love actually. is. all around.

hahahahha. oh no love actually started already.

okay wait.

anyway i had a good week. i guess.

dont really remember anything.

but. yesterday i skipped touch rugby. hahaha. and then mel, xue fen, darren and i went to visit linus. and we did the.. actually nothing. played cards.. jenga.. talk. play piano. watch tv. hahaha. hope he gets well soon.

anyway.... one more week! and then O2. march holidays.

i've been hardworking this weekend! first time in year 2006!

i finished some stuffs already. and later i'll continue. i hope.

plus music theory exam coming up.

life is full of excitement.

and british movies rock.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. so cute! love actually.

hmmmm... just enjoy!

aint that bad.

love!!! love!!! love!!!

just wanna let all my friends know. and ALL i mean. that i truly treasure you all. never wanna lose nobody.

haha!

i murdered my fish

hello!

yesterday and today was great.

but sigh i'm so so so so stupid. killed my poor goldfish. i tried to help it survive but then...... died the next morning. anyway from 20 fishes down to 1. all died due to water poisoning. then i placed the survivor in a little glass container, filled it to near the brim. and then thinking that the fish will try to jump out of the water, i placed a piece of cloth over it.

OH MY GOD how stupid can that get. placing a CLOTH over the container filled with water.

yeah so somehow the cloth got into contact with the water. and you know what happens next.

SIGH....................................................... what the helllllllllllll. you know that kind of feeling, when you try to save something yet you made it worse. oh my. i'm sorry fishy.

thursday! okay i tripped mel. during basketball. she fell and sprained her ankle. it was quite bad and now she's on crutches and her dance exam is coming next month.

why am i making so many mistakes nowadays??

anyway. bunch of us went to the hospital to visit her.

then today. it was quite enjoyable. finally saw qiling. and then had chapel. civics. PE. and the two tutorials. i simply love PE. haha.

and then after school... touch rugby cancelled. waited with yinxi.. for her friend.. we chatted.. did work.. and then yinxi, ni zhen, tracy, the 3 guys went for dinner together and then to mel's house. haha. i tried to play the piano. talked and played games. yeah had a nice time.

anyway it's really a damn small world! yinxi's good friend is my good friend's good friend. haha! joanne. plus their bination clique. so cool!

and then.... i should really start a repertoire of my own. hahahahaha. it's really loser-ish to sit at the piano and say "i dont know how to play anything". oh my god! haha. but that's gonna take like 5 years. sigh.

tomorrow is gonna be a busy day! alumni band in the morning. acjc thing in the afternoon. og gathering at night. hahahaha. fun-ness!

and perhaps i'm gonna quit catechism class. sinner me. but i really dont know.. i just think it's not useful.. and i'm not gonna be in it just because of confirmation. sigh.

and oh holy holy holy! work is getting tough! haha.

bio-need to read through every notes and understand everything. do tutorial.

chem-"""""""""."".

maths-do homework. read through partial fractions.

geog-read sec4 textbook. do homework.

actually the problem is, no revision done. so yeah. by 2nd intake, i must get those done...

sigh.

sian.

love S16.
love OG14.
love jiaxin.
love.... yeah those that i love.
love cats!

feel the love

i love josh hartnett.

i love johnny depp.

i love cillian murphy.

i love brad pitt.

i love huang tian cai.

i love jim carrey.

i love jude law.

i love ralph fiennes.

i love british guys.

i love nice people.




okay.

valentine's... well well well.

today was okay.. stayed home in the afternoon.. watched tv.. packed my room and stuff. and then met jia xin at night. along with her bunch of bisexual friends. super nice people! and some of them are cute. hahahahha. and then we had dinner together. with a big group of i dont know who people. talked and stuff.. i was quite out anyway. didnt know no one.

yeah.. met sean too.. plus kevin clarice and some girl.

after that jia xin and i left them.. we went to play pool. was alright. love pool! pool is cool.

haha. then we went back home.

so conclusion.

okay day.

sigh.

yesterday had cg outing. hahaha. was nice! but too bad i joined them later. missed some fun. had piano exam in the morning. it was alright i guess..... not too bad.. scales one mistake. pieces a few mistakes. sight reading was perfect i hope. and then aural... last question i didnt answer well. should have said there was an accellerando, instead of "it got faster". hahaha.. so, pray for the best results!

then the outing. haha! someone and someone got something on between them. haha. i feel so naughty, wanting do stuffs.

anyway yeah we cycled and skated. and then. bowling. dinner. pool. went home with yin xi and ain. and waited for linus. and then four of us. took mrt together.

so...... last day tomorrow. gonna go kbox. and then maybe go back to bbss for band. at night piano lesson.

oh shit shit shit. havent done any work.

maybe i can do now??

as if i will.

sigh.

more breaks please.

the right thing to do.

heya!!!!!!!! hahaha i should really be over the moon now! i got freaking 9 points for o levels!!!

english chemistry biology, B3

physics, A2

both maths, combined humanities, chinese, A1

hahahahhaa. okay. but english is really... argh my dad too. "english B3?! lack of reading."

the only thought in my mind. "fuck off lah"

combined humanities and physics. lousiest subjects. yet. i got As...

and bio!!!! my favourite and concentrated so much on it subject. freaking B3.

sigh.. plus chem.. sorry mdm yaw cannot get an A for you.

miss dianah also said "aiya wasted"

so, the results dont really reflect anything.

anyway.... my dad really. argh! i cant stand him anymore. not a word of encouragement from him. nothing. i really wonder whats up in his head. excuse me!!!!!! i did well okay!!!! i'm the first in the whole leong family to get a single digit and go to a JC, as what you wanted!

really want to cry man. something joyful. and yet my family.... FAMILY. cares a whole lot shit.

this is not the first time.

really sucks. sucks.

what is there to be proud of after all?

one of the down moments in my life now.

ya i know... i should be real glad now.

SAJC!!!!!!!!!

haha.

today.. morning.. went for alumni band practice. had a nice time. trombone still plays a big part in my life.. hahahaha.. then after that went for lunch with jia xin and casper... then home. haha. later got studio practice.. tomorrow nothing on.. monday piano exam and CG outing. woo hoo! gonna be great. tues and wed. so free. gonan be a nerd. do work. haha.

no... i wanna go out! watch movie and stuff.

anyway yeah.. i should just forget it. and do the right things. like see not the flaws in others.

if you were to rate your confidence level from 1-5, 5 being the most confident.

sigh.

a new life begins tomorrow.

what the hell man.

okay never mind.

results tomorrow!!! people around me are all saying how scared they are. to get bad results. to jump off buildings.

sigh... i still do not feel anything.

maybe tomorrow when i enter bbss.

then the horror and terror comes.

oh my.

please please please.

i pray for what i deserve.

if i do well, stay in SAJC and yay that's great.

if not, well, i'll take things in my stride. CJC. JJC.

shall expect the worst.

oh my god, i'm scaring myself now... hahaha.

Oh Lord.

anyway today was gooooooood. had quite a long day. had GEOG!! haha. and then.. played basketball with them again. so nice! i hope to do that often.

oh my god. studies. i'm not concentrating... bio chem and geog all in a mess.

S16!

screams. first it's o's result. and then piano exam. posting result. theory exam. plus all other complications. haha.

exciting!!!!!!!!

hahhahahahhaha. plus. there's this guy.

haha. i dont even know him.

so please.

and then after tomorrow, 5 days break! yes! but a lot of stuffs to do.

first. piano exam on monday.. so i have 3 more days to practise. oh shit!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna be so nervous and soft. oh fuck.

and then.. i need to organise my work. so much to do and read and understand.

hahaha. Valentines day! as if i'm having any date. but then. tues and wed is the two totally free days. which i want to do nothing. but then got freaking work.

i'm sooo lazy.

i should make good use of my brain!!! if not next time will have lao ren chi dai zhen.

whatever.

tomorrow go school.. only got pe.. great! i just wanna play and play and play.

haha.

make a difference.

hahahahha. bloody hell that day blogged one long post and some connection problem and i lost it. sigh! you know, i poured out all my feelings in that one. but never mind. at least i typed.

what nonsense.

anyway. yeah. topic in cathechism class today. make a difference. everyone's unique. and make good use of it. be special. hahahahhaa.

and it was okay. made a few friends. my class oh my god got one super goodlooking guy. only saw him today. hahhahahaa.

o's result coming out next week! looking forward to it more than feeling nervous. not thinking that i'll do well, but... dunno.. just want it to happen soon. so i'm certain.

and then.... guess things are all going fine..

okay family.
okay friends.
not okay studies.
okay piano.
not okay being a good catholic.
no love.
not okay keeping in touch with things that i love.

hahahha.

good!

spring time

hahahhahaha heya. chinese new year break now. having quite relaxing time. just visited 3 houses today. yeah aunt and uncles. met marinne, meiqi.. my favourite cousins. but then. we only meet once a year. i meet all my relatives once a year. how sad can that get. and reunion dinner last night. 5 people. my dad, my sis, uncle, cousin, and me. haha. yeah...

anyway 2 more days.

piano exam.

o's result.

worst thing that can happen.

both fall on the same day.

because it's a monday.

anyway!

never mind.

when you love something, let it go.

haha.

okay.

the more you desire, the more it is not gonna happen.

hahahaha. things just work that way sometimes. yeah.. anyway was great today! had sajc cross country! at macritchie reservoir. had a good run! yeah and my position was............ 109th. hahahhaa. quite okay i guess.... i mean yeah. i didnt stop. and... yeah.. a good run. i wanna be super fit! haha. after that had OG outing. OG 14! we went to junction 8.. had lunch at foodcourt.. took neoprints with the girls.. watched movie! memoirs of a geisha. hahaha. was alright. good acting! haha. then went to some mcdonalds. ate and chat and stuff. then took bus back with mayhwee, zefeng, daniel, meiqi, wee keat and mian jun.. haha. chitted and chatted. talking about looks of people! who's good looking and who's not... bla bla bla. shallow stuff i know. hahaahahhaa. but, oh well! it's just human nature. to judge people. not all the time anyway.

american idol's back!!!!!!!!! woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!! my all time favourite show!!!! hahahaha. i love simon.

and then... tomorrow another long day.. touch rugby at 5pm. oh man.. then friday cny celebration. then it's like 5 days break! yes!

happy chinese new year!

stop being desperate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol.

i love you all.

hahahahaa.. my life was fun today. i met many people. and did quite fun stuffs. haha.

and yesterday.. normal school stuffs. lectures and tutorials. and then walked with ming wei ming de and jeremy. hahaha. new friend. quite nice guy i guess.. but he going australia. to study. so i'll not see him anymore. yeah and took mrt.. funny thing happened! awww. haha.

and today. today today today. enjoyed every moment! haha. well, had chapel in the morning. quite alright. i like singing so it's fine. and i just have to dare to do the sign of the cross! i'm catholic, hello??? haha. and then... did the chinese new year poster design thing in class. had first PE lesson. and the teacher rocks! oh my.. totally love sajc's teachers. except for one geog teacher. there are 2. and i love one. ahaa. mr leong.. so nice.

after PE, played captain's ball and basketball with CG. haha. still getting to know them better. yeah.. then had bio and maths tutorials.

fang xue!!! hahahha. then hang around with my OG people. they still rock the most. love them!!!! hahahhaaha. had lunch. sat and talked, from the canteen, to the fitness corner, and then to toapayoh. we had a nice time! hope we'll stick together. i mean... yeah.. i really love my friends.. haha..

OG 14!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after that.. went back to bukit batok by mrt.. i met quite a few people. like, kai jie, khairi, karen, syafiq, sean, jeremy, my sis, shao yu. yeah. hahahahahaha. i met up with sean. had dinner. then went to MC. mac.. did work with sean and syafiq for a while. then met jeremy again.. went to mac again.. did stuffs. and went with kaijie for a while. haha. had a great time. meeting old friends. really a nice feeling you know. haha.

number one worry!!!!!!!!!!!!!! piano exam!!!! on the 13th of FEB. oh my god. the Lord help me. haha. i'm not quite fully prepared yet!!! oh shit.... and yesterday and today didnt practise. what the hell?? i wanna get distinction. hahahahaha. i wanna jump to grade 4. yes!!!! i shall try my best. haha.

and then. school work! tutorials. only touch a bit. and i dont think i have time to finish. sian.. wanna just slack. and do nothing. but that sucks too. now already feeling tired of all these. cant imagine what will happen in the next 2 years. sigh.

and then.. things to look forward to. sajc cross country. next wed. quite excited. haha. although i'm not a very good runner. in mcritchie reservoir!! hahaha. dunno how to spell.. but yeah.. my first time!! sounds nice.. running through jungles and stuff. haha. then after that got OG outing!! time to have some fun!!

some more.. chinese new year. havent done any shopping. feeling no qi fen. but well.. yeah.. XIN NIAN KUAI LE!!! WAN SHI RU YI!!! XING XIAN SHI CHEN!! hahaha. all the simple shit.

so sleepy.

touch rugby

oh my god.

haha.

new week.

sigh.

i still am the quiet me.

had touch rugby tryout today.

had to run 2.4km in 15 mins.

but i overshot by 23 seconds.

argh.

and then sprinting.

within my group i got 2nd.

was alright i guess.

so many girls.

competition.

i hate that feeling.

and then.

just hung around with my og.. maziah..

yeah...

work beginning to come. i fear not being able to cope.

and church!

new catechism class.

seems good.

every week is at the hall now.

fun.

with God.






be open to changes. do whatever you want. say whatever you want. be whatever you want to be. love life. love people. accept critism. have fun. perservere. work hard. play hard.

ahhhh.

just.

stop hiding!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!