the island.

this movie was really good. haha.

friday.. as usual.. relaxing. no work done. after school went out with melvin, laa and jia xin.. west mall.. lunch.. movie. did a bit of homework.. then home... was fun. but some things are wrong. haha. oh well.

sigh.

clown.

heyaaaaaa.... hahaha.. it's 11pm now.. done my work! but of course didnt study.. sigh.. a maths last week was a failure. i'll do my best i promise!!!! sigh.. anyway. today was good. hahaha.. after school.. in mcdonalds near our school there.. some freaking woman made a big fuss and scene. i dont know what exactly happened.. but she just suddenly.. was scolding the manager at the order food there.. ahahhaha counter? saying all kind of crap.. "you're a clown. clown. clown. are you a clown? you're a manager and you cant do anything to solve this problem, so you're a clown. a clown." wah... then pointing and making that rude hand gesture.. then the manager gave her a receipt.. and she saw his hands shivering.. and said out loud.." why are your hands shivering? cause you're a clown right? clown. clown. clown." and laughed crazily... screw loose man....

fuck off lah bitch. really irritating and ugly. poor manager cant do anything. customers are always right right? mathangi, hwee ting hui li and me all cant stand it.. kinda funny also the scene... hahaha.. a lot of bbss students there.. then she not enough called the police too. oh my god. but obviously she was making trouble. so she's wrong. some talking and counselling. and she finally left. wah...... really felt like slapping her and ask her to look into a mirror. sigh.

anyway. yeahh... so we were laughing over it after that.

and..... yesterday! hahaha.. went out with melvin and joseph to jurong point. watched movie. red candy.. stupid show.. so confusing and not that scary also.. and the outing was okay.... quiet moments everytime. sigh..... then later in the night then got abit better. met my mum and sister.. had to go back home and take the money for her.. then came back to west mall.. met joseph and melvin again. dinner. haha.

was good of course!

i'm lovin' you! hahahahaha.

really really pray hope wish.

but i guess it's best not to take things too seriously.

and...... it's the 4th week already. monday is over. so fast. tomorrow got piano lessons. shit i didnt practice that song!! but i guess it's natural to dont want to practice a song that you dont like right. no wrong. sigh.. sean was telling me about having the passion for it.. hahahah.. making me worry..

aiya.. believe in myself! it's what i want!

cool, rainy day...

why the hell must the ban homosexual comics? hahaha.. lately i've been reading them... my sis introduced.. kinda nice.. haha.. nothing also.. just the guy like guy. and interesting story... sigh. then now cant finish the whole series.

anyway today's jocelyn's, kai li's and jia jun's birthday.. happy birthday to them all..

and.... hahaha.. nothing much also.. same shit.. havent finish homework.. still got a maths to revise.. physics to study.. chemistry to worry.. sigh.

hate it man.. better not hope too much.. let it be nice as it is now.

give me a sign.

hello.... just came back from piano lessons not long ago.. haha. was good. i got the grade 2 exam pieces and sightreading and stuff.. i'm gonna take the exam next year! whew. okay i know grade 2 is like what the hell grade 2 only?? haha.. but well.. i started late... i always start things late.. one is this. the other is being a catholic, joining the church. another.... realising that there is not much time left.. another... that there is nothing to fear! haha.. i'm really really pathetic. yeah but it's me. my life. oh yeah... then grade 5 theory exam this november. hahaha. mooooost probably wont clash with any o level examinations...

today..... was good. relaxing in class.. but what the hell, a maths test got 10/30.. lowest in class i think? sigh......... i forgot i'm really weak in a maths.. haha.. everyone else is sprinting towards the finishing line already.. i'm still.... erm..... jogging. sigh. but i started revision already.. last night. so better be good. a maths this week. i know it's kinda wasting time here.. sigh.

argh!!! so i made some stupid mistake. he got me wrong. cant take it back though... sad shit. really, this kinda things shouldnt be affecting me now. so hard to forget it.

want.. but dont want.

crap!

hello!

haha. now here's the same old shit. 2nd week gone. homework left quite a few.. havent study.. 8 more weeks to prelims. bla bla bla... sigh. shit!!!!!!! and today i watched fantastic 4 with fadly, jerrold, jia wei and bing shu. was good. chris evans was cute and funny and a naughty boy.. and love that stretchable guy. haha. the story... was alright.. happy ending. part 2???

and yesterday we went to science centre for some microbes stuff. and we walked around the whole science centre.. mathangi and me.. with hweeting and gang. was fun. interesting. i wonder how many people actually stop to read those.... erm.. descriptions... some people go "what is this what is this????" "how to play how to play???" "tsk, boring". please.

haha. anyway. some stupid stuff going on. bmss is breaking up?? sigh. dont know why... pissed off with each other.. apathetic. hah. who's the one now. hahaha. hai.... oh well.. what to do. got better stuff to do right. better things to care.

and.................. i better just let it go. it's always so unclear. so fake. so difficult.

hmmmmm everything's fine. just fine.

i cut my hair again. hahahah. everyone says rebond.

my sister said,"do i look like every other girl. like all the cut-and-paste." haha. so funny.

so i had my freaking oral today. it was alright i guess... not that good... partly because the teacher... aiyo... also talk and keep on asking questions. i havent even finish my paragraph, she just came in and mess my thoughts up.

okay i know i shouldnt be blaming others. i suck, and that's it.

hahaha.. anyway..... 2nd week.. so many homework.. so many tests.. mdm yaw giving up on us.. distractions.

just let it go man.

concentrate on the right things!! and dont think too much. and be a better person.

what the fuck????

haha.

worry is a sin.

last night was great! haha. POP 2005. farewell for the seniors. us.

we arrived at the library at 4 50.. girls wore black, guys white. then we prepared ourselves.. walked down to the lecture room and sat down. listened to our very own band, our juniors play. they sounded good. so proud and touched. hymn for a child, our first song in the main band. then we turned around to watch the video.. syf rehearsal.. haha.. next was giving out of certificates of appreciation. miss ngiam gave out the certificates and talked a little about everyone of us. haha. so touching.. jerrold sang for us. envy him.. haha.. then we looked at the photos. memories. then passing down of posts. deyong is the pp now.. very proud and happy for him. haha. and the 4 leaders. charleston, barry, jasmine and yibiao. congratulations and wish them the very very best. after that was eating and taking pictures and giving presents.. thanks a lot a lot for those who gave me something.. even a simple card was great. feel so bad i didnt get them anything. just bought for my juniors. sigh. but it was really heartwarming.

after the thing ended, met sean at west mall.. the four of us. plus him. went to foodcourt.. then arcade.. then movie at lot 1 with laa and sean. haha. war of the worlds. was good. exciting and kinda scary at some parts.. haha. so reached home at 2 plus. whew.

anyway tuesday's oral... shit.

i'm not gonna die. i can do it. i'll talk and talk and talk. sense. be brave!!!!!

haha.. i'm being a shit.

one week gone. 9 more weeks to prelims.. so fast. and this week was...... fine.. did homework. listened in class. but never really study... i thought one week one subject?? sigh what for plan in the first place.. keep on failing myself. this week should be chemistry. argh.

someone. hahahahhahahhahahaha. things will be well right? not like before. never.

=)

laa can sing very well!

haha.. yesterday.. sean came back.. we fetched him.. and went out and had some fun staying over at laa's house. okay firstly.. i met up with jia xin and jurong.. then matthew at some place in the middle. then.. arrived at the airport. waited anxiously for someone's plane to land. haha.. came out from the toilet.. looked at the tv screen.. sq 238 arrived! haha.. then 3 of us crazily hid behind some stupid wall.. and waited for sean to come out. aiya.. then he finally came out. but our hiding was crap.. he just walked away.. and the insects walked past him without knowing.. haha. so we met.. hi and all that. ate at burger king. then made our way back to bukit batok. matthew, jx and mathangi left us. so melvin laa and me went to sean's house. used him computer.. deciding where to go..

we went to orchard.. wanted to catch a movie.. but laaa couldnt. so sad. then we walked around.. had dinner in some italian restaurant. was good. after that, wanted to buy some vodka but....... sigh. went to laa's house. haha. her house very nice. used her computer.. we talked and all that.. hear her sing.. then went down to watch movies. the indian show, some ghost show.. sigh forgot the title. then troy. but nobody's interested. also told stories about ghosts and stuff. lucky me have never seen anything or felt real real wrong and scared about stuff..

so the whole day didnt sleep. we went off at 7 plus.. went home. i bathed slept. and slept the whole day. my dad came back too... seem so weird.. we didnt talk at all about china.. or anything. sigh. really what the hell.. and my sister said he was sick of him. haha okay. that's bad.

sigh.. still have not finished my homework. shit shit shit shit shit. argh.

so sad.

something's missing.

something's gone.

you gave me peace in a lifetime of war.

was at my mom's yesterday and today.. i did a little of work.. watched some shows.. she has loads of vcds and dvds.. i can just enjoy watching... i watched troy.. hahaha.. brad pitt. brad pitt. archilles. breseis. and some cartoons. not childish okay. haha. those movie kinds.. pocahontas. nice to enjoy past movies..

anyway. homework left. social studies. physics. and a maths. 3 days left. i'll try my best. i'll do tonight. i dont care. not gonna sleep.

tomorrow sean's coming back. i hope it'll be good. fun.

was just wondering... aiya.. close friends but we didnt meet at all during the holidays. and tomorrow. sigh. just put everything aside and enjoy myself.

this world is so full of pretend.

friendship. hmm.

brad pitt,"what did you think when we first met?"

angelina jolie,"what did you think?"

brad pitt,"i thought... you felt like christmas morning.."

so touching when he said it!!! hahaha.. watched mr and mrs smith last night.. corny show.. haha.. but quite alright.. funny.. handsome man and beautiful lady.. brad pitt!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah i know.. typical of me to scream over good looking people. whatever...... and i watched batman that day also... another great movie. haha.. starting already can cry... anyway movies coming up... war of the worlds!!!! not because of tom cruise please. fantastic four.. that island show.. a lot a lot.. hahahah.. movies rock!

anyway it's wednesday! haha. school's gonna reopen! hallelujah! spelt correctly? haha. and dear sean's coming back after tomorrow. and homework not yet finish...... argh........ and... number 1 thing to fear. olevel oral!!! oh man....