they're all younger, richalynn.

starting to feel the pressures from my job. mainly the judgments and prejudices from people. i've been quite careless. making all the silly mistakes. probably put myself into the black books of some teachers. but i'll learn from my mistakes la. and try harder. i just have to settle down and get into it and get used to it. sigh. probably this job will harden me. hearing all the silly comments, sometimes insulting, from some students. it gets to me. but i shall be strong and courageous lol. i've got lots lots lots lots to learn. especially when facing a class of students. HOW is the biggest problem right now. how to handle difficult people. how to present myself properly. how to make sure i dont get affected when i am not liked. i do realise i cant be likable to every single one. "be myself" says richalynn. haha. but then again i cant totally be myself. have to act like a teacher. argh i'm just confusing myself right now.

maybe i should just conclude that, i am not cut out to be a teacher.

haha.

i guess.. i'll slowly learn and pick things up. if i could just believe in myself more. and i'm really thankful to have shida as my work mate.

one of the 8 habits of mind: finding humor in everything.

anyway.. it has been a good week. going for band after school. i'm still as enthusiastic as ever. haha. then jogging with ttb, melvin. have been trying my best to come home early everyday. at least i show that i care. putting in more effort into this house and family. sigh. why does it have to come this way...

right now i'm just gonna do whatever that is right.

it couldnt have gotten any sexier.

OH MY GOD.

i just look forward to seeing some people everyday.

they make the day count.

i really wanna blog, but nothing seems to be coming out.

it feels like i'm just floating through life right now.

waiting for things to happen.

i should just lay my two feet on the ground and do something.

but whats there to do!

theres a lot.

but the word

laziness

is taking over my life.

it has always been.















sigh.

i really want the band to prosper again.








emptiness.

yes.

thats probably the most accurate word to describe how i feel right now.

2008!

and just now we were talking about how the world will kind of end in 2012. type 2012 in yahoo and go find out! 4 more years?

okay better not.

i had the most fun last days of 2007. ttb and weixing staying over at my house. doing jigsaw puzzle. sean, matt and ben coming over. and new years with mathan, ttb, sean, jx and melvin, and my sis and dad! it couldnt have gotten any better.

thank you for the memories.

gonna say goodbye to 2007 soon!

phew.

heck of a year.

but first, the holidays were really great. with malaysia trip with odacers being the most memorable. i really really really enjoyed being with them, plus away from singapore, and doing the fun stuffs. i'll really miss this trip alot. and hope there is more to come. but the most sad thing is we didnt get to sit in the spaceshot. i really looked forward to that. oh well. there's always next time. but the feelings and joy we had there, only once. that's why its so special. and i had one of the best nights in the KL hotel room. just the few of us, playing crap card games and just laughing and laughing and laughing. i never had such a good laugh in a long time. haha. i love you all!

and then.. it was the one day trip to batam. with sean, richavel, cousin and friends. water skiing! it was really fun too. first time for me. and i only manage to do the knee one. and the real wakeboarding was a total failure. haha. try again next time. anyway the company and just one day of relaxation in the sun. NICE. plus cute dogs, very shuang boat ride, new friends, pro people doing wakeboarding. ahhh. i wanna go back!

christmas was pretty unforgettable too. first time getting really drunk. near 10 tequila shots. is that bad?? hahaha. anyway i totally embarrassed myself in front of my younger sis. i swear i'm never get that drunk again! it was once again spent in my mum's place. lots of her friends, karaoke, alcohol, fun people laughing and dancing. hahah. merry christmas everybody!!

bbss band juniors chalet! i always still forever miss bbss band. and also the trom outing. which only 5 ppl turned up? simin, lynn, aloy, bryant and i. hahah. pizza hut, walking, and then going all the way to ps to see deyong. haha. it was alright. at least we met up. trom section rocks forever!! i'll miss lynn too. wonder how is she doing over in australia? lynn!! if you read this, happy new year! hahah. the chalet was really fun!! haha. okay la. actually it was nice catching up with them. simin, kailing, and the juniors. talking about past band times and other stuffs. i love this kind of moments la.. sigh. however busy we get, i'll always think of them.

what else.. prom. which was alright only.. photos. and then pub with raine, kelvin, mei fung, jihyun. and movie with raine after that. miss them.

i dont seem to accomplish what i planned to do before the hols. like reading a lot of books, bla bla. and i still haven finished tales of symphonia. and piano lessons keep getting postponed. and a little strain in the relationship with my dad. house renovation nearly done. come visit my house people!

and i'm so happy i got a job as a teacher assistant in bbss! the best sch of my life. and i'm going back again. i'm really looking forward to it. feel so lucky!

new year resolution: take initiative at home and everywhere, and always be ready to catch the ball.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

i'm missing out quite a lot!

and i miss a lot of ppl.

and theres one thousand and one things i wanna do.

but i have no money.

and i wanna work.

but i can only start after christmas.

i cant wait for batam this sun with sis, sean, cousin and friends.

and also genting trip with odacers i bet its gonna be a blast!!

and christmas.

i miss

HELLLOOOOO BLOG.

oh god i've been so absorbed by games and comics and books and... you can say. all the boring stuffs. but cant help it la, so long never touch all those already. perhaps this is the last chance. and i've got no money. all spent on prom items and driving lessons. haha. i'm learning driving! woo hoo. probably take a year or so to get a license. how exciting is that! renovation going on in my house, it'll be just right to stay home and help my dad out in cleaning and whatever. anyway, must really thank the renovators people.

this sunday going batam! first time. and then the chalet, malaysia, christmas.

december is gonna end so soon. sigh gotta work right after christmas.

...

A's ended only 3 days ago, and it feels like months ago already. ahaha. well last night i was reminding that A freaking levels is over and that i should be REJOICING!!! and now i just feel like staying home all day and read books, play game whatever. of course i do wanna meet up with friends and all. but theres this weird feeling. anyway i have to try my best to stay home and help my dad out in cleaning up and getting things right. renovation is going on in my house. i cant wait for a brand new house!!! haha. but it is going on so inefficiently. today is a work day hellloooo where are the guys. haha. no la.. i guess there are understandable reasons.

i dont care la not gonna plan anything. and just live as it comes.

but still must make the best out of this holidays.

reading books is okay.
take good care of my pets.
practise hard for piano.
help my dad.
visit mum and charlynn.

thers a lot of things i wanna do!! but i guess i'll wait until after prom. which i dont really feel like going! sigh.

HAPPY HOILDAYS EVERYONE.
celebrate every day.

my online life is dead. haha. i'm now more interested in things like, reading. and its almost over!!! omg. that was really fast. just last week, i was complaining, fretting, so scared of monday and tuesday, thinking that it would be the longest 2 days of my life, cos of chem and geog, then bio and maths. and when it was over, i thought, that's it? all my worrying and anxiousness, waste of my soul's energy. haha. left bio and chem papers.

sigh. i think i really screwed gp paper 2, maths paper 1, and bio paper 2.

GP feels like a D or E.
Maths feels like a C.
Geog hopefully a B.

and i can get A for chem if i stop being complacent now!!

argh.

bio.....