.. dont be reckless with peoples' hearts? you know, what goes around comes around. haha.

i'm nonsense-ing. who cares man?! say all you want!

it's 1 26 am and i haven bathe. hai... things i wanna do. bathe. read chemistry and physics. play game. read storybook. tonight. haha.

silence in the air....

hello. hahaha.. mother tongue o level today... was alright.... dont think i'll do well for paper 1.. and paper 2... hopefully i wont get 35/80 again... hahha.. this time i answered fully the comprehension questions.. and only got one wrong for tian xie han zi.. and one wrong for zao ju... guess i did okay.. A1???? nah....... depends on my oral.. and listening i dont care must get full marks!!!! since i am an audio person... haha...

it was kinda scary in the exam hall.... so... the feeling when taking the rest of the papers end of this year... can imagine how is it gonna be like. killer nerves...

after the exam... went to eat with them... at mac... wanted to go home.. and rest.. and relax.. so i slept for a while... woke up and got ready for the prefects' farewell party... was okay... most of the time doing nothing. first was listening to the radio with chieng yang... they repeated the american idol final.. argueing who's better.. of course i like bo and he likes carrie. ahhhh lame stuffs.. then the food came.. ate.. talked to de yong.. then with ida they all.. relaxing.. then the performance thing... we were the "spoilers".. nobody wanted to go up and walk. sigh... togetherness of the board... and then prize giving.. prom king was sze xin and prom queen was faridah. haha.. then home...

walked back with deyong and joseph... from school to the interchange. chance of my life. ya jokes... so..... of course.. kept quiet.. nothing to talk about.. then just walk walk walk... sigh... talked to deyong then joseph walked behind us.. listening to his music.. wonder whether he heard what we were talking about.. hahahahhahaa.. ahhh love my junior. such a nice guy.

so.. tomorrow and the next gonna be with the band.. fun! haha.. not going for lessons tomorrow.

then thursday back to work. study!!!!!!!

off to play some game. resident evil!!!!