temperature!

lol. hahahahahhahahaha.

the rugby match just now.. was a blast!!! and SA won!!!!! 15 to 10!!! oh my oh my oh my. we were like losing at first. then the last 10 mins or so. they scored twice! oh my god, the atmosphere then, really unbelievable. lol. immediately after the last score, all of us SA supporters ran down to the field to cheer for the rugby guys. they really did everyone proud!!! was so touching. all the cheering.

it was against RJ anyway. hahahahha.

hahahahah. life now is great! haha. anyway one more week and the holidays. yay!

but. oh man. so freaking busy. ltc. chalet. odac trip. bbss dinner. i just hope i can make it for all.

plus project work. shhhhhhhiiiiiittt. have to go down to JE library every week to carry out our activities with the kids. help! i dont know how to handle them! haha. i have to like be a big sister. and a clown. lol.

it's alright.

cool!

i cant afford hiding anymore.

come out of that freaking shell!

i'm seventeen!

hahahhaha. woo! enjoyed myself.

wanna thank my primary school friends for today. gladys, jocelyn, alan, mingjie, tianbee, weixing and hong yi. thank you all so so so so so so much for making my day today. we had quite some fun. and i really love you all. it's great, having such long time friends, still being there for you. =)

and also.. sean melvin and jia xin! thanks!

i had a great 17 birthday. and hope my wish comes true.

hahahahhaahhaah oh shitttttttttttttttttttttt after this weekend. life is gonna suck. haha. so freaking busy!!!!!! i dont want!!!!!!!

sigh.

good night.

shy? die.

hahahahaha thanks for making my day. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA so many nice little things happened today. i'm so sweetened.

and it's like one more day! sexaaaaaaaay seventeen! jokes. hahaaha. cant wait for tomorrow. celebrating with jiaxin and people. late night out! woo hoo! and then on friday going out with primary school gang. haha.

awesome!

and odac today.. quite nice.. hahahah. had PT which was quite relaxed. then the 8 who went for interview.. hahah hope it went well..

yes!

i so hope you'll wish me.

full strength!

hahahahhahahahahhaha odac camp was AWESOME! hahaha. it was the most real camp i've ever had. and yeah i really enjoyed it. the only worry i have after it is...dunno i will be selected or not.

haha. first day! we assembled in G101 at 7 pm. had briefing and stuff.. then first activity is obstacle course. hahaha. i thought it was some physically challenging stations.. but then it was actually games. haha. my group leaders were chang dee, amos and choo qi. they're all great! nice people. and can crap with them. then yeah.. my group mates! hahahaha. love them la...

valerie. wei hao. cheryl. clarissa. ee ling. geok hian. joshua. jason. maurice. and me. group 3!!!! hahahaha. we rock man.

then.. later at night had tent pitching. which was quite sucky. unsuccessful. poles broke. strings snapped. but in the end we managed to pitch. the last group to finish anyway. haha. had group discussion after that with the leaders.. we had lots of room to improve, they said.

second day went to pulau ubin! i was really excited actually. haha. whole day we did orienteering, campfire night, solo night walk, dinner cooking. lazy to elaborate.. hahaha.. but the solo nightwalk was really coooooooooool. not suppose to use a torchlight. and just follow the lightstick trails. which were so far apart. so it's like, you walk past one lightstick. and just continue to walk straight in the darkness and hope to see another light stick. haha. damn dark. and weird sounds. but since they're from animals, not scary la. haha. then i THOUGHT i saw stuffs. you know, black patches. like 2 figures standing on each side of the road. i just walked past and tried not to care. hahahahhaa. i'm so brave can. lol. then at the end 2 seniors showed me my spot to sleep. it was quite a nice big space. got sea view, can see the stars. nice! still abit scary though. hoping not to hear sounds like footsteps or voices. so... slept until 3 am.. then seniors came to wake us up. walked all the way back to the campsite. next morning ah.. our seniors then told us we were actually at the cemetary area. oh my god! i would have died if i saw a tombstone. damn lucky.

oh yeah.. anyway our campsite was on the beach.. had our campfire there. was fun! i think our group was the highest. danced and sang vigorously and loudly. lol. so fun! plus chang dee and amos were the emcees. haha. they damn cute la! and then orienteering for the whole afternoon. walked like to and fro the island. and it's walking fast. so we sweat like crazy. haha. it was fun. but having the first aid scenarios. i kinda revising so i didnt know what to do. most of us didnt know. only weihao know everything. haha. then scolded by seniors. every time after every scenario. oh man. but after a while it was alright. then had another group discussion. this time we were more chatty.. haha. had some good laughs. we were ask to talk about someone else in the group. hahaha. then valerie and geok hian say their first impression of me was like cold, dao, unfriendly, soft-spoken. lol. aiya.. then we talked about some other fun stuffs. cooked dinner! wasnt as great as we wanted, cause started to drizzle! then campfire night. haha.

3rd day! had mass drill for hornet attack. wa lao eh that one! evacuation of casualties over quite a distance. damn tiring. i also kena scolded for smiling. cute.

came back to singapore... washed tents. debrief. another group discussion. cryable! we were to talk about feelings and stuff. draw pictures to express our thoughts and experiences.. everyone just mentioned its the bond and people around you that make the camp count.. giving you the stength to overcome the obstacles. sigh.... damn touching. after that had a little chat with the girls.. then home..

love all of them la!!!! oh my god. this camp.. really memorable.

ODAC rocks!

just hope i get selected. i was okay la..

haha. after i came home.. unpacked.. bathe.. did housework (cause daddy not in singapore). haha. went out to meet kelvin and meifung. we had a good time together.. went to marina square eat at long john.. esplanade rooftop. that place, never fails to make me feel at peace. lol. romantic la! then so nice view. then went to plaza sing walked around.. played arcade. quite fun la.. hahaha. should go out with them often. then went back home. fell asleep on the sofa.

i've got a cat now! stray one.. and my sis just tied a red strap around its neck. so damn cute. it's black anyway. i think it likes our home now. coming here everyday. not willing to go out. hahahahhaa. cats rock! rock!

then today my dad came home already.

and also, TEMPERATURE!!! oh man. i dont care la actually. dont want a repeat of that slimy thing. hahaha. why am i being so cute.

hahahhaa.

life rocks, suck c***.

hehe.

all thanks to jia xin.

oooooooooooo laa laa.

hahaha. it has been long.

hahahhaha. oh well. whats up?

trying to get back on track. STILL. but should be much better now.

hahahhahaha. also dunno what to type here.

anyway next week got odac camp! sounds exciting. and my group is quite nice. we just have to know each other more. and then..... got lots of stuff to freaking pack. oh god. first thing, 3 1.5 litres bottle. thats gonna take up half the space. and other craps. haha.

oh my god.. odac.. seems tough. to get in. to stay inside. to whatever. but anyway... urgh.. dunno..

and then.. now got freaking so much work to do.. and PI is shit.

plus piano.. really getting harder. i suck. no time to practise either??

and then.. i'm so not a good catholic. takes effort too.

plus other teeny weeny problems.

oh shut up richalynn. dont act like i have a tough life.

hahahha. dont care.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! awesomeness. but i can only look and admire. and i'm satisfied this way. lol.

one step at a time.

stay positive.

stand by me.

sigh.... confusion.

and it's not going to get any better.


argh. why are all my post so....................... depressing. haha.

let me just talk about something else.

today, alumni band prac! loving it! hahahaha. but it's making me so so so so so regret that i didnt join sa band. but it's alright! shumin came too.. hahha. played the same old songs.. plus the last piece. so fun! anyway jx had to go off early.. hockey huh girl. then went for lunch with shumin.. fadly, peiling and steph. heard new stuffs about the band now. and now deyong, my junior, my beloved junior, most loved by me, is like so high up there now. ex co of the prefectorial board.. KINDA not slow now then i know. shit. haha. anyway good for him!! hahaha. hope to see him soon. miss him man... lol. then went home with fadly. rocks.

i'm like suppose to do PI now!!!!! fuck.

i love being vulgar!

haha.

anyway monday, hmm. hmm. hmm. endurance run. i passed! i ran like constantly all the way! actually not. last many rounds i slowed down at the curves. and speed at the straight lanes. so happy i did it.

and tuesday to friday. i really dont remember what happened. just that.. in school. the campaigning of the nominees for house comm members. cheryl! hahahaha. congrats to her. and then.. yesterday. some tv crew came to our gp class. some show about gp.. and interviewed our indian friends. haha. plus mrs muru. quite an experience.

i love jing yu and jowy. funniest ever. haha.

okay. that's about it.

hehehhehe angel and mortal. i so wish. but it'll never be true.

what the hellllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

relax.

get.a.grip.man.

oh man this is sooooooooooooooo sad.

sigh! what a life.

anyway. things got better.

yeah... life concert last night! was great! jia xin came too. didnt get to sit with mel they all. soooo was with jx.. had a nice time. singing and stuff. was moved actually.

anyway today.. ODAC was fun. lol. had field cooking. and my group won! so cool! haha. and our cheer is so crappish. funny! haha. and then... odac.. quite scary... but will be fun i guess.

try my best!

and i really need to do something.

oh God help me.

and i'm suppose to do PI now.

total shit.

and yeah i know, stop looking.

it gets irritating.

haha.

life sucks.

but why life sucks?

rain clouds come to play.

LOL. first good news of the month! i got distinction for piano exam!!! 133/150. hahahahhaa. BUT. it's only grade 2. so nothing wow. hahaha.

but well! it's still an accomplishment! a push-factor!

i love the piano!

anyway.................................... ahaha. xue fen had her match today. and heard they won every game. oh my. she must have rocked! just now in hall look at her play already quite erm... impressed? charmed? attracted? lol. no la. dunno la. she's so cool. xuefen are you reading this i'm falling in love with you.

haha.

and today was fine. thank the Lord. it was much better. i felt better i guess.. and today when reaching home.. came out of the lift and saw the sky. OH MY GOSH. a freaking beautiful sunset. it was really a "yu guo tian qing". yeah so i admired it for a while. haha. suddenly missed the days when i come home and get to see the awesome sky almost everyday. aaaaaaahhhhh.... sunsets. they better not build anything to block that whole area.

and then yeah.. normal lectures. and stuff.

sigh nothing much.

cheer up!

accept it!

this is shit isnt it.

raining now and it feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeels so good. how i wish i could just go out and run in the rain to no where.

but of course, that's only in dramas.

anyway...... FINALLY the freaking week is over. i've not been enjoying. no no no no. sucks. sucks. sucks. i want to go back to sec sch!

okay that is silly. one must learn to adapt.

argh!

i've been worrying about cca. i thought i could happily join touch rugby. but i realised NO. i cannot. i just dont enjoy myself there. the day always ends up depressingly. so i was thinking like crazy. wanted to join band. but what the hell they have practices on saturdays from 9 to 4. i dont mind that, BUT it clashes with my alumni band.. i dont think i will want to sacrifice that. especially when people i love are there. so no band. SIGH. i would really love to join. but oh well. so i thought of track and field. and then today i went for ODAC's briefing... it was alright................... the good thing is that we get to do a lot of activities like rock climbing, kayaking, night cycling etc. learn outdoor skills, first aid. have camps. overseas trip. AND TO MOUNT KINABALU THIS JUNE. (melvin i'm thinking of you and laughing) haha. my dream since sec 1. and to nepal end of this year. but the thing is, from now till june is the selection period. so we have to be super good students, with commitment, initiative, and the other 2 i forgot already. haha. anyway and there's lots of planning and organising and writing of proposals.. it's quite scary... and even more when i have not been in any leadership position before. this sucks. i suck. sigh. but hey come on look at the bright side. this is a great chance!!!! for me to GROW. and stop hiding in my shell. BE CONFIDENT. yeah. my biggest problem in my life. SIGH.

SO, yeah. set. ODAC.

so... problem number 1 solved.

2nd problem is.... something that i shouldnt say in here.

and then studies and all that crap. should be quite alright. i quite like my tutors. and my class is great.

it's so hard to settle down.

i feel so restricted. maybe cause i worry too much. i think too much. i read too much into things.

things are just FINE. fine. FINE.

nothing is wrong.

haha.

sigh

fuck.

feeling like shit now. sigh.

i

feel

damn

neglected.

what is so wrong?

with me?

with you?

been telling, reminding, trying.












it's just not where i belong.

so leave? or try harder.




solution: dont give a shit.

depression

haha.. okay here goes.

Instructions: The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.

lol.

gender: male.

so..

number 1. sporty. yeah..

2. musically inclined. best is play piano!!

3. pleasant looking?? haha. i actually am quite attracted to nerdy-cute kind. haha. cool. tall. tanned. etc.

4. funny. very on type one.. i dont care if you're vulgar or not. mature. bla.

5. generous.

6. of course you have to love me the way i am. haha.

7. romantic yeah.. small gestures can already. lol.

8. lol. clean.

okay.

quite crappy.

gonna watch american idol now.

bye!