another week passed by so damn quickly. with learning fest taking up 2 days. it was pretty alright. went for the impressions at first sight thing. and puppetry, and comic drawing. haha. studied a little here and there. simpsons with rmb. oh yeah went back to band on wednesday! and decided to play for the concert. haha. tt feeling, dunno how to describe la. just so heartwarming. playing trombone again after so many months. plus with the juniors. =) and yeah like mr goh said, this batch's really fun! like damn noisy, but fun. hahah. i bet they're gonna go far too.

and the concert on sat! metamorphosis. it was really enjoyable. hanging around with my section. waiting for our turn to play.. talking and stuff. playing with them on stage... sigh. i so miss band. and will always miss it. something tt i really cant let go of. after A levels, revive alumni!

after tt night keep thinking back, the band times in bbss. seniors leaving, juniors coming in. then our turn to leave... sigh.

trom section over the years...

hahah..

this is great!!

i gotta study!!

i lost it halfway.

9 pointer. (not a big deal, but still..)

now nearing the end.

and still getting Us. maths U. chem U. GP U. bio S. argh. hopefully can pass geog. if not really... congratulations richalynn.

had a little chat with miss ye yesterday.

"miss ye.... am i in deep shit."

miss ye: giggles. "no la. treading shit only"

okay... sigh. and then she went on saying.. those who scored As and Bs in A levels, normally wont have such bad results in the common tests and stuff. bla bla.. and just have to put in more effort. much more.

its so hard not to think that i'm so dead for A levels. look at the results now. and see how much time i have left. how much more can be done? are As and Bs possible?

what have i gotten myself into. where was i the last one year and a half.

there is a very thin line between believing in yourself and not giving up hope, and facing reality.

and i'm really panicking now. and still blogging. what the fuck. 3 more months. just 3 more. i dont wanna walk out of hall after the last paper, hoping that i could start all over again. no. i wanna enjoy the holidays.

dont lose hope. give your all, and never give up.
impossible is nothing.
miracles do happen.
Dear God... allow me to make the big leap.

new week!! better follow my study plans.. 7 weeks left to prelims, and another month to A's. sigh. life shouldnt be about counting down, but living each day not knowing whats coming up next, making each day count. to make it count. hahah. reminds me of titanic. 3 movies in a week. die hard, harry potter, and death proof. study sessions with raine and wesley in spinelli. farewell party. and RMB studying session. LOVES! thank you J1s for the farewell. sad that there wasnt much time for us to bond better. oh wells, at least theres something, and will really miss odac. and rmb is always so exciting.

study study study.

piano piano piano.

movie movie movie.

studying has officially started. everyday after sch with raine at spinelli. hopefully this is gonna work. keep reading, keep practicing. just 4 months left. its gonna be over soon. so soon. last lap. dont give up, you dont wanna regret. as expected, did really shityly for block test 2. sigh. haiya what the fuck la. looking forward to farewell party later.. wonder how will it be like. one year ago, we did it for our seniors. and now its our turn... have we all gone through the same things? felt the same feelings?

haha.

i love studying.

block fucking test 2 is finally over. haha. it was depressing, disastrous, demoralising. sigh. SIGH. everything sucked and the only paper i feel confident of passing is probably bio paper 1? forget it. move on. work harder next time.

so... i want to watch die hard. and i want to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. body clock screwed since holidays and ever since i have difficulties sleeping. have been sleeping at 4 and 5 am in the mornings. hai. and the days ahead are... a bloody routine. i'm gonna start hardcore studying soon. like sunday. hopefully. all planned out. cant afford to waste any more time. 2 months left to prelims. 2 months to revise evey goddamn thing. but, really look forward to later. kbox with yumin and friends!!! haha. and minqi's green thing. and rmb. and pri sch birthday gathering. and farewell party. and rapture? thankfully for these things, there is some life in my life. sigh.

piano teacher cancelled lesson again. =( come on, dont lose the passion.

gonna rest, slack, tv!!

shawshank redemption, DAMN GOOD MOVIE!!!

and i still miss sabah ALOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

i'm gonna fail.................................... argh. fuck la. i did study, maybe not hard enough. and all the papers so far, so bloody tough. gonna get triple Us. gonna feel so great after that. she bloody showed us the normal progressions of our seniors from bt1 to A's, and said no way we can make big leaps unless "you're really that special". thank you very much and shut up.

but. sigh. i'll study. 4 months left. less com, less tv.

18 years old. really the TIME of our lives.

i really miss the times spent with

and

and




i miss everything.

free from reality.

...

fake thoughts.

things said and done just to fit the big picture, and make everything seem pretty and pleasant.

is that it?

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Time Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

well well... this week, i've studied quite abit, i think. i skipped chem and maths mock. chem was not on purpose. sigh. its like i'm just floating around, doing what i'm suppose to do, with no meaning whatsoever. back to this shit feeling again. haha. anyway... let me recall the past few days.. jogging with dearest cheryl in the morning at jurong west stadium. meeting up with JURONG to play basketball. studying alone at jurong east library. and then overnight study with xiu, cheryl and ziyi, which totally didnt work for me. brain block after 2am. got back home to sleep at 6am. and then study with tianbee next day. at jurong east library. arcade at night. wednesday, odac dinner! hahaha. at seoul garden in marina square. it was pretty alright. nice food, lots of photos. met sean after that!! and elina too. i think thats the best thing that happened this week. we caught up quite abit. and walked from esplanade to town... just felt so good finally seeing him again. anyway... sigh. hahah thursday, studying with matt and ben! it was a first. as usual we were all late, and tried national library. but no. and then went to some hdb block nearby, and studied at a study corner over there. ahahahha weirdest place to study. but it was quite good. dinner at bugis food village, 1 hour study at national library, and taking pictures again. yesterday... stayed home to study. actually not bad, i mentioned "study" quite a few times. life now should be: four walls, table and chair, radio, and all the study shit. and one week left, bio and geog untouched. i dunno... feel so scared now. 4 months left to A's. should have started revising like 3 months ago... but never mind. look forward. treasure all the remaining seconds left. think of my target, think of my dream, think of all the things i wanna do after A levels, think of leaving the hall next year smiling, heaving big sighs of relief. i still miss that place, that river.RMB! =D

seanie.

lock the doors.
we'll leave the world outside.
just you and me.















cant wait to return.