Normal day, let be aware of the treasure you are.

hello. haha. start of a new month February... let me see... Valentine's Day. Cheryl's birthday. Shijie's birthday.

"this girl ah, is pure lazy"

"do not put your potential to waste"

mrs lim's words of encouragement... haha.. awwww...

so i'm kinda motivated earlier in the morning... promised myself not to have dinner outside after band and not use the computer when i get home.. until i finish all my work.

and?

now i'm here... breaking my own promise...

argh.

sigh..... luckily there's not much homework today........................

off.

good night.

my trombone just rocks! hahahhahahahhaha.... i really love band.

dont try to fix me.

haha.. hello hello. hello....... feel so restless now.. gonna go bathe later.. then do homework. sigh....

so matthew got a new girlfriend. haha.

and i'm okay with melvin now...

so C O R N Y.

haha..

later.

hello.

Playground schoolbell rings, again
Rainclouds come to play, again
Has no one told you she's not breathing ?
Hello, I'm your mind, giving you someone to talk to...Hello...
If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me
I'm not broken
Hello, I'm the lie living for you so you can hide...
Don't cry...
Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello, I'm still here, all that's left
Of yesterday...

new skin.

hello.. think only sean and nadia knows that my blog address changed?

sigh.. it's already 2 in the morning.. tomorrow's saturday.. nothing much.. just wanna stay home do my work. like i will! sigh.................... i must!! i must!!! so lazy!! was doing locus just now... just cant get it.. argh.

i'm kinda upset. dont feel good yeah... but it's nothing. it's always like this. always.

can i just get those unhappy thoughts the hell out of my mind. forget it! fuck! argh!!!!!!!!! fuck fuck fuck! damn this shit!

sarcasm. vulgarities. rudeness. selfishness. apathy. quietness.

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whatever!

i try okay. i try.

is it just me? what about you?

sigh...... i miss you. what a corny thing to say.

Bittersweet

If I tell you
Will you listen?
Will you stay?
Will you be here forever?
Never go away?

Never thought things will change
Hold me tight
Please don't say again
That you have to go

A bitter thought
I had it all
But I just let it go
Hold your silence
It's so violent
Since your gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
Until the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you

If I had told you
You would have listened?
You had stayed?
You would be here forever?
Never went away?

It would never have been the same
All our time
Would have been in vain
Cause you had to go

The sweetest thought
I had it all
Cause I did let you go
All our moments
Keep me warm
When you're gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
Until the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you

love this song!!! haha... but it's for no one. no one yet...

yep the only thing i should do now.. maybe a few things.. STUDY. read. run. practice.

off.

good night!

Life's a bitch.

sigh.. stupid title.. anyway deleted some of the previous entries.. was reading my past ones.. so childish!! and evil at times... sigh.. richalynn richalynn...

but it's okay now. better stop thinking of useless stuffs and move on. few things that happened. fell out with melvin, without knowing the true reason. and friendships.. childish... friendship problems are always childish. try looking back at the past.. and see how stupid you were... haha... and band SYF! haha... work hard for it! improve! and sports meet 2005. wish me luck. haha. studies... push!!! force!!! i must do it!!! i must get into a JC!!! 10 points!!! haha... what else... matthew... argh... forget it... please people, dont jump to conclusions.

slacking now... as i always say, have to buck up.

i'm apathetic. really? is that what you think? i dont give a damn about anything except myself?

sigh.....

look on the bright side of life. enjoy it!! enjoy studying!! be proud that i am what i am!!!!

oh man.... my bill... 100 over bucks. thanks. but i'm sure this time, it will not be.

haha.. off to jog!

good night!

i'm not that lost anymore.

hey hey harlow... high time to change my blog skin yeah... have to find time.. this weekend was wasted. argh.... didnt study.. and i have not finish my homework. sigh... what a life... at least i finished a storybook.. hmmm nice eh... the 5 people you meet in heaven. after you die you will know why the things have happened and stuff..

at church.. i solved my problem.. finally. i'm not gonna get confirmed this year! haha.. need to go through the basics yeah.. since i'm thrown into the position of not knowing anything about catholicism.. i'm honest. haha. will be confirmed maybe in 2007. same as matthew? haha.. i'll still join the youth group.. i hope! another problem is not having any friends in church. sigh...

i'm such a failure. i am such a failure.

good night. off to eat.

i miss you guys.

god bless.

study hard!!!!!

always losing.

hello! in sean's house now.. haha.. ha had his farewell party. it was fine.. ate a bit.. talked to some people.. and played badminton. there are so many nice people around! haha...

sigh.... weird.............................................................. argh.

anyway. got to go.. wanna watch movie. but couldnt...

good night.

fun life!

hello.. haha.. havent been blogging.. waste of time yeah... these few days have been a routine.. aiya.. my whole life has been a routine. maybe not... whatever.

study. band. study. band. eat. sleep. sms. waste time. hang out. dream. online.

haha...

shall cut vulgarities off my life. MUST.

and sarcasm too.

God bless.

i love you!

1 week down.

harlow! didnt blog for a couple of days.. was blogging yesterday.. but the computer hung again. so... wednesday? had lessons. had band. then went out with the wee gang to have dinner. yesterday.. after class went to sean's house to practice piano.. with jia xin and melvin. was okay... my mum's back! in my house.. hope i can still concentrate on my studies. then today had some commotion in band.. we were supposedly downed for nothing. it was like 50.. and the guys more. but i have no comments.. this is just how things must work sometimes.. as a group..

argh whatever.

so fast one week is over. we have like 19 weeks left to mother tongue o'levels? and 39 weeks to the real war... it's like so little.

i'll just have to focus. all the crap and bullshit. say also never do. argh.

good night!

my bag's shit heavy...

haha.. i'm using what melvin and me "invented". adding the word shit in front of the adjectives. but used only when saying something negative.. haha..

recalling what the girl said, on new year's early morning. "we were at the party, and it was like shit boring!!" haha.. i was like wow, so hot. hahaha... whatever.

anyway hello! happy birthday gladys!!

today back to normal lessons for me. i'm still fine. lots of stuff left undone. today had band too. oh man i LOVE band!!! haha... then nothing much already. still havent gotten my timetable! argh. then... HE is soooooooooo handsome. haha.

can i just let my heart run wild?? sigh. liking every guy that comes along.. what a flirt and bitch right. oh my god.... i have o 'levels this year, so can i please concentrate on the right stuffs. haha.. who cares anyway. just let it be!

i'm alright with life right now. although there's lots of homework. but it's good. i'm prepared for heavy work. but i'm just afraid of falling asleep in class all the time. and i must read the newspapers!!! if not i'll just be an ignorant shit...

haha.. i'm off. bathe. and study!! and reading time.

this is life for now.

good night.

God bless everyone.