time, please freeze.

haha. today is such a weird day! first was chem makeup lesson being cancelled. then the trek recce being cancelled. then was melvin and me not going to sean's play. oh my. so whole day. SLACKED. slept most of the time. to make up the 2 hours sleep yesterday. haha. SO SORRY SEAN! i hope you're not angry.

anyway.. then tianbee came to my house. to study. but oh well. slacker+slacker=waste time.

FEAR la...........

TA MA DE.

anyway. left 3 days. and homework to complete. maths ws. essay. I&R. chem tutorial.

and studying for promos has occured man........................................

shit.

anyway. although the studying was not there, i definitely had a great week! starting from last thursday.

totally fun-filled.

the going back to bbss. the movie marathon with amirul. the rockclimbing. the linus' birthday celebration. the outing with val. and the partyworld with yumin and geok! really nice. sang until 3am. hahaha. though i know nuts about chinese songs! sigh so sorry.

and my dad has left for china. and i'm so alone this 1 week holiday! richavel is treating this house like a hotel seriously. not coming back until the next evening, then going out again. and younger sis.... staying with mum. yeah...

3 days.

plus tonight.

HELP.

sigh.

okay so next 2 weeks. hai.. have to do some planning. priorities are. STUDYING. and piano. yes. that's it. that's just it.

I MISS YOU. are you still there?

haha.

love my cats!

it's a wonderful day... lalalallalala. yay it's a beautiful day.

helloo! omg today damn fun! hahahah. just love it when there are days like this. thanks so much. to people who made my day!

first was ROCK CLIMBING. so damn fun! hahahha love it man. that partnering with abu is really quite amusing. firstly i'm too light to be his belayer. so my feet went off the ground for 3 or 4 times. haha. pretty fun. but once he just fell unexpectedly and my hands sorta got rope burnt. yeah blisters and all that. hahaha. until instructor amir had to change find us new partners. anyway i had real fun climbing the various walls. though it got impossible to conquer any nearing the end of the day. =( so exciting i would love to climb again. haha. then... INSTRUCTOR AMIR! damn nice also. such nicey. with his humour and good teaching. oh man, hope we meet again! haha. next, SAJC rock wall!!

hahahah. after the rock climbing, left odac. then went with abu to meet mel they all.. hahahahha. another exciting thing. celebrated linus' birthday. haha. abu and i went to buy a cake while the rest of them watched movie.. haha. then gave him a surprise. well, hope he had a great time. we played the fountain thing at bugis there. hahah and ate at some thai restaurant. cooool. damn nice tomyam thing! ahhh love tomyam! yeah then home.

great day!

so dad is leaving tomorrow.

so i havent done any work yet since friday.

so i have to go back school on wed and thurs.

so there are piano lessons on wed and thurs. and i think my teacher is starting to dislike me. why the sudden change?!?!

so holidays is ending in a glimpse. and promos is just 3 weeks away. 21 days.

so, it is.

damn sad. damn damn sad.

hello!

people please tag!

haha.

anyway today i had a great great great great time. first was the celebration in sajc. was quite fun. although i didnt sit together with odac. haha. not ps-ing! anyway yeah. jing yu is really funny! hahahahah. then the concert. some performances were really impressive. and the teachers awards. haha. plus that super funny video! damn cute. ahhaha congrats to the SC. and in the morning odac had mini celebration for the odac teachers. haha. had a giant card and a cake for them, plus singing happy birhday song. replacing happy birthday with happy teachers' day. haha.

and then after that i RUSHED to bbss. BBSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg! OMG. sigh. just cant describe that feeling the moment i stepped into bbss. k la maybe not bbss but when i went to outside the staff room there where all my friends and teachers were. so happy!!!!!! tmd. ahahaha. i met jerrold on the bus and went in with him.. hahaha. then yeah most of my classmates were there! felt so goooooooooood to see them again!! oh my. haha. miss 4e3 la............ GOD. plus the teachers. talked to mrs lim. MRS LIM. best maths teacher in the world. haha. and mr latiff. MR LATIFF. ohmygod my favourite teacher!!! and also xie lao shi. hahaha. nicey. and miss ngiam. love love love lovelovelove. yeah and teachers like mdm yaw and mr quek were on course.. sigh. i so miss the past. so so so so so so so miss.

emo part! after hearing stuffs today my friends and teachers said. somehow. i felt quite sad. and felt like "why on earth did i come to sa?!!?!?!" haha. i dunno la.. the sad part is that i'm the only one from bbss in sa. and now, it's so hard to feel like you belong. fuck la. fuckfuckufckufkfuck. of course i made super nice friends and all. but then. you still feel so teeny weeny. i also dunno how to say. you're probably gonna not understand really what i'm trying to say here. anyway yeah. and my class now. wowness. sigh. dunno la. but luckily there's still some people who care and dont judge.

anyway!! forget it. then after that went to have lunch with mathan, melvin, jx and hweeting! hahahah was quite fun. chatted and everything. being vulgar like nobody's business. haha. then i met kaijie too. lol. and laibao. pri sch friend!! haha. then. we found freaking 10 dollars on the floor!!!! omg and it was so funny when jx screamed!! lol. we thought of donating it. hahaha but then not so saint. we just splitted the money. 2 dollars each. haha. end up buying cards to play bridge! our fav game last time. haha. went to some void deck. and played. hahah. then i had to leave for piano lesson.. in the end didnt meet sean, didnt meet geok they all, didnt meet raine. sorry raine!! and i slept. i think somehow excess sleep makes you depressed! haha. and now left jasmine, hady, jon leong and paul. hady, please be the singapore idol.

haha. so i think i'm going to krunk market tomorrow!!! lol. i also dunno la. never try this kinda thing before. and supposedly going with grace, raine, christopher.... plus tomorrow got the first aid test. oh man. how am i suppose to meet them!! surely in the end cannot work out one. sigh.

it's the holidays!!! but. so many things going on.

haiya. just relax. take things one at a time.

most importantly. STUDY!!!!!!!

just remember,
the grass is no more greener on the other side.

haha.
treasure!!!

sigh. I&R or slack?!?!?!!!!??!

let's waste time.
let's forget the world.

september, come, stay, dont go away.

hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

just had the sudden urge to wanna blog. and talk about stuffs.

today was really nice! haha. odac jog taskforce had our very first dryrun. so we ran from school to bishan park. was about 5 km. quite shuang. ran non-stop and then reached there it was already dark. hahaha. we sat at the grass patch there and just discussed some points and started to chat about other stuffs. love them. hahaha. val, yumin and lester. odac people are just so nice and funny and lovable. thank god for odac really. then we went to eat at pp macs and started to study.. was only for a while. then took cab home with val. hahahah.

anyway what a nice weekend. so free. no worries. just have a bio test on monday and maths test on tuesday.

i just so look forward to sept hols and that period of time before promos begin. hahahah. first thing. MY DAD'S GOING OVERSEAS. haha. not that i should be happy about it. but yay! i mean.... i have to do housework and worry about my sis's wellbeing. and i have to go to school on my own. but anyway. i think i'll still be happier.

haha.

and then. there's no odac. frees up a lot of time. goodie.

it's just that. it's gonna be sooooooooo free and promos is the only worry.

oh how i love exam periods.

not that studying for promos is a very easy job.................................

argh.

FEAR.

Fuck Everything And Run.

haha.

A happy life includes:

Good family

Good friends

Doing things that you enjoy

Healthy amount of work that keeps you going

Good self esteem and self image

Ability to find inner peace

Love and to be loved




hahahah just crap.

just take things as they come, no worries!

life.

is.

beautiful.


yesterday!! odac day cycling. lol. damn fun. especially the slopes down. and group 3 definitely learnt the importance of first aid and wearing helmets. really what an experience for us! haha.

and then went to meet band peeps. i missed the POP. sadness. but glad that i caught up a little with some of them. but i didnt get to see my favourite junior!!!!!! hahahah. miss him like hell. anyway miss band miss band miss band miss band miss bbss band. ta ma de. haha.

DONT WASTE THE YOUTH AWAY!!!!!!!! the spring of life is about to be over. and here comes summer.

lallalalallalalal life is wonderful. =)

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes a word to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to you yawn brother
It takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

It takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some tears to make you trust
It takes some years to make it rust
It takes some dust to make it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
It takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to know you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is oh love
Ah la la la la la la love is all sorts of
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is holla holla
Ah la la la la la la next up bushwalla-walla
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la

Life is Wonderful by Jason Mraz.



hahahaha currently love this song.

TAKE IT EASY PEOPLE. dont drown.

it has been so long.

no one tags!

sigh.

nothing much to blog about either...

just that, life's so busy.

but i'm loving it.

not that bad la..

that's what make it interesting.

just that i miss the past.

i miss BMS.

i miss being in 4e3.

I MISS BAND.

omg.. that night went to watch sp concert band. really felt like shit. so wanna turn back and rewind everything. shouldnt have.

but anyway. whatever path i'm taking now.. i'm gonna smell the roses. and enjoy every scenery.

WHAT THE HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL JAY IS OUT!!!!! i dont want!!!!!! omg.. i'm so sad. sad sad sad sad for him. sigh. why?! those who watched just now, GROUP 1 WAS OBVIOUSLY THE WEAKER GROUP! ppl like hady and mathilda getting lower votes?!!!?!?!?!

aiya whatever la. haha.

anyway. so fun tomorrow got rapture. cool!! i hope it's gonna be fun. with mel and people. love them!

then sat must go school do banner shit and make up bio.

then sun going out with BMS!!!! hahahahaha yay!

anyway. i'm just damn sad that we're not close anymore.

my fault, i started the distan-ing.










all that hidden feelings.

anyway my cat gave birth to 3 lovely black kittens!! hahahaha. now staying my house outside. damn sweet. love cats. to the sky high.



home sucks.

never felt the joy of being at home.

where's my dad? where's my mum?

cant help but feel hatred.


















where, then?


















hahahahha. whatever la.


i just wanna find one night. one whole night. go out. to some nice place. somewhere high. where it's windy. with a nice view. and when you look up, there's the moon and the stars.

my jokes really....................................

so corny lol.

hahahhahaha. ya la just wanna hang out and relax with a bunch of good friends!

i wanna

SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!












it's all about perspective huh.

so hard to change the way you look at things.















aiya........................

omg. cant stand the way i typed.

ok! back to reality.

no FEAR!

just do it!

love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

hahahahah okay enough of all the sadness!

i'm soooo happy!

hahahah.

anyway. wanna talk about yesterday.

finally met up with sean, melvin and jia xin! BMS! i'm so so so so happy really happy to see you all again!!!! we had a great time. crapping all over again. melvin you're still as funny as ever!!! love you la! and then.. we met in PS. then ate.. and went to that church thing. haha. was nice.. like some concert and then in the end asking you to accept God into your life. yeah.. saw joanne too. haha. and this guy, "orange shirt" haha. said he saw me in sa before.. so we chatted for a bit. haha. after that went to eat in lao pat sat. is that how you spell it. haha. great food! then went to meet sean's friend.

haha. really enjoy being with you guys a lot.

and also wanna say SORRY if i've done anything wrong last time.

and glad that we're back again.


hahaha. then today... went out again. to yumin's house. yumin................ haha. val yumin and i.. met to do proposal. was quite sianZ doing it. haha. for the whole afternoon. hope this time it will work. after that went to have dinner with her family. such a cute family! can just crap. funny la. haha.

went to fetch my sis. sianZ again. met mummy. watch my sis have dinner. then took bus home. sianZ.

totally sianZified. haha.

another new week. got chi listening. odac.. actually quite free la. haha. yay. then meeting BMS on tues. hhahahha looking forward to it.

then on fri!!!!!!! woo hoo! pri sch outing! going to alan's house to sleep over. also celebrate mingjie's and jocelyn's birthdays. hahahahah. so fun. love love love.

3 hearts that God hates: the haughty heart, the hindered heart and the hardened heart.

3 hearts that God loves: the humble heart, the hungry heart and the honest heart.

hahaha.

life's just the way you look at it.

YES.

sings-i dont wanna fall to pieces, i just wanna sit and stare at you.

hahahahahah.

what's wrong with me?!?

haha.

urgh.

and i just hate people who gets insensitive all the fking time. and especially your close friends. and they do things that are not friends enough. you know, BU GOU PENG YOU. that sucks. really sucks. i mean, come on.

or maybe yes, i'm just not important enough to you.

what's this. friendship.

heartbreakening piece of fuck.

SHIT!

where is the love?

haha.






odac odac odac odac odac..

hai hai hai hai hai..

i dont why.. really dont know why.. why the problem still hangs around. why do i still feel that way..

but of course. i love the people in there. really.

something is so wrong with me.

i gotta get over it.

real soon.

before i break.









maybe i know why... i was once a big fish in a small tank. now, an ikan bilis in an ocean.

yes.

this change.

is damn sad.

struggling.


















hahahahha forget about that. emo entry.

always look on the bright side of life.

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.

i am sooo good.

one great chance.

like that.

just let it slip all away.

great.

great.

great.






you you you you you you yes you.

i shall never forget.

so wanna talk to you.

so wanna let you know.









okay never mind.. hahahah. sings- i dont give a damn i dont give a damn i dont give a damn.





ahhhh bio!! forget it la.. wasnt really good anyway. sigh sigh sigh sigh.

ahh.

JAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD. i love him!!!!!! screams!

as in singapore idol.

yesterday i went to jurong point to see the 12 contestants. hahahahhaa. and my favourite!!!! they were standing in 1 row and jay was at one end!! so i went to that end of the stage to see him like only 1mm away!!! ahahha.

yeah then they had their autograph session.. and my mum came.. so... we walked back to the place one round, and walked pass JAY! and my mum went "HI JAY!!!!" really. and she waved to him.

and
he
freaking
turned
and
waved
back
and smiled.

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it was this close!!!!

yeah then my mum shouted some shit again. like "you are so handsome."

hahahah. he turned and waved and smiled and nodded and mouthed something. i forgot!

i'm not cheating myself okay.... it really happened. haha.

oh my god............................ i so think he's GREAT. he can sing. and he's freaking emotional! hahahahahhaha.

ahhahah.

off to lunch.

and some serious studying.