HELLLOOOOO BLOG.

oh god i've been so absorbed by games and comics and books and... you can say. all the boring stuffs. but cant help it la, so long never touch all those already. perhaps this is the last chance. and i've got no money. all spent on prom items and driving lessons. haha. i'm learning driving! woo hoo. probably take a year or so to get a license. how exciting is that! renovation going on in my house, it'll be just right to stay home and help my dad out in cleaning and whatever. anyway, must really thank the renovators people.

this sunday going batam! first time. and then the chalet, malaysia, christmas.

december is gonna end so soon. sigh gotta work right after christmas.

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A's ended only 3 days ago, and it feels like months ago already. ahaha. well last night i was reminding that A freaking levels is over and that i should be REJOICING!!! and now i just feel like staying home all day and read books, play game whatever. of course i do wanna meet up with friends and all. but theres this weird feeling. anyway i have to try my best to stay home and help my dad out in cleaning up and getting things right. renovation is going on in my house. i cant wait for a brand new house!!! haha. but it is going on so inefficiently. today is a work day hellloooo where are the guys. haha. no la.. i guess there are understandable reasons.

i dont care la not gonna plan anything. and just live as it comes.

but still must make the best out of this holidays.

reading books is okay.
take good care of my pets.
practise hard for piano.
help my dad.
visit mum and charlynn.

thers a lot of things i wanna do!! but i guess i'll wait until after prom. which i dont really feel like going! sigh.

HAPPY HOILDAYS EVERYONE.
celebrate every day.

my online life is dead. haha. i'm now more interested in things like, reading. and its almost over!!! omg. that was really fast. just last week, i was complaining, fretting, so scared of monday and tuesday, thinking that it would be the longest 2 days of my life, cos of chem and geog, then bio and maths. and when it was over, i thought, that's it? all my worrying and anxiousness, waste of my soul's energy. haha. left bio and chem papers.

sigh. i think i really screwed gp paper 2, maths paper 1, and bio paper 2.

GP feels like a D or E.
Maths feels like a C.
Geog hopefully a B.

and i can get A for chem if i stop being complacent now!!

argh.

bio.....

didnt study today! oh god. i think i need sch badly.

farewell assembly was really nice! i should just slap myself for having such negative thoughts the day before. =(

the speeches really touched me. and the college hymn. and the performance by mr casey leong, mr leong, mr chan and miss lee, was a blast! really cracked the whole cc up. also the farewell thingy we prepared for mrs lim. all in all everything was just nice and sweet. i felt really thankful.

after that was civics. last civics ever. we had it in the kitchen. ahah. miss ye was ultra nice to have treated us pizza, cheesecake, snacks, and the little cute toy. i got a dragonfly. haha. our class until the end still very separated. but it was okay i guess. we're all used to it. took some photos. had a little celebration for jingyu too!

the day ended good. with little gift from miss lee.

it was a good closure.

sigh.

the end.

brings regret, and feelings of "should have".
and also, new resolutions.

thank you sa for all the moments and experiences, some of which i may never experience again.

last day of sch tomorrow!! officially. oh my god. but anyway i dont bloody feel anything. more like YES FINALLY OUT OF HERE! hai. thats quite sad because i've spent 2 years in this sch, and i should be missing all of it! i've gotta admit.. jc life is like... not good... compared to sec sch.. or pri sch.. hahaha. sigh, probably blame it on myself, for not being the most pro-active and fun-loving person around. or maybe blame it on fate.

actually well, cant be that bad! there are so many worth remembering. orientation, first 3 months, ODAC, some teachers... my class... despite not being bonded at all. also dunno why... sigh.

i just hope, tomorrow everyone will be warmer.

i really treasure all the friends i've made in sajc.

taking a break. its so scary. god damn it. 3 weeks left. aiming to get complex numbers, vectors, ionic eqm right by this week. and then start doing papers.. revising bio.. and geog. 3 WEEKS! cant imagine whats it like when gp paper is tomorrow! cant sleep, trying your best to stay calm. but i guess the best is still, study hard, study to the best, go into the exam hall with a just-whack attitude, pray, have common sense, and yeah. just do it. haha.

i love catsinecradle! i love jeff! i think he's damn sexy. i hope they win.

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. felt so motivated to study after getting back shitty bio paper on friday. reached home early and tried doing chem. but bloody ionic chem is such a piss off. shit! and i slept away the whole afternoon. and tv-ed the whole night.

and today was great! christine's and samuel's wedding. feel really happy for them. i went to uncle jason's house in the morning. reached there late! sigh so mei qi and i couldnt join in with the other bridesmaids. felt so bad like couldnt do anything to help. but anyway, most of the time just standing around, or taking pictures, and just enjoying and observing everything. at night was the wedding dinner. sweetness, and my whole family was there. even chinese new year also dont have such full reunion. was nice seeing everyone again... especially meiqi. and everyone just looks so damn good. half the time i was thinking how i want my wedding to be like next time. hahaha.

thursday was really fun too! melvin's birthday celebration. i miss BMS so much.

sigh 4 weeks left. OMG!

5 more weeks! sigh. started studying already. everyday doing maths and another subject. have plans.. but this stupid fear. what if this doesnt work. maybe this is not the most productive way. oh come on! 12 years of studying please tell me i know my studying style and whats best for me! argh. anyway. got back some papers already. passed maths. E. on the freaking dot. SIGH. i could have done much better i know it. and then bloody bio paper 3. so not what i expected. terrible... anyway at least i improved generally i think. which is a good thing. which means i still have a little hope. which means i should aim higher. the highest. all As. i know i'm not dumb. hahaha. and the 5 weeks is enough to consolidate everything.

just aiya whatever.

do your best.

nothings beats that.

i now pronounce you chuck and larry is a much watch!!! its damn funny. and really a good de-stress movie. adam sandler always promises good jokes and laughter.

vietnam trip at the end of the year! with odac. i wanna go!!! must go. shit, gonna spend so much money after A's if i'm gonna do everything i'm planning to do. so, start saving. minimal spending this 5 weeks.

and bridesmaid-ing for cousin this sat. chi kind one.. so have to stop the groom from entering the house and all the chi drama thing. haha. cute.

hang in there everyone. almost there.

i just wish you could appear right now, and take me back to where you came from.

i think i should really just get over it. sigh. i miss him so much!

and i felt very affected and ARGHHHHH, when i saw on tv, the tigers of india are gonna be wiped out. those fucking poachers are killing them for their fur, selling their fur to tibetians or whatever. this senseless illegal trade among developing countries and ignorant political leaders who are denying the fact that their tigers are gonna be extinct. and those poachers just set traps in these suppose to be protected areas and shoot trapped tigers right in the brain. poach la but dont freaking kill all.................................... ALL the tigers. bloody idiots should be skinned alive.

SIGH. and how many other animals are facing extinction in the world. oceans are gonna be emptied, and byebye polar bear.

there are just too much human beings on this little earth.