orientation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahahhaahhaaahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhaha.

okay. today was fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so much better than first day man. our group bonded a little more. go toilet also wait for each other outside. haha. today we played games. some CSI alike thing. then got mass dance.. i enjoyed it the most! haha. love my group actually. sorta know everyone already... then today go home walked with jonathan and casper. haha. took 985.. damn long ride. slept, and nearly missed my busstop. i think my guardian angel calling me. just had to wake up when the bus is about to leave the stop. okay yeah. 2 more days. dont want it to end. i guess we have to be much much much much more enthusiastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.

my new favourite number. 14.

Happy New Year!!!!

hello...............................!!!!! haha. i just woke up.. 4.15pm. in my mum's house. came here to spend the night. at 4.30am.. sean and melvin came as well. watched charlie's angel to pass the time. but i fell asleep. so i dont know what they were doing man.. but i heard laughters and stuff. but what the hell. wanted to leave at 5.30 am. haha. then i slept alone in the living room. until now. gonna go home soon. christmas and new year, i just didnt choose to spend them with my father. feeling bad...... sigh...

anyway!! friday went for alumni band. was fine. ahhaha. enjoyed playing as usual. hope this alumni thing will be a great success. and then after that i got this family dinner. uncle striked lottery or something. haha. then i went for 4e3 chalet. at around 9.30pm.. saw mr siah, mr quek and ms dianah. but they left soon after i arrived. also missed the bbq. and guys weren't there. then we played cards and stuff. waited for people to come.. told ghost stories. went to walk. with mathangi, zul, syafiq, jason and akbar. "the red house". somewhere nearby. supposedly haunted. so we walked pass that house. SCARY man. haha. mathangi keep on wanting to go back. alright i guess.. looked scary. and i would love to go in. in a group. haha. whole night didnt sleep. went walking. and sitting by the pool. morning went to the beach. see sunrise. last sunrise of 2005. hahahahha. saw this cat. black and white. first time in my life i saw a cat sitting on the beach near the water! haha. like waiting for something. then it came to me. of course i tuoched it and stuff. while zul talked on the phone with some person. yeah. didnt really see any sun. got back. whole day, slept a bit here a bit there. went to the pool. walked around with syafiq and mathangi. played cards in the room. watched tv. at night i went home. miss foo came also. then said bye. i went home. met sean, jia xin and melvin. to welcome the new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also met kai jie, daniel and jiawei. and tsz ho and his friends. we went to esplanade. saw the fireworks. damn nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there was no "5,4,3,2,1" so sad. but then, happy new year everyone!!!!!!! had a great time. spraying that foam thing. then hang around. walked. mum's house.

yeah......... haha. one more day. then school! quite reluctant. but then..JC man!!!!!!!!! must welcome it with open arms. haha.

aiya. i need to settle down.

come what may!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FEAR

Face Everything And Recover.

Fuck Everything And Run.

haha. 2nd one would be so much easier. anyway...... just got back from piano lesson. alright i guess.. 2 months to exams. oh my god.. not feeling worried yet actually.. haha. but then.. i hope i can upgrade to grade 4.. as my teacher said. but of course must show that i can do it. haha.. then can shorten my path towards.. erm.. grade 8. haha.

yesterday whole day at home.. slept the whole time. woke up at 2. had lunch. then slept at 4 again until 7pm.. went out for dinner with daddy. met richavel with jeffrey. so i wasted the whole of yesterday. just watched tv.. read book.. do theory homework..

now nothing to do.. haha.. listening to spice girls. woo!

later going my mum there.. cut hair.. haha. i once dreamt of having a mum as a hairdresser. then now. it comes true. haha.

4 more days to school reopen. goddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. exciting. meet new people. kinda know what to expect. haha. later got difficult tasks to do. then thanks. hahahaa.

come on and do it! dont care how you look it's just how it feels. come on and do it!

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

secondary school life. indeed great. accomplishments got a few. failures also. but there was no big big failure. so no big big lesson learnt. i know, i didnt make the best out of everything. like being a prefect. i just floated around. no difference from being a normal student. hahahaha. sports day. happy thing. studies. alright. declined over the 4 years. i just hope o's result will be good. pray hard. friends i've made. i've said already. i'll treasure them.. band! hahahaha. love bbss band so so much. sec 1 went in, got so much fun and great seniors. i did my part. tried my best. but only as a IQM. i sucked. totally. well, i'll not repeat next time. only realised the greatness of teachers this year. how much they are doing for us. wanting us to excel in life. and so on.. things that happened.. just so thankful for all the friends i've made.

i so know what's stopping me from.. erm.. moving upwards in life. sigh. i wish i could just change. i'll try. jc. new chance for me.

hahahahaa. listening to toy box now. super cute. i'll spend the next few hours digging out old cds. good day!

maybe some pretty girls are in your world.
excuse me, i could also be your girl.
lately, everyone is making fun.
na na na na na na... (an an an an an an)

hahahaha. i died.

RAMBS, MIE LURBEX EUU ALL WORX!!!!!!!!!

oh please twits, just shut the fuck up.

new year resolution number 1 : cut down on vulgarities.
new year resolution number 2 : make the best out of everyday, eveything!!! and i mean EVERY!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh my god!! next year catechism class... joining the sec 3s.. back to last time. no friends again. please make sure i'll be friendlier this time. hahaha. welcome me people!! although we dont know each other.

what else to look forward to... so it's jc life, music exams, new catechism class. CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!! haha. and then... valentines day.................? o's result. and then settled to prepare for U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. i like to look forward into my future. but i still dont know what i want to do in life.

new year resolution number 3 : stop looking out for good looking people.

haha.

BGR should be the last thing on my mind now. because.............. i still fail to love myself sometimes. CORNY! haha okay. but the thing is, first thought on my mind is always "i'm not good enough for him". so DUH! haha. to people who use "duh", please. please! use it wisely.

yeah... argh!!!! i'm so dumb actually!!!! so many things i dont know about. sighhhh. it's not like i feel good about it. but certain things i'm just not interested in. and the others i just didnt read about it.

i'm trying!!!! sighhh.

bye.

life's like that.

hahaha. copying from readers digest.

anyway it sucked.

doesnt work on me.

yeah i know, it's a what goes around comes around thing. haha.

haha. time to boast!!!! just now on my way up home. this uni guy wanted to do a survey with me.. some stuff on healthy lifestyle.. then he said stuffs like...................... "you got a nice figure", "you got a figure for a model", "you mean nobody told you?" then chats. forgot to ask for his name!!!! sigh. anyway i thought he was filipino.. but is mix chinese and malay. hahaha. okay. aiya! give me a chance to feel happy about these once in a blue moon compliments.

no biggie.

anyway! things were happening nonstop since christmas eve. matthew's house. mass. meet mum. party. stayed over at mum's place. party. went to tian bee's chalet. movie. dinner. whew! still feeling thrilled. hahahahhaa.

then next two days. stay home! relax and prepare myself for the new year, mentally. and then... 4e3 chalet. new year. better be good!!!!!!!

piano.. havent been practising. or doing the theory stuff. shhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiittt. sigh.

and thanks those who made christmas so wonderful for me.

and again. so dont want this year to end. too soon. too soon.

it's seriously, Christmas Time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! oh my god i can tell you, i'm seriously feeling a bit tipsy now. i'm now in my mum's place. i met her and charlynn just now in lucky plaza.. they were having some kind of party in some mini "restaurant". then i drank champagne. haha dont know correct spelling or not. anyway! it was fun! okay i danced and all that. first time okay! hahahahhahaa. i enjoyed myself seriously. with my younger sis. charlynn!!! hahahahaha. okay. then.... met my mum friends. i drank like. 3 cups. but not drunk. just.... giddy. hahahaha. high!

before that went for mass with matthew. yeah and ben. we stood together. had a nice time. they were funny and talkative. it's mass hello??? ahahhaha. but it's okay. love them. and it was probably the last time i'm seeing them this year. sigh! i'm really sad okay. will miss you two! and then matthew's dad sent me to orchard. one thing i hate about myself today. why must i be so SHY in front of matthew's mum. haha. argh! but anyway. yeah.

thank god i made up with mathangi. christmas really does wonders! hahaha. okay.

yeah. love you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha. so happy now.

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!

Christmas Eve!!!!!!!!!!!

yooooooooo hooooooo! haha. in matthew's house now... came here this afternoon for lunch. rambs plus melvin and dharshini. anyway we had a nice time i guess.. although half the time we were in silence and thinking of what to do. but turned out okay. we just dunno... did nonsensical stuffs and all. exchanged presents also. haha. of course it's nice. giving and receiving. yeah and we got to know dharshini a little better. cool. outspoken and all. haha. and drambs now. if melvin was in then drammbs. haha. okay. lame. then matthew's mum was great. thanks a lot. seriously. yeah... soon everyone had to leave. jx church. sean and ben and dharshini home. melvin out with friends. yeah. so i'm going for mass later with matt's family.

haha.

where are the virtues?

the past 3 days were awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahhaha. anyway i jus came back from piano lesson. and received a present from my teacher. hahaha. thanks so much.

went for chalet on monday. until yesterday. it was good. haha. many turned up. some left on the first day. anyway.. we had barbecue on the first night. i finally know how it works... i'm quite dumb actually! haha. then we went to walk walk. haha. nice! was mainly with hweeting poovanes and syafiq. then came back... played cards and talked in the room with some of them. slept eventually. next morning.. wanted to see sunrise. but didnt happen. woke up at around 10... went to mac with xueting and people to eat. rented bicycles. came back. dont know doing what.. all the other girls left. was bored so i went cycling on my own.... hahaha. fell down! quite embarrassing. haha. but only 2 people saw. they helped the bicycle up, but not me! but nah.. so kind of the girl to offer to to help me back to the room. but i declined... rode all the way to the end. and back. quite enjoyable.. came back.. slept. woke up to find all the girls still not around. then i just hung around. played pool with some guys. then went to sit on the cliff. chats and all. aiya. most of the night was walking. until 5 am or something. slept for 2 hours. next morning went back with shumin.

so main things that happened during the chalet. barbeque. cycling. walking at the beach. pool. sounds boring. but........................ it's the people that you spent it with which makes it fun and memorable right??? hahahahaa. okay. yeah. so. 2e2 people. i'll treasure you all. 2 years of time together. means a lot to me. plus kai jie. haha. thanks!

then yesterday went to kbox. rambs first outing. haha. i loved it! sang. had a good time laughing and all that. took neoprints also. came home and slept all the way until this morning. so i'm back to normality now. jokes.

to jia xin and sean: i really love you both lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i mean we can have so much fun and laughter together. even on msn. haha. next year 3 of us take 3 different paths. i really hope we will still keep in contact.

and also. matthew and ben. melvin. laavanyah. nadia. mathangi. tsz ho. 4e3 and 2e2 friends. band mates. louisse and christine. MC friends. primary school mates. seniors. teachers. schoolmates. other school friends. acquaintances.

merry christmas. my deepest thank you for your friendships.

okay i'm gonna go to have my last backbone checkup later. haha. then today and tomorrow just stay home and relax first.

i need to catch a movie!!!!!!!!!!

dont step back.

hello............................................................

today i went for mass with sean. met jia xin and went to orchard. bought presents and cards. went home. family outing to east coast park. had dinner at the restaurant. which totally sucked. food as well as service. and price. 10 bucks for a few pieces of pathetic kai lan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh. had a nice time with sis and dad. we went to parkway parade(first time for me). and then drove around a little. home.

things should be fine now.

i just dont want the same thing to repeat again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i never wish to let you know.

haha. so. another new week. chalet and stuff!!!!!! haha. christmas!!!!!!

aiya.. live one day at a time. cant look forward too much. it wont turn out well! always like that!

it takes two hands to clap.

so i got into st andrew's jc. guess i'm fine with it. quite excited actually.. this afternoon my dad drove there to see the school. nice! right in front got Chapel of the Holy Spirit. haha. and distance doesnt matter actually. i'll get use to it. straight bus. not that bad. and then.. until now i know of no one going to that school. from my class. or anyone in BBSS. there's riana. haha. but it'll still be great. great!

and then after that my dad went to see cars. decided to get a new one! woo hoo! christmas-cum-chinese new year present for himself. and us! haha. cooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool. nice salesman too. haha.

also went to orchard. to continue my christmas shopping. not yet done still. i met matthew and ben.. and ben's friend. darshini or something. haha. for a while. then they left for home. sean and me walked around a little. met melvin. walked. talked. watched performances. sat down at starbucks.

some little commotions here and there. i wouldnt want to give a shit. since the year is ending, why not let it cool and get on with life? set some new year resolutions. and look forward to your new year ahead. instead of engaging in some mindless and aimless arguments.

anyway...................... hahahahhaahhaha. i'm feeling alright i guess. soon it will be christmas day. i just wish to spend it nicely. with people i love. feeling peace.

still dont have any plans though! haha. with rambs probably. my dad. my mum. outing. mass. party.

then next week. so packed. first 3 days already got chalet. 2 days. then christmas. last week also.. 2 chalets. ahh!

things that i wanna do. christmas shopping. k box. outing with BMS. go out with charlynn. outing with rambs. movie movie movie.

2 weeks left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Merry Christmas!

you're so beautiful.

christmas is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait. my favourite time of the year. it'll be fun!

yesterday was goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood. my dad sent me to ben's house. passed my stuffs to matt and ben. then 2nd big big big big house i visited. nice. then we played x-box and watched a bit of movie in the entertainment room. went off to play pool. i lost like hell. but it was quite fun. then said goodbye and i went to meet my mum. had a mother and daughters dinner at pizza hut. chatted. my sister's in looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove. so sweet.

today. shopping! with melvin and sean. was nice. and jia xin's back! haha. i bought some presents. and one for myself. not done yet. i still got some money left luckily...

"give me an R!"...

hahahaha. thanks guys. i thought it was so sweet.